First Post - 5? Quit

[Boelker62]

Hopefully a lot of the new Sept class will read this, as well as June, July and August. 

90 days ago I had my last dip...ever.  When I say "ever," i mean it in the same sense as "for as long as I live," or "the rest of my life," or "for eternity."  That being said, I shared with my June brothers (and anyone else who bothered reading it) that yesterday, at 89 days into my quit, I had the worst crave I had ever experienced - even leading me to nearly panic when i went to buy a can of fake and the store was out.  No, I didn't cave, I simply went home, refusing to continue drivig around to all the Wal-Marts to find fake because I knew that this would put me at greater risk of caving. 

All along the quit, you will hear people telling you that, "It does get easier."  It DOES.  Even though the crave yesterday was the worst, most intense crave I have had to date, it was also the easiest to get over - once I took control of the situation, it was not long until my mind was off of the crave and on to other things.

I closed my writing yesterday with the warning  - stay alert, the nic bitch is sneakey and she won't give up, even when you are so close to the Hall.  In actuality, look around over the past few weeks....you see cavers ranging from not getting past their first 72 hours (it takes approx. 3 days for nicotine to clear your system), to guys with 1000+ days caving.  The bitch likes the young as well as the old quitters.

When you think you are strong enough to walk away from this site and manage your quit on your own, you will be wrong.  When you think you have seen every type of crave and know how to react to it, you will be wrong.  When you think you are done with your quit, that you have defeated your addiction to nicotine, you will be wrong.

Several of us in June have already pledged to each other - in writing for all to see - that we will continue posting roll for AT LEAST the next 100 days past the HOF 100.  WE are comitted to staying quit, we are comitted to supporting each other and every other quitter on this site.

Yesterday SmokeyG had some people all pissed off because he asked what they had to offer new quitters that he, QUIT PERSONIFIED, could not.  I said it yesterday, as Smokey finally did, too, that the question is, what have you learned about yourself and your quit?  What helped you?  Can you find it within yourself to do the same for others?  When I first came on here, I said I was going to be very active, because I knew that is what I needed in order to be quit...I've realized, that is what we all need.  Quitting is a verb, an action word.  Quitting is active.  You cannot be passive and be quitting.  I also said something frequently when I first came to this site:

Stay strong, Stay TRUE, STAY QUIT.

August is now using this as part of their header...glad they saw it as being meaningful.  Hope all of you can see the value of living the words.

Day 1,000

It's always good to remember where you came from...and remember to light the path for those that follow. For what it's worth....

Its worth a lot bro. It was worth bumping then, its worth bumping now!

Proud of you man.

Very proud.

commas are rockin. Way to go Coach. Thanks for sticking around.

Thanks Coach,
As I sit at 87 days today, I cannot imagine leaving when I make that 100 day milestone. Also, quite textbook, while my craves haven't come around at this point, the last two weeks have been hard as I've developed a little anxiety for the first time in my life. With the help of some quitters in my group, it is improving and I feel I am getting it under control. Would I go back to day 4? No, but actively fighting the bitch head on honestly seemed easier than trying to get my mind right.

So, this was all very important for me to read. Thanks again, Coach.

[30yraddict]

Hopefully a lot of the new Sept class will read this, as well as June, July and August. 

90 days ago I had my last dip...ever.  When I say "ever," i mean it in the same sense as "for as long as I live," or "the rest of my life," or "for eternity."  That being said, I shared with my June brothers (and anyone else who bothered reading it) that yesterday, at 89 days into my quit, I had the worst crave I had ever experienced - even leading me to nearly panic when i went to buy a can of fake and the store was out.  No, I didn't cave, I simply went home, refusing to continue drivig around to all the Wal-Marts to find fake because I knew that this would put me at greater risk of caving. 

All along the quit, you will hear people telling you that, "It does get easier."  It DOES.  Even though the crave yesterday was the worst, most intense crave I have had to date, it was also the easiest to get over - once I took control of the situation, it was not long until my mind was off of the crave and on to other things.

