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I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one.
I read through this entire calamity and this statement stands like a beacon. Nate, you need to tattoo this on your back.br /br /Twenty years ago, I made the statement that, once you do something, you only quit when you die. You can stop for a period, but for as long as you're alive, you cannot quit.br /br /Then, 4 weeks ago, I found this place. Quit for a day, they said. I can't quit, I'm not dead, but I can stop for a day.br /br /So, as you are thinking about what will be different, think about the fact that you are not "done". You can be done today. Unless you are willing to kill yourself, that's about as far as you can take it.br /br /You are not DONE Nate, until you are planted in the cold brown earth, you will NEVER be DONE! Every focking day of the rest of your life, you are an addict. There is no DONE in ADDICTION!!!br /br /I don't know why these idjits keep coming back to pick you up.
Quote from: wildirish317
Quote from: natemcpherson
I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one.
I read through this entire calamity and this statement stands like a beacon. Nate, you need to tattoo this on your back.br /br /Twenty years ago, I made the statement that, once you do something, you only quit when you die. You can stop for a period, but for as long as you're alive, you cannot quit.br /br /Then, 4 weeks ago, I found this place. Quit for a day, they said. I can't quit, I'm not dead, but I can stop for a day.br /br /So, as you are thinking about what will be different, think about the fact that you are not "done". You can be done today. Unless you are willing to kill yourself, that's about as far as you can take it.br /br /You are not DONE Nate, until you are planted in the cold brown earth, you will NEVER be DONE! Every focking day of the rest of your life, you are an addict. There is no DONE in ADDICTION!!!br /br /I don't know why these idjits keep coming back to pick you up.
Quote from: wildirish317
Quote from: natemcpherson
I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one.
I read through this entire calamity and this statement stands like a beacon. Nate, you need to tattoo this on your back.

Twenty years ago, I made the statement that, once you do something, you only quit when you die. You can stop for a period, but for as long as you're alive, you cannot quit.

Then, 4 weeks ago, I found this place. Quit for a day, they said. I can't quit, I'm not dead, but I can stop for a day.

So, as you are thinking about what will be different, think about the fact that you are not "done". You can be done today. Unless you are willing to kill yourself, that's about as far as you can take it.

You are not DONE Nate, until you are planted in the cold brown earth, you will NEVER be DONE! Every focking day of the rest of your life, you are an addict. There is no DONE in ADDICTION!!!

I don't know why these idjits keep coming back to pick you up.
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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #120 on: March 30, 2016, 02:06:00 PM »
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I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one.
I read through this entire calamity and this statement stands like a beacon. Nate, you need to tattoo this on your back.

Twenty years ago, I made the statement that, once you do something, you only quit when you die. You can stop for a period, but for as long as you're alive, you cannot quit.

Then, 4 weeks ago, I found this place.  Quit for a day, they said. I can't quit, I'm not dead, but I can stop for a day.

So, as you are thinking about what will be different, think about the fact that you are not "done". You can be done today. Unless you are willing to kill yourself, that's about as far as you can take it.

You are not DONE Nate, until you are planted in the cold brown earth, you will NEVER be DONE! Every focking day of the rest of your life, you are an addict. There is no DONE in ADDICTION!!!

I don't know why these idjits keep coming back to pick you up.
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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #119 on: March 30, 2016, 12:43:00 PM »
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To be honest, the reason I have been checking out the past couple days after posting roll is I feel guilty as shit about letting guys down. This is 100% honest. I'm doing this for the July 2016 guys as a cautionary tale. My first response to the 3 questions was bullshit.

