Derk40

[KC_Guy]

Day 71... It is September  that is the month I will hit the HOF.  On Day 1, I thought about this  my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013.  That is the day I would hit the HOF.  Nice right??

Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days.  I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY.  Posting ROLL today  staying quit today.  The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters.  Qutting is not a long term strategy.  I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future.  I control the here and now.  What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today  being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.

On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple.  Post ROLL today - done.  Now, I must stay true to my word today  stay quit on September 1st, 2013.  I know I can do this!  I will do this!  I am QLF today!

Wow Derk have you been to an ancient Shaolin Monastery gaining quit knowledge from the monks? Man that post gave me goose bumps I remember back to the day when you were mad upset f'ing around with a moldy spaghetti sauce can, now look at you an awakening giant of quit. Nice bro keep posting this Monk stuff you are spitting.

As always enjoyed your post. 71 days. It seems like yesterday you got my digits. Time flies when your having fun. I know the first 100 moves Rrreeeeaaaaaaallllll slow, but the second 100 seem to fly by. Keep on keepen on bro. Proud of you derk.....

I am very proud of you and your quit derk. Thank you for posting here and thank you for your text messages. I quit with you anyday bro. Keep killin it like a boss.

[srans]

Day 71... It is September  that is the month I will hit the HOF.  On Day 1, I thought about this  my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013.  That is the day I would hit the HOF.  Nice right??

Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days.  I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY.  Posting ROLL today  staying quit today.  The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters.  Qutting is not a long term strategy.  I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future.  I control the here and now.  What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today  being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.

On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple.  Post ROLL today - done.  Now, I must stay true to my word today  stay quit on September 1st, 2013.  I know I can do this!  I will do this!  I am QLF today!

Wow Derk have you been to an ancient Shaolin Monastery gaining quit knowledge from the monks? Man that post gave me goose bumps I remember back to the day when you were mad upset f'ing around with a moldy spaghetti sauce can, now look at you an awakening giant of quit. Nice bro keep posting this Monk stuff you are spitting.

As always enjoyed your post. 71 days. It seems like yesterday you got my digits. Time flies when your having fun. I know the first 100 moves Rrreeeeaaaaaaallllll slow, but the second 100 seem to fly by. Keep on keepen on bro. Proud of you derk.....

[traumagnet]

Day 71... It is September  that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this  my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??

Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today  staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today  being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.

On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today  stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!

Wow Derk have you been to an ancient Shaolin Monastery gaining quit knowledge from the monks? Man that post gave me goose bumps I remember back to the day when you were mad upset f'ing around with a moldy spaghetti sauce can, now look at you an awakening giant of quit. Nice bro keep posting this Monk stuff you are spitting.

[Derk40]

Day 71... It is September  that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this  my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??

Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today  staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today  being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.

On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today  stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!

[AppleJack]

Day 62... Couple things to note

1.  Cleaning out my closet at work.  Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket.  EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents.   FU ... I am QLF today.

2.  Got home from work and was in a bad mood.  Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted.  They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized.  The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix.  Today, I hopped into my car  ran up to the store.  Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben  Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store.  When they got home I surprised them  they loved it.  I am QLF today!

3.  Rough week at work.  Extremely busy  it has been very stressful.  A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me.  My mindset is shifting a bit.  This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen  powered thru each day using my tools.   I am QLF today!

Quit is feeling strong.  But I am an addict  I need to work my quit every day.  If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1.  I hate day 1 - so that is not happening.  FU Nic!  So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up  post roll.  Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it.  I wake up each morning  I can't wait to get to my computer  post roll.  May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days  then post to Sept 2013.  At that moment, I am committing to myself  to you quitters.  I am owning it this quit!  QLF with you today!

Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.

Derk you are a model quitter. You never fail to write a story to share knowing that you are leaving something to reflect upon later. I Quit with u everyday because of your attitude and you commitment to yourself and KTCers.

Pinched

Glad to be on this road with you brother. You are doing a kick ass job.

This is the good stuff right here bro..

You've uncovered all the lies but remain diligent enought to realize that your guard must be kept up. Like I've said before... this doesn't mean living in fear of the next funk or crave! Life is ups and downs, nothing new there... you're just having to deal with it all without a security blanket now. Attack your quit and own it like you have been. Proud of you dude!

[gorilla1]

Day 62... Couple things to note

1.  Cleaning out my closet at work.  Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket.  EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents.   FU ... I am QLF today.

2.  Got home from work and was in a bad mood.  Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted.  They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized.  The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix.  Today, I hopped into my car  ran up to the store.  Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben  Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store.  When they got home I surprised them  they loved it.  I am QLF today!

3.  Rough week at work.  Extremely busy  it has been very stressful.  A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me.  My mindset is shifting a bit.  This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen  powered thru each day using my tools.   I am QLF today!