I closed my writing yesterday with the warning  - stay alert, the nic bitch is sneakey and she won't give up, even when you are so close to the Hall.  In actuality, look around over the past few weeks....you see cavers ranging from not getting past their first 72 hours (it takes approx. 3 days for nicotine to clear your system), to guys with 1000+ days caving.  The bitch likes the young as well as the old quitters.

When you think you are strong enough to walk away from this site and manage your quit on your own, you will be wrong.  When you think you have seen every type of crave and know how to react to it, you will be wrong.  When you think you are done with your quit, that you have defeated your addiction to nicotine, you will be wrong.

Several of us in June have already pledged to each other - in writing for all to see - that we will continue posting roll for AT LEAST the next 100 days past the HOF 100.  WE are comitted to staying quit, we are comitted to supporting each other and every other quitter on this site.

Yesterday SmokeyG had some people all pissed off because he asked what they had to offer new quitters that he, QUIT PERSONIFIED, could not.  I said it yesterday, as Smokey finally did, too, that the question is, what have you learned about yourself and your quit?  What helped you?  Can you find it within yourself to do the same for others?  When I first came on here, I said I was going to be very active, because I knew that is what I needed in order to be quit...I've realized, that is what we all need.  Quitting is a verb, an action word.  Quitting is active.  You cannot be passive and be quitting.  I also said something frequently when I first came to this site:

Stay strong, Stay TRUE, STAY QUIT.

August is now using this as part of their header...glad they saw it as being meaningful.  Hope all of you can see the value of living the words.

Day 1,000

It's always good to remember where you came from...and remember to light the path for those that follow. For what it's worth....

Its worth a lot bro. It was worth bumping then, its worth bumping now!

Proud of you man.

Very proud.

commas are rockin. Way to go Coach. Thanks for sticking around.

[wastepanel]

Hopefully a lot of the new Sept class will read this, as well as June, July and August. 

90 days ago I had my last dip...ever.  When I say "ever," i mean it in the same sense as "for as long as I live," or "the rest of my life," or "for eternity."  That being said, I shared with my June brothers (and anyone else who bothered reading it) that yesterday, at 89 days into my quit, I had the worst crave I had ever experienced - even leading me to nearly panic when i went to buy a can of fake and the store was out.  No, I didn't cave, I simply went home, refusing to continue drivig around to all the Wal-Marts to find fake because I knew that this would put me at greater risk of caving. 

All along the quit, you will hear people telling you that, "It does get easier."  It DOES.  Even though the crave yesterday was the worst, most intense crave I have had to date, it was also the easiest to get over - once I took control of the situation, it was not long until my mind was off of the crave and on to other things.

I closed my writing yesterday with the warning  - stay alert, the nic bitch is sneakey and she won't give up, even when you are so close to the Hall.  In actuality, look around over the past few weeks....you see cavers ranging from not getting past their first 72 hours (it takes approx. 3 days for nicotine to clear your system), to guys with 1000+ days caving.  The bitch likes the young as well as the old quitters.

When you think you are strong enough to walk away from this site and manage your quit on your own, you will be wrong.  When you think you have seen every type of crave and know how to react to it, you will be wrong.  When you think you are done with your quit, that you have defeated your addiction to nicotine, you will be wrong.

Several of us in June have already pledged to each other - in writing for all to see - that we will continue posting roll for AT LEAST the next 100 days past the HOF 100.  WE are comitted to staying quit, we are comitted to supporting each other and every other quitter on this site.

Yesterday SmokeyG had some people all pissed off because he asked what they had to offer new quitters that he, QUIT PERSONIFIED, could not.  I said it yesterday, as Smokey finally did, too, that the question is, what have you learned about yourself and your quit?  What helped you?  Can you find it within yourself to do the same for others?  When I first came on here, I said I was going to be very active, because I knew that is what I needed in order to be quit...I've realized, that is what we all need.  Quitting is a verb, an action word.  Quitting is active.  You cannot be passive and be quitting.  I also said something frequently when I first came to this site:

Stay strong, Stay TRUE, STAY QUIT.

