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[syndrome]

i have been reading and reading and reading.. I see many examples of why QUIT, and i agree with the reasons. Then i come across a guy 200 plus days in and he caved. Then 2 and 3 year quitters caved, even know a five year quitter that caved.
I am on only at day 6, and have a question? Does this crap in a can still control the brain after so long, does the urge ever go away. There were no urges before i started, i made myself start and im now making myself QUIT. I would like to think that i could return to my life before dip, no urges. Is it possible, or have we caused brain damage that is irreversable? I know im an addict and always will be, but i do have hope that one day i can say im not haunted by the whore in a can!!!!

sorry man but your a addickt for life. so am i. sos evry buddy here. i got no buddy to blame but me. it doesnt go away for good. the good news is those cravins dont happin much any more. and when they do i can deal with um. and if i coodnt i got numbers. lots a numbers. but man i only hafta rememember days 3 and 4 what reely sucked. or afore day 1 when i dint evin control my own life. i cood drift off and may be cave or may be not. but it dont take me much time to post up roll and burn that brige for the day. i bet those guys with 200 days or 3 or 4 or 5 years prolly aint posted up in weeks or months. you dont read many storys a guys what posted roll with hof days and caved the next day. nope most a them drifted. i aint driftin yet.

[kkljinc]

i have been reading and reading and reading.. I see many examples of why QUIT, and i agree with the reasons. Then i come across a guy 200 plus days in and he caved. Then 2 and 3 year quitters caved, even know a five year quitter that caved.
I am on only at day 6, and have a question? Does this crap in a can still control the brain after so long, does the urge ever go away. There were no urges before i started, i made myself start and im now making myself QUIT. I would like to think that i could return to my life before dip, no urges. Is it possible, or have we caused brain damage that is irreversable? I know im an addict and always will be, but i do have hope that one day i can say im not haunted by the whore in a can!!!!

Drock, if you look into a lot of these caves its because the folks never really did KTC our way. I 200 plus day quitter with 100 posts? Here, is what I know, I come in here every day, and I promise you, and I promise others 14,000 of them I wont use nicotine in any form today.

I post roll in like 10 different groups. I also, have a slew of phone numbers in case I need to re-affirm anything. I plan on continuing my promise every day to protect my quit. I am at day 97, could I make it a day and not cave yes, I am sure of it. But I would rather not tempt fate or the bitch.

Accountability is Key!!!

I quit with your bad ass today.

[drock7]

i have been reading and reading and reading.. I see many examples of why QUIT, and i agree with the reasons. Then i come across a guy 200 plus days in and he caved. Then 2 and 3 year quitters caved, even know a five year quitter that caved.
I am on only at day 6, and have a question? Does this crap in a can still control the brain after so long, does the urge ever go away. There were no urges before i started, i made myself start and im now making myself QUIT. I would like to think that i could return to my life before dip, no urges. Is it possible, or have we caused brain damage that is irreversable? I know im an addict and always will be, but i do have hope that one day i can say im not haunted by the whore in a can!!!!

[traumagnet]

keep busy come here and bitch do not get on your family...we are tuff enuff to take it....you did it not your family...my day 6 was your day 5 it sounds like, I came here and got a talking to by the vets. I am not a vet yet (odaat) let your wife know what is happening so that she can direct herself and kids away from you. you come here let us work on you.

[Wade]

DAY 5 was terrible, im not sure why it was the worst so far. The NIC whore tried to use my wife and kids to get me to cave. I realized i am the one in the battle. I started the crap and i have to be the one to beat it. I could have made the excuse I CANT LIVE WITH THIS WOMAN WITHOUT DIP, and chewed like a donkey chewing on briars. I realized day 5 that the urges are stronger than i could have imagined. Right in the middle of the worst of the worst craves, low and behold i get a text from KillinTheKodiak.... this site isnt a joke, i quit with all you quitters today.

What kind of fucked up shit is that? Your nicotine addicted brain telling you that you can't live with your own wife unless you're steadily feeding nicotine into your body and inching closer and closer to losing your face and dying. That is fucked up. But I know what you mean brother. I've thought the same thing. But, fuck that! We are better than that!