What happened:

I have had two serious attempts to quit on this site (separated by one weekend), and two not so serious attempts. In 2014, I quit on March 5th, (I think), and stayed off nicotine for 70 something days. I was somewhat involved on the site, had a few phone numbers and didn't really use them. I posted roll every day, but didn't do much more than that. And then, I caved (no surprise after my lackluster attempt). After a weekend of dipping, I realized how severely I had fucked up and got back to KTC the next day. I did everything I could to stay quit. I got phone numbers, texted (and called) with guys EVERY SINGLE DAY. I was all in. I was conductor for the HOF train. I supported guys and they supported me. I got involved with new groups and made myself and others accountable. As I was doing those things, the thought of nic was the furthest thing from my mind. For the first time ever, during the one or two times where I was having a real bad craving (past 100 days), I actually called guys and talked through it. It worked. Every time. I did everything differently. The reason why in my initial post I said that there was nothing new I could say was because I had actually done the deal (for a while). I did all the things that I hadn't done in the past, and it worked. Well......then why did I cave? See below.

Why did it happen:

Every now and then, though, I would allow the insidious thought to creep back in that dip might not have been that bad. They weren't frequent, and they didn't last for long, but they still came up. I would quickly turn my thoughts back to the shit it caused and the negatives, but I would occasionally romanticize it. I hit some shit in my personal life and the thought crossed my mind that I have a solution to this problem! A solution that would make all the shit feel better - stick some disgusting brown cancer causing plant in my gums. Do I need to tell you whether or not that solution worked?

I caved after the better part of a year. On the day that I caved, I texted guys in the AM that I would quit with them for that day. That was very shitty. I completely understand why guys have lost all faith in me and are pissed off at my lack of integrity.

For the last 14 months, I have dipped nonstop. Here's the deal with caving - as an addict, there is no such thing as one dip and back to KTC. If I dip, it is non-stop, all the time. Be vigilant with your mind, because your thoughts of dip will use any avenue to fuck you up if you have any kind of crack in your wall.

What am I going to do differently?

I am going to go back to those things I mentioned above - accountability, first and foremost. I have a long road to go to earn back trust. I am getting involved as I did before. All in. There is no middle ground for me. The most important thing, though, is that I must crush any romantic notions of dip. I am done with it forever. No contingencies. No 'break in case of emergency' bullshit I held on to for a long time. It is gone and I am way better for it. It is shit, I turn into a con-artist (to sneak out to get in a dip), it does nothing for me (just takes away the withdrawl), and it makes me feel like shit about myself.

Having said all of that - if you ever cave - COME BACK RIGHT AWAY. That day that you're hoping for where you'll just wake up and not want to dip anymore will not come. I only made it back here through a lot of pain and a cancer scare. This is not an endorsement of caving, ever. It's just a reality of this addiction.

I am quit for me. I can't quit for anyone else. That bums me out Bronc - but I totally get it. I'm quitting today regardless.
sigh

Go away, dude.

I dipped for 25 years.
2 cans a day.
Lied to everyone.
Wasted my families money.
Never...ever... tried to quit.
I was doomed.

My wife texted me this site address one day.
It scared the hell out of me that my life was a joke and more see-through than I thought.

I. Quit.

I owned it.

1,079 days, almost 12,000 posts, and 100% roll.

You. Piss. Me. Off.

Go somewhere else... you don't get to "try" again.
Well, it’s one louder, isn’t it? It’s not ten.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #118 on: March 30, 2016, 12:17:00 PM »
To be honest, the reason I have been checking out the past couple days after posting roll is I feel guilty as shit about letting guys down. This is 100% honest. I'm doing this for the July 2016 guys as a cautionary tale. My first response to the 3 questions was bullshit.

What happened:

I have had two serious attempts to quit on this site (separated by one weekend), and two not so serious attempts. In 2014, I quit on March 5th, (I think), and stayed off nicotine for 70 something days. I was somewhat involved on the site, had a few phone numbers and didn't really use them. I posted roll every day, but didn't do much more than that. And then, I caved (no surprise after my lackluster attempt). After a weekend of dipping, I realized how severely I had fucked up and got back to KTC the next day. I did everything I could to stay quit. I got phone numbers, texted (and called) with guys EVERY SINGLE DAY. I was all in. I was conductor for the HOF train. I supported guys and they supported me. I got involved with new groups and made myself and others accountable. As I was doing those things, the thought of nic was the furthest thing from my mind. For the first time ever, during the one or two times where I was having a real bad craving (past 100 days), I actually called guys and talked through it. It worked. Every time. I did everything differently. The reason why in my initial post I said that there was nothing new I could say was because I had actually done the deal (for a while). I did all the things that I hadn't done in the past, and it worked. Well......then why did I cave? See below.

Why did it happen:

Every now and then, though, I would allow the insidious thought to creep back in that dip might not have been that bad. They weren't frequent, and they didn't last for long, but they still came up. I would quickly turn my thoughts back to the shit it caused and the negatives, but I would occasionally romanticize it. I hit some shit in my personal life and the thought crossed my mind that I have a solution to this problem! A solution that would make all the shit feel better - stick some disgusting brown cancer causing plant in my gums. Do I need to tell you whether or not that solution worked?

I caved after the better part of a year. On the day that I caved, I texted guys in the AM that I would quit with them for that day. That was very shitty. I completely understand why guys have lost all faith in me and are pissed off at my lack of integrity.

For the last 14 months, I have dipped nonstop. Here's the deal with caving - as an addict, there is no such thing as one dip and back to KTC. If I dip, it is non-stop, all the time. Be vigilant with your mind, because your thoughts of dip will use any avenue to fuck you up if you have any kind of crack in your wall.

What am I going to do differently?

I am going to go back to those things I mentioned above - accountability, first and foremost. I have a long road to go to earn back trust. I am getting involved as I did before. All in. There is no middle ground for me. The most important thing, though, is that I must crush any romantic notions of dip. I am done with it forever. No contingencies. No 'break in case of emergency' bullshit I held on to for a long time. It is gone and I am way better for it. It is shit, I turn into a con-artist (to sneak out to get in a dip), it does nothing for me (just takes away the withdrawl), and it makes me feel like shit about myself.

Having said all of that - if you ever cave - COME BACK RIGHT AWAY. That day that you're hoping for where you'll just wake up and not want to dip anymore will not come. I only made it back here through a lot of pain and a cancer scare. This is not an endorsement of caving, ever. It's just a reality of this addiction.

I am quit for me. I can't quit for anyone else. That bums me out Bronc - but I totally get it. I'm quitting today regardless.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #117 on: March 29, 2016, 12:45:00 PM »
I don't even know what to say other than I won't give you any of my time. You already used up your allotment. Fly away special butterfly. 'Finger'

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #116 on: March 29, 2016, 09:28:00 AM »
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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #115 on: March 29, 2016, 07:29:00 AM »
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I am an addict and can absolutely not stop dipping.

After a number of failed attempts to quit -- topic/1011340/1/

I must stop. Today is day 5. I quit on Thursday and did not think I needed to come back to this site until today.

I wasn't going to come back to Kill the Can because of the shame I had from my previous failed attempts. Today, though, was a tough day and I almost caved. My wife and I found out today that we are expecting our first child. My excitement turned to a bit of anxiety, which turned to the thought that crowded out all else. Nicotine would be the perfect thing for this day.

I rationalized to myself that I had an old vaporizer with nicotine juice in the basement that I could use that wouldn't really be 'caving'. Well, I tried it and it was broken. The thing didn't work. At that point I came to my senses. That wake up call got me back here and scared the shit out of me.

My two longest quits on this site were 200+ days and 70 something days. I let my quit brothers down in my previous groups. I was selfish and I guess held on to a small part of me that still thought dipping was an escape. Well, in February 2015, I went through an emotional breakdown of sorts (unrelated to dipping), and after 200+ days, used it as an excuse to buy a tin.

I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one. I think my quit last year was pretty solid, I used the tools, I was a conductor for the HOF group that followed our group, but as time went on, I slowly allowed the thought to creep in that tobacco wasn't that bad of an addiction. It started very slowly at first, and grew, until the time when my guard was down, I used the first excuse I had as an excuse to dip.