August is now using this as part of their header...glad they saw it as being meaningful.  Hope all of you can see the value of living the words.

Day 1,000

It's always good to remember where you came from...and remember to light the path for those that follow. For what it's worth....

Its worth a lot bro. It was worth bumping then, its worth bumping now!

Proud of you man.

Very proud.

[Nolaq]

Hopefully a lot of the new Sept class will read this, as well as June, July and August. 

90 days ago I had my last dip...ever.  When I say "ever," i mean it in the same sense as "for as long as I live," or "the rest of my life," or "for eternity."  That being said, I shared with my June brothers (and anyone else who bothered reading it) that yesterday, at 89 days into my quit, I had the worst crave I had ever experienced - even leading me to nearly panic when i went to buy a can of fake and the store was out.  No, I didn't cave, I simply went home, refusing to continue drivig around to all the Wal-Marts to find fake because I knew that this would put me at greater risk of caving. 

All along the quit, you will hear people telling you that, "It does get easier."  It DOES.  Even though the crave yesterday was the worst, most intense crave I have had to date, it was also the easiest to get over - once I took control of the situation, it was not long until my mind was off of the crave and on to other things.

I closed my writing yesterday with the warning  - stay alert, the nic bitch is sneakey and she won't give up, even when you are so close to the Hall.  In actuality, look around over the past few weeks....you see cavers ranging from not getting past their first 72 hours (it takes approx. 3 days for nicotine to clear your system), to guys with 1000+ days caving.  The bitch likes the young as well as the old quitters.

When you think you are strong enough to walk away from this site and manage your quit on your own, you will be wrong.  When you think you have seen every type of crave and know how to react to it, you will be wrong.  When you think you are done with your quit, that you have defeated your addiction to nicotine, you will be wrong.

Several of us in June have already pledged to each other - in writing for all to see - that we will continue posting roll for AT LEAST the next 100 days past the HOF 100.  WE are comitted to staying quit, we are comitted to supporting each other and every other quitter on this site.

Yesterday SmokeyG had some people all pissed off because he asked what they had to offer new quitters that he, QUIT PERSONIFIED, could not.  I said it yesterday, as Smokey finally did, too, that the question is, what have you learned about yourself and your quit?  What helped you?  Can you find it within yourself to do the same for others?  When I first came on here, I said I was going to be very active, because I knew that is what I needed in order to be quit...I've realized, that is what we all need.  Quitting is a verb, an action word.  Quitting is active.  You cannot be passive and be quitting.  I also said something frequently when I first came to this site:

Stay strong, Stay TRUE, STAY QUIT.

August is now using this as part of their header...glad they saw it as being meaningful.  Hope all of you can see the value of living the words.

Day 1,000

It's always good to remember where you came from...and remember to light the path for those that follow. For what it's worth....

Its worth a lot bro. It was worth bumping then, its worth bumping now!

[CoachDoc]

Hopefully a lot of the new Sept class will read this, as well as June, July and August.

90 days ago I had my last dip...ever. When I say "ever," i mean it in the same sense as "for as long as I live," or "the rest of my life," or "for eternity." That being said, I shared with my June brothers (and anyone else who bothered reading it) that yesterday, at 89 days into my quit, I had the worst crave I had ever experienced - even leading me to nearly panic when i went to buy a can of fake and the store was out. No, I didn't cave, I simply went home, refusing to continue drivig around to all the Wal-Marts to find fake because I knew that this would put me at greater risk of caving.

All along the quit, you will hear people telling you that, "It does get easier." It DOES. Even though the crave yesterday was the worst, most intense crave I have had to date, it was also the easiest to get over - once I took control of the situation, it was not long until my mind was off of the crave and on to other things.

I closed my writing yesterday with the warning - stay alert, the nic bitch is sneakey and she won't give up, even when you are so close to the Hall. In actuality, look around over the past few weeks....you see cavers ranging from not getting past their first 72 hours (it takes approx. 3 days for nicotine to clear your system), to guys with 1000+ days caving. The bitch likes the young as well as the old quitters.