I quit with you today.

[drock7]

DAY 5 was terrible, im not sure why it was the worst so far. The NIC whore tried to use my wife and kids to get me to cave. I realized i am the one in the battle. I started the crap and i have to be the one to beat it. I could have made the excuse I CANT LIVE WITH THIS WOMAN WITHOUT DIP, and chewed like a donkey chewing on briars. I realized day 5 that the urges are stronger than i could have imagined. Right in the middle of the worst of the worst craves, low and behold i get a text from KillinTheKodiak.... this site isnt a joke, i quit with all you quitters today.

[drock7]

I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY

Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.

Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters

Thats funny as shit! My mom was over visiting and read that post. Funny as hell. I'm still laughing my ass off. She didn't get it!

keep it up Drock stay away from the Nic whore she is a sneaky manipulative bitch... Proud of you man keep it up... NAFAR is what I play in my head all day long. Keep the words of Bean I sent you close the weekend is here so keep the site close push a text out now and then to let peeps know you are ok.
txt me if you need anything
T

i cant erase what ive done for 20 plus years in a five day quit, but i can take my life back one day at a time...i think for me it helps in my mind to add the years of my life before the nic whore to my days. i wasnt born an addict,
so i tell my self , self you have not dipped 13 years plus my 5 BRAND NEW DAYS, i enjoyed those 13 years, and the last 5 days have been worth the suck. Feeling so much better , working on the mental stuff now. I am enjoying saying no to the NIC WHORE, she wants me bad, but she cant get none of the Drock....have a great day quitters

[traumagnet]

I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY

Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.

Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters

Thats funny as shit! My mom was over visiting and read that post. Funny as hell. I'm still laughing my ass off. She didn't get it!

keep it up Drock stay away from the Nic whore she is a sneaky manipulative bitch... Proud of you man keep it up... NAFAR is what I play in my head all day long. Keep the words of Bean I sent you close the weekend is here so keep the site close push a text out now and then to let peeps know you are ok.
txt me if you need anything
T

[jake frawley]

I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY

Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.

Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters

Thats funny as shit! My mom was over visiting and read that post. Funny as hell. I'm still laughing my ass off. She didn't get it!

[drock7]

I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY

Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.

Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters

[Wade]

I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY

Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.

[srans]

Hell yeah! Gitter dun, man. Everything you do will be a "first time without a dip". You'll find that kinda stuff for quite a while. After you clear those hurdles (you have no choice since you've posted today), mark each one down as a personal victory.

Good job drock. Your going to find out you didn't need a lip full of crud to conduct that big old train. A lot of people have done some amazing things without crud in their lip. Astronauts, race car drivers, jet pilots and I could go on an on.

Sure, it's not going to be easy when those craves hit, but think about all things that get accomplished by people every day and they don't need it. You don't need it and never did. I drive for a living, so I know what your feeling. Trust me,, it will be the easiest of the hurdles. My hardest ending up being the things I didn't do a lot. Those ones that sneak up on you and bite you in the ass.

My dad retired from the rail road. He's living it up now, good retirement. He worked Lakeland,Florida for seaboard coastline for over over 40.

Get you some toothpicks, that's my thing. I bought some mint oil from gnc and made them myself. If i'm driving I usually have one in. I use to think the poison helped me drive. It done a lot of things, but NOT ONE OF THEM HELPED ME!! I quit with you today. You have already taken your life back. Keep it, it's yours! It don't belong to a weed no more.

[Radman]

Hell yeah!  Gitter dun, man.  Everything you do will be a "first time without a dip".  You'll find that kinda stuff for quite a while.  After you clear those hurdles (you have no choice since you've posted today), mark each one down as a personal victory.

Side note: Every time I see your screen name pop up, the lyrics from this song right here start running through my head.

[Radman]

Hell yeah! Gitter dun, man. Everything you do will be a "first time without a dip". You'll find that kinda stuff for quite a while. After you clear those hurdles (you have no choice since you've posted today), mark each one down as a personal victory.

[drock7]

I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY