I'm Done...but not really...

[Tuco]

That makes two caves on KTC's watch this year.

Before you jump right back on in, you need to ask yourself if this is the right place for you. You're asking for the support of yet another group, and I haven't seen a single iota of evidence that the third time will be the charm. All you've done is "promise" not to ever cave again, but we already know that your word is worthless since you posted roll and caved in the same day.

Meanwhile, you go ahead and throw your "buddies" under the bus and blame them for your cave. Shit, one of my best friends in the world still packs the cat turds in his lip, and I wish to hell he wouldn't. I would also never blame him for the decisions that I've made. One of those decisions was to not hang out with that guy for the first month or so after I quit. We aren't any less friends because of it, but I was and am willing to do whatever it takes to protect my quit.

From my vantage point, you're just another one of those well-intentioned oafs that knows he really *should* quit, but deep down just isn't done with humping the can yet.

[jeeptruck]

I feel bad for ya man, cause football is for another 3 months. Then there basketball, hockey, baseball, then football starts back up...........damn, never a good time to quit. Sounds like you need to move to a place with no sports or BWW's and live in a cave..........or grow a set of balls and be quit.

We are addicts, and our brains can make ANYTHING into a situation to dip. You just need to overcome the urge, and punch the nic bitch in the twat.

I agree with all of them. You just need to sack up and do it. no excuses this time. NONE.

[Thumblewort]

I feel bad for ya man, cause football is for another 3 months. Then there basketball, hockey, baseball, then football starts back up...........damn, never a good time to quit. Sounds like you need to move to a place with no sports or BWW's and live in a cave..........or grow a set of balls and be quit.

We are addicts, and our brains can make ANYTHING into a situation to dip. You just need to overcome the urge, and punch the nic bitch in the twat.

[Lipizzaner]

This absolutely sucks and every bone in my body was telling me to lie and just post that I have 9 days now. But, i don't. I caved last night like a little pussy.

It happened last night while watching football with buddies (so called buddies). I told myself I shouldn't go because two of them dip. I knew it was a bad situation to put myself in.

I should have just stayed home, watched the game and then got on KTC and reached out to people. But I didn't.

What I'm going to do this time is to avoid any situation like last night for 100 days. When I feel any trigger I will call or text people that have given me their numbers.

You all have my promise that i will never let this happen again. It sucks to have one day again. I posted in the Feb quit group as Day 1. The reaching out to other is what got me the 8 days to begin with. i need to keep doing that but even more. I think calling and texting is what I need to get involved in.

Again, I apologize to the whole forum.

Lame.

Your "what I'm going to do different this time" speech is already getting old. You're playing at quitting and it's offensive to the REAL effort being put out by some people working damn hard to beat their addiction.

Cancer doesn't give "do-over's" bro. Think about it. How do you know the next "Aw, gee guys, I caved" scenario isn't the one tiny push that changes healthy skin to cancerous?

Stop playing around.

I always 'bang head' when I see the guys who say they cave because of a certain situation, rather than an internal failure.

Oh, I caved because I was around a couple dippers. I won't put myself in that horrible situation for the next 100 days.

Well, what happens at day 100 that will protect you from seeing a can of dip?
Actually first question first- why didn't your buddies know that you quit? If they knew, why would they offer?
Second question-

I was watching the game with a bunch of guys and one of them offered and I said no and that I quit. I was going to leave right then and there but then I let myself down by caving. I'm going to get my sorry ass over to the February Group because I'm now past the date for this group.

How do make the leap from saying to no, to "I let myself down". Did you say, "wait, fuck it, I want it!" "Bring that back here".
Did they offer it again? Didn't you tell them you quit the first time they offered?

Back to "what happens at day 100 that will protect you from seeing a can of dip?"
Nothing. You need to develop a plan for that situation.
I would tell you that need to develop character and integrity, but that is not something that will just happen for you.

[AppleJack]

This absolutely sucks and every bone in my body was telling me to lie and just post that I have 9 days now. But, i don't. I caved last night like a little pussy.

It happened last night while watching football with buddies (so called buddies). I told myself I shouldn't go because two of them dip. I knew it was a bad situation to put myself in.

I should have just stayed home, watched the game and then got on KTC and reached out to people. But I didn't.

What I'm going to do this time is to avoid any situation like last night for 100 days. When I feel any trigger I will call or text people that have given me their numbers.

You all have my promise that i will never let this happen again. It sucks to have one day again. I posted in the Feb quit group as Day 1. The reaching out to other is what got me the 8 days to begin with. i need to keep doing that but even more. I think calling and texting is what I need to get involved in.

Again, I apologize to the whole forum.

Lame.

Your "what I'm going to do different this time" speech is already getting old. You're playing at quitting and it's offensive to the REAL effort being put out by some people working damn hard to beat their addiction.

Cancer doesn't give "do-over's" bro. Think about it. How do you know the next "Aw, gee guys, I caved" scenario isn't the one tiny push that changes healthy skin to cancerous?

Stop playing around.

[Jim Golfer]

This absolutely sucks and every bone in my body was telling me to lie and just post that I have 9 days now. But, i don't. I caved last night like a little pussy.

It happened last night while watching football with buddies (so called buddies). I told myself I shouldn't go because two of them dip. I knew it was a bad situation to put myself in.

I should have just stayed home, watched the game and then got on KTC and reached out to people. But I didn't.

What I'm going to do this time is to avoid any situation like last night for 100 days. When I feel any trigger I will call or text people that have given me their numbers.

You all have my promise that i will never let this happen again. It sucks to have one day again. I posted in the Feb quit group as Day 1. The reaching out to other is what got me the 8 days to begin with. i need to keep doing that but even more. I think calling and texting is what I need to get involved in.

Again, I apologize to the whole forum.

[gooch44]

I can attest to Jim's efforts. He reached out to me on pm. I quit with ya buddy!

[Jim Golfer]

I did post answers to those three questions a few days ago in the quit group discussion. I caved back in April when I first joined the group after one day. No excuses. Just caved.

What happened was that I used boredom and my divorce as an excuse to say "fuck it".

It happened because I didn't post roll that morning and reach out to people.

What I'm doing differently this time is posting roll every morning and reaching out to other quitters in my quit group. Not only that, but I've decided to quit drinking coffee and going to the gym a lot more. I wake up, post roll, send a few messages, make my bed and then get to work.

The number one thing is the decision to make this my #1 priority. I've decided that nothing is more important than roll call and reaching out. If I need to get up early for work then I'll get up earlier to post roll.

[Freedom24]

http://espn.go.com/boston/mlb/story/_/i ... ding-scars

[AppleJack]

If you posted roll before and caved... entry back to KTC requires you answer the 3 questions.

What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do differently this time?

I'm bumping this and echoing my brutha Derk... You have some explaining to do.

YOU are the one that needs to understand why you failed so that you can shore up that weakness. Again... This is all in dude. We don't try... We do. We don't hope you succeed... We expect it. That's the only way this works bro.

Freedom is waiting... What are you going to do to win it?

[Landdon]

Glad you're back, and I hope you are finding some people to help you. If you need some digits reply to this and I'll pm you my info. It's really not a problem at all and I want to do it. I hope you succeed friend.

[Deerslayer9688]

Joined back in April and lasted a couple days. This time it's different becaue I'm going to take the advice of members on this forum and reach out to people. Plus, I'm going to post first thing every morning. I haven't slept worth shit in 6 days but my confidence is coming back. I don't have that shameful feeling of doing something that makes me hate myself, look in the mirror for cancer and be worried constantly. I just came off an 8 month relationship with a woman who had no idea I dipped. I'd end dates early so I could go home and sit there by myself and dip and watch TV. It's so pathetic when you have to type it out like this.

The one thing I love about my 6 days is how I feel when I wake up. Even though I've only gotten maybe an hour's worth of sleep I feel so much better about myself. I hope the sleep thing gets better. My whole body has this buzzing feeling. I guess that's the withdrawl. it seems to be subsiding a bit, though.

OK, anyone who has the same or around the same time as me feel free to e-mail me. That goes for veterans too. I need to do this the right way.

Good job on day 6. Don't forget to use the chat room for additional support

[BazookaJoe]

Quit and don't look back. Stay vigilant and post roll call every damn day (EDD). Take your quit one day at a time (ODAAT) and don't let that sneaky Nic Bitch convince you to stray from the path of righteousness. Kick her ass to the curb and join team KTC for the big win. I'll let you in on a little secret, the veterans here don't take shit from anyone. You gotta want to quit and you gotta be serious about your quit. Caves and insolence are not tolerated. Come here, post roll daily, maintain your quit, and get involved in the forum (don't post and ghost) and you'll do just fine. PM/email as many people as possible from your quit group and other groups to get phone numbers to build your offline contacts just in case you can get on here for some reason. I'm proud to be quit with you.

[Derk40]

If you posted roll before and caved... entry back to KTC requires you answer the 3 questions.

What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do differently this time?

[Dagranger]

Hey Jim, congrats on 6 days. It sounds like you are sick and tired of being chained to nicotine, and have hit a bottom. That is definitely a good thing when quitting. It seems like those that realize they are an addict, and that addiction is controlling their life are best suited to attack it. So here are 4 short words of advice.
1. Post roll every morning. Don't get lazy with this
2. Believe that your roll post is a promise to thousands of quitters to abstain from nicotine for a day.
3. Like AppleJack said above get involved here, try to help as many other people as you can on your own journey to quit. (Post on intro threads, go to the chat room, post roll on other months, get numbers from quitters, etc)
4. Never forget you are an addict to a drug more addictive than cocaine. And regardless of how well you do on your quit, and how rarely you think of dip you will always be an addict. There can be no "just one more" in your life again.

Get after it.