When you think you are strong enough to walk away from this site and manage your quit on your own, you will be wrong. When you think you have seen every type of crave and know how to react to it, you will be wrong. When you think you are done with your quit, that you have defeated your addiction to nicotine, you will be wrong.

Several of us in June have already pledged to each other - in writing for all to see - that we will continue posting roll for AT LEAST the next 100 days past the HOF 100. WE are comitted to staying quit, we are comitted to supporting each other and every other quitter on this site.

Yesterday SmokeyG had some people all pissed off because he asked what they had to offer new quitters that he, QUIT PERSONIFIED, could not. I said it yesterday, as Smokey finally did, too, that the question is, what have you learned about yourself and your quit? What helped you? Can you find it within yourself to do the same for others? When I first came on here, I said I was going to be very active, because I knew that is what I needed in order to be quit...I've realized, that is what we all need. Quitting is a verb, an action word. Quitting is active. You cannot be passive and be quitting. I also said something frequently when I first came to this site:

Stay strong, Stay TRUE, STAY QUIT.

August is now using this as part of their header...glad they saw it as being meaningful. Hope all of you can see the value of living the words.

Day 1,000

It's always good to remember where you came from...and remember to light the path for those that follow. For what it's worth....

[Nolaq]

Day 986

Another two weeks and I am at a place I NEVER thought I would be at. I remember looking at the guys posting support with numbers in the 600s, 700s and even the 1,000s and thinking, "How the hell am I going to make it that long?"

I remember being skeptical and thinking half of these guys with big numbers had caved at some point and just never admitted it - after all, who would ever know?

But, as time went on, I realized that this site and the number you post is a daily victory. Those that caved and lied (I'm sure there have been plenty), just disappear. They know the lie and this site really doesn't provide them with anything so they fade away.

But, for many of the rest of us, it is that daily reminder that we CAN accomplish something. That we ARE capable of beating an addiction and that, no matter what life throws at us, we ARE in control of this QUIT, if nothing else. Nobody can ever take my quit from me - EVER. As long as I chose to keep it, it is mine. And the more selfish and protective of it, the more I actually am sharing it with every one else on KTC.

Here's to the next 1,000 days

Right on Doc!

'clap'

[CoachDoc]

Day 986

Another two weeks and I am at a place I NEVER thought I would be at. I remember looking at the guys posting support with numbers in the 600s, 700s and even the 1,000s and thinking, "How the hell am I going to make it that long?"

I remember being skeptical and thinking half of these guys with big numbers had caved at some point and just never admitted it - after all, who would ever know?

But, as time went on, I realized that this site and the number you post is a daily victory. Those that caved and lied (I'm sure there have been plenty), just disappear. They know the lie and this site really doesn't provide them with anything so they fade away.

But, for many of the rest of us, it is that daily reminder that we CAN accomplish something. That we ARE capable of beating an addiction and that, no matter what life throws at us, we ARE in control of this QUIT, if nothing else. Nobody can ever take my quit from me - EVER. As long as I chose to keep it, it is mine. And the more selfish and protective of it, the more I actually am sharing it with every one else on KTC.

Here's to the next 1,000 days

[Nolaq]

The intros section is something like a cross between a car wreck on the side of the road and a reality TV show like the Biggest Loser or Hoarders or Intervention... most people can't help but look, wondering what horrible scene they will see, but at the same time, they read it and sometimes think, man, there's someone that is WAAAAY worse than me...

Well, sometimes you learn a lot from looking - like, man I need to pay attention so THAT doesn't happen to me.  That's why you will hear so many people suggest going back and reading through intros, through old roll posts, and through the HoF speeches...they are filled with VALUABLE info to learn from...to HELP you in your quit...I started this thread 610 days ago...and it is just as important today as it was then...think about THAT....this post was put on here to help YOU long before some of you even thought about quitting...that's what this site is about...

Track down some of the older quitters intros and entries in the roll....you might be surprised to find out that solid quitter was at one time a dispised punk...or that really knowledgable vet actually went through some serious struggles to get where he is...

This is a library of quit....check out materials often...and we don't charge you for late returns....

Well Said !

'clap'

X2

Good to have walked the path with you Doc.

Semper Fi.

[Greg5280]

The intros section is something like a cross between a car wreck on the side of the road and a reality TV show like the Biggest Loser or Hoarders or Intervention... most people can't help but look, wondering what horrible scene they will see, but at the same time, they read it and sometimes think, man, there's someone that is WAAAAY worse than me...

Well, sometimes you learn a lot from looking - like, man I need to pay attention so THAT doesn't happen to me. That's why you will hear so many people suggest going back and reading through intros, through old roll posts, and through the HoF speeches...they are filled with VALUABLE info to learn from...to HELP you in your quit...I started this thread 610 days ago...and it is just as important today as it was then...think about THAT....this post was put on here to help YOU long before some of you even thought about quitting...that's what this site is about...

Track down some of the older quitters intros and entries in the roll....you might be surprised to find out that solid quitter was at one time a dispised punk...or that really knowledgable vet actually went through some serious struggles to get where he is...

This is a library of quit....check out materials often...and we don't charge you for late returns....

Well Said !

'clap'

[CoachDoc]

The intros section is something like a cross between a car wreck on the side of the road and a reality TV show like the Biggest Loser or Hoarders or Intervention... most people can't help but look, wondering what horrible scene they will see, but at the same time, they read it and sometimes think, man, there's someone that is WAAAAY worse than me...

Well, sometimes you learn a lot from looking - like, man I need to pay attention so THAT doesn't happen to me. That's why you will hear so many people suggest going back and reading through intros, through old roll posts, and through the HoF speeches...they are filled with VALUABLE info to learn from...to HELP you in your quit...I started this thread 610 days ago...and it is just as important today as it was then...think about THAT....this post was put on here to help YOU long before some of you even thought about quitting...that's what this site is about...

Track down some of the older quitters intros and entries in the roll....you might be surprised to find out that solid quitter was at one time a dispised punk...or that really knowledgable vet actually went through some serious struggles to get where he is...

This is a library of quit....check out materials often...and we don't charge you for late returns....

[CMH17]

Day 778

This is primarily a message to those new to the site or those trying to decide whether or not this site is "right" for them.

With every class, there are those who question the site, the vets, the methods, the philosophy....hell, the very nature and integrity of KTC. There are certainly those who are rubbed the wrong way by the site and/or its members, and there are those who pack up camp and head for the hills - soome return, even if just to thumb theior noses at the past and present members, but most are never head from again.

What I would bring to the table - the table I have previously described as a table with precariously stacked Jenga blocks of quit on it - is that, unlike my analogy, this is far from a game. It is also far from simply being about our quit. What we do here, what we have here moves far beyond the quit and how that impacts our lives. The sense of belonging, of learning how to receive and give help, of seeing beyond the needs of the individual and learning how to reach out and offer the help to others...all of this is a large resaon this site works.

A few days ago, I was ready to hang it up, walk away from the site. Not because of anything here, or because of the drama that is ALWAYS within these pages, but because of personal issues that need to be dealt with. Immediately I began getting e-mails, texts and PMs telling me not to leave the site, not to walk away from the support here. The funny thing is, not once did I ever feel the urge to dip in order to deal with my stress, nor do I feel that any of my brothers and sisters on here think that me leaving would result in my caving. They knew that the bond we form here often transcends the quit...it becomes a family and support network for....life. They knew it was what I needed, even if I could not see it at the time.

I know, I often tallk too much - guess that degree in English writing before nursing school (and after the military) still has to resurface every so often, if not quite as entertainingly as in the case of Coach Steve...but I digress...

For those questioning if this site is right for you, or if all the BS and drama is worth it, keep in mind that you will gain some of the most staunch supporters you could ever hope to have. You will find people willing to bend over backwards for you - even though you are essentially no more than a faceless stranger on the other side of a modem....You will find the strength to quit, to stay quit and so much more if you stick around this site.

