Day 1000
What a day. As usual, I woke up at some stupid early hour. I think around 4am. You'd think I was a senior citizen instead of 43. Anyway, I decided to post on all of the boards I can think of where people have helped me out. I went upstairs to our office and turned on the computer. I always use my iPhone to post, last time I used that computer to post was day 16...when I first posted here.
That day I woke up, deeeeeeep in a fog. Hurting. Sweating. Feeling hopeless. Thinking that life wasn't worth living without my precious Kodiak. I called in sick and laid in bed and literally cried. I thought... I can't do this. I walked to the computer and searched for help... And I found it. Ktc and the contacts I have made here helped me do what I couldn't fo alone.
In the past 1000 days... I've cured my high blood pressure/diabetes/high cholesterol. Lost 60 lbs. I'm in the best shape of my life. Had 3 promotions. Lots of job stress. Family health problems. Unexpected bills. New family members born. All of this is part of life, and nicotine isn't necessary to live it and doesn't help deal with any of it. I've met 20 quitters in person. Have 50 numbers in my phone. I HAVE WON EVERY DAY FOR 1000 DAYS. I can't tell you how sweet it is to type that.
26 years and 2 days ago, nicotine stole my dad from me when I was 17 years old. Nicotine almost took me away from my family. Nicotine can fuck off. Ktc has shown me how to be a winner - I post roll everyday and I support the brotherhood. I cannot begin to name everyone that has helped me... But I owe you my deepest thanks. This site and my quit family not only saved my life, but it made life worth living again. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the kind words, the texts, and the congratulations. But most of all for getting me to a place that I could not get to alone. I will see you at 1001.
