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CBB1984

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Quote from: drock7Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me.Ã,  I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. TheÃ,  hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.

And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....
my kids even drank from spit cans, cups, bottles...just insanity..
I even remember sore gums once or twice , wait for it , wait for it,... yep... thats
right so sore i dipped in the upper lip. carrying a spit cup in the theater, wedding once, funeral once or twice, the list goes on. Idiot was , thats right was my middle name.
Looks and sounds like a good example of one extreme to the other, good ole fashion basket case. I remain quit today, and have enjoyed this rant rave cry session what ever you want to call it. It was quite releasing.
Hey, we all need to rant and rave and cry. I've done almost everything you've listed, too. When that thought creeps into our heads; that dipping was great or whatever, we just have to "focus on the negative."
QUIT: 05/29/2013
HOF: 09/05/2013

drock7

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Quote from: CBB1984
Quote from: drock7Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me.Ã,  I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. TheÃ,  hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.

And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....
my kids even drank from spit cans, cups, bottles...just insanity..
I even remember sore gums once or twice , wait for it , wait for it,... yep... thats
right so sore i dipped in the upper lip. carrying a spit cup in the theater, wedding once, funeral once or twice, the list goes on. Idiot was , thats right was my middle name.
Looks and sounds like a good example of one extreme to the other, good ole fashion basket case. I remain quit today, and have enjoyed this rant rave cry session what ever you want to call it. It was quite releasing.

drock7

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Quote from: drock7Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me.Ã,  I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. TheÃ,  hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.

And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....

CBB1984

Quote from: drock7Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.

And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
QUIT: 05/29/2013
HOF: 09/05/2013

drock7

Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.

FuFuTheSnu

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Quote from: drock7It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
Big brother is just :ph43r: under the guise of national security
BREAKING: The NSA and FBI have direct access to the KTC servers. They'll be collecting data over the next 90 days in order to determine the exact whereabouts of the Lindbergh baby.

But anyway, back to this "teen porn" you speak of. Where can I find some? I've been on the Internet for days now, and so far I've found nothin'.
By "teen", I'm specifically referring to consenting 19 year olds not from states or countries outlawing such things, and for the express purpose of scholarly research.
So, you see, the puppy was like industry, in that they were both lost in the woods. And nobody, especially the little boy - "society" - knew where to find 'em. Except that the puppy... was a DOG. But the industry, my friends, THAT was a revolution.

FuFuTheSnu

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Quote from: drock7It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
Big brother is just :ph43r: under the guise of national security
BREAKING: The NSA and FBI have direct access to the KTC servers. They'll be collecting data over the next 90 days in order to determine the exact whereabouts of the Lindbergh baby.

But anyway, back to this "teen porn" you speak of. Where can I find some? I've been on the Internet for days now, and so far I've found nothin'.
So, you see, the puppy was like industry, in that they were both lost in the woods. And nobody, especially the little boy - "society" - knew where to find 'em. Except that the puppy... was a DOG. But the industry, my friends, THAT was a revolution.

cbird65

Quote from: drock7It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
Big brother is just :ph43r: under the guise of national security
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drock7

It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first

LionHeartedGirl

Quote from: drock7OK, just killed a crave while making homemade porn...
Think I will name it No NICoTEENS, or New Cans 'arse' SUCK
You are making homemade porn with teenagers?
QUIT LIKE A GIRL!

Quit Date: 5/23/13
HOF: 8/30/13

drock7

OK, just killed a crave while making homemade pies
Think I will name it crave cake, or cream cheese no cave

wastepanel

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Quote from: traumagnetAwesome Drock now you can focus on them without worry about the NIC bitch stealing your thoughts....

so how did you handle the lines all full of assholes...my first time fishing with out dip my line jumped off my real and I had more assholes in it then I could count..
i did give it the ol college try, but ended up cutting the line off and starting fresh. He really messed it up good. They had a blast though
All that matters man, and think of the example you are setting by quitting now. My 8 year old knows about my quit, and knows about my "quitter site". He even told mom that she needed a quitter group for Candy Crush ( 'crackup' ).
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drock7

Quote from: traumagnetAwesome Drock now you can focus on them without worry about the NIC bitch stealing your thoughts....

so how did you handle the lines all full of assholes...my first time fishing with out dip my line jumped off my real and I had more assholes in it then I could count..
i did give it the ol college try, but ended up cutting the line off and starting fresh. He really messed it up good. They had a blast though

traumagnet

Awesome Drock now you can focus on them without worry about the NIC bitch stealing your thoughts....

so how did you handle the lines all full of assholes...my first time fishing with out dip my line jumped off my real and I had more assholes in it then I could count..
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

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Matt F

Man Drock that's impressive difference from your post 6/4 and 6/5. Thanks for the post it gives a lot of encouragement just reading it.