To all of you who reached out to me and continue to, thank you. I am humbled and grateful. For those who read this and decide to stick around, I look forward to calling you my quit brother/sister. My number and support will always be your...just ask.

CoachDoc
QUIT

DISCLAIMER: This long, winding, somewhat odd letter was inspired by Axl Rose's letter to the Rock Hall of Fame declining his nomination into the HoF...

Good to see you out here my quit brother.

[CoachDoc]

Day 778

This is primarily a message to those new to the site or those trying to decide whether or not this site is "right" for them.

With every class, there are those who question the site, the vets, the methods, the philosophy....hell, the very nature and integrity of KTC. There are certainly those who are rubbed the wrong way by the site and/or its members, and there are those who pack up camp and head for the hills - soome return, even if just to thumb theior noses at the past and present members, but most are never head from again.

What I would bring to the table - the table I have previously described as a table with precariously stacked Jenga blocks of quit on it - is that, unlike my analogy, this is far from a game. It is also far from simply being about our quit. What we do here, what we have here moves far beyond the quit and how that impacts our lives. The sense of belonging, of learning how to receive and give help, of seeing beyond the needs of the individual and learning how to reach out and offer the help to others...all of this is a large resaon this site works.

A few days ago, I was ready to hang it up, walk away from the site. Not because of anything here, or because of the drama that is ALWAYS within these pages, but because of personal issues that need to be dealt with. Immediately I began getting e-mails, texts and PMs telling me not to leave the site, not to walk away from the support here. The funny thing is, not once did I ever feel the urge to dip in order to deal with my stress, nor do I feel that any of my brothers and sisters on here think that me leaving would result in my caving. They knew that the bond we form here often transcends the quit...it becomes a family and support network for....life. They knew it was what I needed, even if I could not see it at the time.

I know, I often tallk too much - guess that degree in English writing before nursing school (and after the military) still has to resurface every so often, if not quite as entertainingly as in the case of Coach Steve...but I digress...

For those questioning if this site is right for you, or if all the BS and drama is worth it, keep in mind that you will gain some of the most staunch supporters you could ever hope to have. You will find people willing to bend over backwards for you - even though you are essentially no more than a faceless stranger on the other side of a modem....You will find the strength to quit, to stay quit and so much more if you stick around this site.

To all of you who reached out to me and continue to, thank you. I am humbled and grateful. For those who read this and decide to stick around, I look forward to calling you my quit brother/sister. My number and support will always be your...just ask.

CoachDoc
QUIT

DISCLAIMER: This long, winding, somewhat odd letter was inspired by Axl Rose's letter to the Rock Hall of Fame declining his nomination into the HoF...

[T-Cell]

I'm a newbie, just on day 7 of quit after 35+ years of cope. I was never a ninja, in fact it was a part of how I was defined. After 7 days I'm just coming out of the fog. Following these posts is a huge help! While I like to think I could cold turkey quit on my own, sharing accountability and lessons learned is a huge leg up. Thanks.

[CoachDoc]

When you think, "CoachDoc (or some other quitter - whether new or a vet) doesn't have a CLUE what I'm feeling," Think again...

We've been where you are...sometimes we forget...but we've been there...reminders of where you come from are always good...keeps it all in perspective...

[CMH17]

Honored to be on your call list. When I signed up you were the first to give me the KTC intro /tour and your #. 7 days clean and doing OK. Staying Active. Thanks!!

That's what it's all about...you are just as important in my quit as those that have been there from the beginning (don't tell NOLAQ...he might get all butt-hurt....)

I owe as much to supporting you as I do my June 2010 brothers...

Your 7 days of quit are 7 days that strengthened mine...keep it up, brother!

Starting the double digits tomorrow in part to Doc hearing me vent. Read the site  embrace the site and I believe you find the quit!!!!!! After reading a lot of intros  HOF speeches it seems like everyone has a similar story of how you started, how many times you tried quitting, stresses in life. Everyone has them. Like it's told here, promise to quit for the day, keep your promise,  and support a brother starting the quit or help one out whose struggling.