Quit is feeling strong.  But I am an addict  I need to work my quit every day.  If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1.  I hate day 1 - so that is not happening.  FU Nic!  So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up  post roll.  Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it.  I wake up each morning  I can't wait to get to my computer  post roll.  May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days  then post to Sept 2013.  At that moment, I am committing to myself  to you quitters.  I am owning it this quit!  QLF with you today!

Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.

Derk you are a model quitter. You never fail to write a story to share knowing that you are leaving something to reflect upon later. I Quit with u everyday because of your attitude and you commitment to yourself and KTCers.

Pinched

Glad to be on this road with you brother. You are doing a kick ass job.

[Pinched]

Day 62... Couple things to note

1.  Cleaning out my closet at work.  Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket.  EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents.  FU ... I am QLF today.

2.  Got home from work and was in a bad mood.  Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted.  They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized.  The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix.  Today, I hopped into my car  ran up to the store.  Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben  Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store.  When they got home I surprised them  they loved it.  I am QLF today!

3.  Rough week at work.  Extremely busy  it has been very stressful.  A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me.  My mindset is shifting a bit.  This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen  powered thru each day using my tools.  I am QLF today!

Quit is feeling strong.  But I am an addict  I need to work my quit every day.  If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1.  I hate day 1 - so that is not happening.  FU Nic!  So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up  post roll.  Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it.  I wake up each morning  I can't wait to get to my computer  post roll.  May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days  then post to Sept 2013.  At that moment, I am committing to myself  to you quitters.  I am owning it this quit!  QLF with you today!

Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.

Derk you are a model quitter. You never fail to write a story to share knowing that you are leaving something to reflect upon later. I Quit with u everyday because of your attitude and you commitment to yourself and KTCers.

Pinched

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 62... Couple things to note

1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents. FU ... I am QLF today.

2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car  ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben  Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them  they loved it. I am QLF today!

3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy  it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen  powered thru each day using my tools. I am QLF today!

Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict  I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up  post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning  I can't wait to get to my computer  post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days  then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself  to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!

Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.

[Derk40]

Day 62... Couple things to note

1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents. FU ... I am QLF today.

2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car  ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben  Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them  they loved it. I am QLF today!

3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy  it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen  powered thru each day using my tools. I am QLF today!

Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict  I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up  post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning  I can't wait to get to my computer  post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days  then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself  to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!

[B-loMatt]

Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment.  He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day.  He still has not quit smoking.  I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it.  Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him.  He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down.  I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction.  But he is not quit.

My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do.  It takes a true bada$$ to do it.  This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed.  So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish.  People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances.  This truly is life or death.  I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today!  NAFAR ODAAT!

Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.

I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.

I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!

We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.

Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".

yep Derk you have come so far so fast keep up your view on this. I remember back at the end of JUN when you were struggling I remember watching the light bulb blast on. You made a decision that day you will no longer be a slave to that bitch in the can and pinned your ears down and haven't looked back since. You are here EDD payin it forward and back proud to be quit w you brother

This derk dude is definitely a badass. Keep on quittin bro. Quittin like a BOSS.

Hell yes Bad Asses! Even the biggest pussy quitters are Bad Asses. We know kickin the nic bitch to the curb is one of the toughest things to do, and that's why we are here. Proud to quit with you all EDD.

[KC_Guy]

Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment.  He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day.  He still has not quit smoking.  I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it.  Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him.  He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down.  I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction.  But he is not quit.

My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do.  It takes a true bada$$ to do it.  This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed.  So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish.  People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances.  This truly is life or death.  I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today!  NAFAR ODAAT!

Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.

I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.

I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!

We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.

Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".

yep Derk you have come so far so fast keep up your view on this. I remember back at the end of JUN when you were struggling I remember watching the light bulb blast on. You made a decision that day you will no longer be a slave to that bitch in the can and pinned your ears down and haven't looked back since. You are here EDD payin it forward and back proud to be quit w you brother

This derk dude is definitely a badass. Keep on quittin bro. Quittin like a BOSS.

[traumagnet]

Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment.  He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day.  He still has not quit smoking.  I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it.  Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him.  He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down.  I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction.  But he is not quit.

My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do.  It takes a true bada$$ to do it.  This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed.  So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish.  People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances.  This truly is life or death.  I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today!  NAFAR ODAAT!

Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.

I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.

I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!

We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.

Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".

yep Derk you have come so far so fast keep up your view on this. I remember back at the end of JUN when you were struggling I remember watching the light bulb blast on. You made a decision that day you will no longer be a slave to that bitch in the can and pinned your ears down and haven't looked back since. You are here EDD payin it forward and back proud to be quit w you brother

[Pinched]

Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment.  He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day.  He still has not quit smoking.  I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it.  Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him.  He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down.  I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction.  But he is not quit.

My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do.  It takes a true bada$$ to do it.  This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed.  So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish.  People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances.  This truly is life or death.  I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today!  NAFAR ODAAT!

Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.

I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.

I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!

We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.

Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".

[srans]

Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.

My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!

Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.

I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.

I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!

We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.

[Derk40]

Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.

My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!