I'm going to post roll today, and can answer any questions I need to. This website (and the men and women on it), is the only thing I have ever found to free me from the bondage of nicotine.
Good. God.

You're the second multi-caver fool to show up today thinking to just post up a page full of bullshit "answers" that you think we all want to hear.

Wrong.

You don't get it. You won't get it.

We can NOT abide the kind of weak-ass "try and try again" mentality that you obvioulsy think is acceptable. It sends the wrong message and it taints everything this site stands for. As far as I'm concerned... you should be gone. This is your 3rd go? Yeah... piss off. I wish for you to quit but not here.
You burned the wrong boats. Honor, respect, brotherhood, accountability are all meaningless words to you. You refuse to give them meaning. You can type them until your fingers fall off, but your actions tell us the truth.


'Finger'
'Finger'
 'Finger'
There are no circumstances in which using nicotine will improve the outcome.

My journey. The best part it is not over yet.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #114 on: March 28, 2016, 11:07:00 PM »
Quote from: natemcpherson
I am an addict and can absolutely not stop dipping.

After a number of failed attempts to quit -- topic/1011340/1/

I must stop. Today is day 5. I quit on Thursday and did not think I needed to come back to this site until today.

I wasn't going to come back to Kill the Can because of the shame I had from my previous failed attempts. Today, though, was a tough day and I almost caved. My wife and I found out today that we are expecting our first child. My excitement turned to a bit of anxiety, which turned to the thought that crowded out all else. Nicotine would be the perfect thing for this day.

I rationalized to myself that I had an old vaporizer with nicotine juice in the basement that I could use that wouldn't really be 'caving'. Well, I tried it and it was broken. The thing didn't work. At that point I came to my senses. That wake up call got me back here and scared the shit out of me.

My two longest quits on this site were 200+ days and 70 something days. I let my quit brothers down in my previous groups. I was selfish and I guess held on to a small part of me that still thought dipping was an escape. Well, in February 2015, I went through an emotional breakdown of sorts (unrelated to dipping), and after 200+ days, used it as an excuse to buy a tin.

I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one. I think my quit last year was pretty solid, I used the tools, I was a conductor for the HOF group that followed our group, but as time went on, I slowly allowed the thought to creep in that tobacco wasn't that bad of an addiction. It started very slowly at first, and grew, until the time when my guard was down, I used the first excuse I had as an excuse to dip.

I'm going to post roll today, and can answer any questions I need to. This website (and the men and women on it), is the only thing I have ever found to free me from the bondage of nicotine.
Good. God.

You're the second multi-caver fool to show up today thinking to just post up a page full of bullshit "answers" that you think we all want to hear.

Wrong.

You don't get it. You won't get it.

We can NOT abide the kind of weak-ass "try and try again" mentality that you obvioulsy think is acceptable. It sends the wrong message and it taints everything this site stands for. As far as I'm concerned... you should be gone. This is your 3rd go? Yeah... piss off. I wish for you to quit but not here.
Well, it’s one louder, isn’t it? It’s not ten.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #113 on: March 28, 2016, 11:00:00 PM »
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I am an addict and can absolutely not stop dipping.

After a number of failed attempts to quit -- topic/1011340/1/

I must stop. Today is day 5. I quit on Thursday and did not think I needed to come back to this site until today.

I wasn't going to come back to Kill the Can because of the shame I had from my previous failed attempts. Today, though, was a tough day and I almost caved. My wife and I found out today that we are expecting our first child. My excitement turned to a bit of anxiety, which turned to the thought that crowded out all else. Nicotine would be the perfect thing for this day.

I rationalized to myself that I had an old vaporizer with nicotine juice in the basement that I could use that wouldn't really be 'caving'. Well, I tried it and it was broken. The thing didn't work. At that point I came to my senses. That wake up call got me back here and scared the shit out of me.

My two longest quits on this site were 200+ days and 70 something days. I let my quit brothers down in my previous groups. I was selfish and I guess held on to a small part of me that still thought dipping was an escape. Well, in February 2015, I went through an emotional breakdown of sorts (unrelated to dipping), and after 200+ days, used it as an excuse to buy a tin.

I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one. I think my quit last year was pretty solid, I used the tools, I was a conductor for the HOF group that followed our group, but as time went on, I slowly allowed the thought to creep in that tobacco wasn't that bad of an addiction. It started very slowly at first, and grew, until the time when my guard was down, I used the first excuse I had as an excuse to dip.

I'm going to post roll today, and can answer any questions I need to. This website (and the men and women on it), is the only thing I have ever found to free me from the bondage of nicotine.
There are so many gems in here I'd exhaust myself pointing them all out. First, you have never quit. You HAVE selfishly wasted the time of many on this site during previous stoppages. You were a HOF Conductor last year? No, last year you came to the June Goons with a sob story of several prior caves. Against the advice of vets, we circled our wagons around you. We swapped digits and we texted. Then you didn't return texts. You were not man enough to tell us WTF happened. This place is for.people who value their word, that's why we call it a promise. It's not a toilet or a shitter or a potty or any of the other things you've used it as.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #112 on: March 28, 2016, 10:28:00 PM »
You need to get your shit together. Check your PMs.

You shit on my group and how many others now?

If you really want to quit you'll man up and do it. You'll have to forgive me for not expecting you to be around long. Prove me wrong.

Your word means nothing; as has been proven repeatedly.

Do something different or get out. The last thing we need is someone else to drag down new guys who are putting in the work because you "want to quit for good this time." How many times have you said that and then shit all over your word?
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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #111 on: March 28, 2016, 10:07:00 PM »
Oh do you really? You need to merge accounts. Your word is beyond worthless.
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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #110 on: March 28, 2016, 09:59:00 PM »
I am an addict and can absolutely not stop dipping.

After a number of failed attempts to quit -- topic/1011340/1/

I must stop. Today is day 5. I quit on Thursday and did not think I needed to come back to this site until today.

I wasn't going to come back to Kill the Can because of the shame I had from my previous failed attempts. Today, though, was a tough day and I almost caved. My wife and I found out today that we are expecting our first child. My excitement turned to a bit of anxiety, which turned to the thought that crowded out all else. Nicotine would be the perfect thing for this day.

I rationalized to myself that I had an old vaporizer with nicotine juice in the basement that I could use that wouldn't really be 'caving'. Well, I tried it and it was broken. The thing didn't work. At that point I came to my senses. That wake up call got me back here and scared the shit out of me.

My two longest quits on this site were 200+ days and 70 something days. I let my quit brothers down in my previous groups. I was selfish and I guess held on to a small part of me that still thought dipping was an escape. Well, in February 2015, I went through an emotional breakdown of sorts (unrelated to dipping), and after 200+ days, used it as an excuse to buy a tin.

I'm done. I have quit dozens of times and legitimately meant it each time. What will be different this time? I'm going to have to think about that one. I think my quit last year was pretty solid, I used the tools, I was a conductor for the HOF group that followed our group, but as time went on, I slowly allowed the thought to creep in that tobacco wasn't that bad of an addiction. It started very slowly at first, and grew, until the time when my guard was down, I used the first excuse I had as an excuse to dip.

I'm going to post roll today, and can answer any questions I need to. This website (and the men and women on it), is the only thing I have ever found to free me from the bondage of nicotine.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #109 on: April 02, 2015, 09:25:00 PM »
Bump as a cautionary tale on how not to do it.

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Re: Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1
« Reply #108 on: March 26, 2015, 11:16:00 AM »
Sometimes failure is unavoidable. This guy embraces everything wrong about nicotine, and nothing right about quitting. It's simple ... don't put the shit in your lip, regardless of what life throws at you. Until a realization is met that causes that specific light bulb to go off, there is not much chance.

New guys ... you can use this (repeated) failure to inspire you. This is what NOT to do. Own your fucking quit, or the weed will own you.
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