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[Wannemacher]

Day 18

It's been a few days since I have been in here posting. Things are a lot easier especially when I look back to the fog and suck. I hardly have any cravings with out a trigger of some point, mainly eating. Driving is easier, long trips are still a challenge. Fishing is a major major challenge. I think last Sunday I went through a whole bag of seed in a day just sitting there watching my bobber (or my bobber). All in all life is good. Wake up post roll as soon as I can and go about my day. I don't hear that nic wench in my ear all that often but I fear she is sitting back waiting for the time to strike. And when she does I know that I am going to be ready to fight back.

[apogeeammo]

Day 12.

Today is rough, time is going slow at work, just kinda dragging on by. Had the itchy lip less today than yesterday. And less yesterday then the day before. Its right about now (after lunch) that the big craving hits. So I am here.

Sleep is getting easier for a short periods of time. I can usually hit the hay around 9 and actually be out by 10:30 then waking back up at 4 4:30 for work. My wits are getting tested at home, my wife is pregnant and about ready to pop so she is relying on me to get alot of the work around the house done and take care of her and the little dude all while 90% of the time I just want to put my fist into the wall.. Last night I went out to the garage and just started throwing stuff around just because I could. Neighbor probably thought someone was being murdered but it was just the Nic B dying, or at least being told to get out. Tomorrow morning I am suppose to take the little dude fishing as long as the weather holds out, that is going to be a huge trigger challenge. I have yet to go fishing since my quit has started. I picked up a brand new bag of seeds just for the trip. I am really hoping that the nerves calm down soon b/c when the baby is born at the end of the month (pretty close to my 30 day mark) I am going to need to have my mind straight to take care of her.

On the bright side, I have save aprox. $10 in the last 12 days, figuring it will be $20-$25 a month $240-$250 a year.

Alright back to work. Thanks for the ears.
ODAAT

You said rough, but I bet not as rough as 1 to 11 ? It will continue to get easier..Sure some days the craves will ramp up, but they will pass.

Speaking of money saved: Yesterday I transferred $125 that I saved during April (my first month) from checking to savings.. 19 years of that for me cost be about $28500 dude. Could have bought a new car!!!!!!!!!!!! Actually it's more than just $28500 cause the dollar was worth a wee bit more when I first started.

Just think, when the baby does pop, Dad will be nic free!

Quit with you Wanne

I know I think I am more excited about welcoming that little bundle of joy in Nic free than I am about the quit itself. I never realized how nice it is to be able to go out and mow or play ball and not have to worry about that can being close.

And no today is not nearly as bad as 1,2,3 or 4. Its amazing how easy it to forget what I just went through less than a week ago. Thanks for the reminder. At least today I can focus. I quit with you too Wolfe.

YES!! It is a great relief to get to where you are now and I'm sure it feels like a long look back to day 3! You are on the way to a great quit, keep it going by posting roll every day and checking in here regularly for feedback. It's still helping me!

Quit with you!

AA

[Wannemacher]

Day 12.

Today is rough, time is going slow at work, just kinda dragging on by. Had the itchy lip less today than yesterday. And less yesterday then the day before. Its right about now (after lunch) that the big craving hits. So I am here.

Sleep is getting easier for a short periods of time. I can usually hit the hay around 9 and actually be out by 10:30 then waking back up at 4 4:30 for work. My wits are getting tested at home, my wife is pregnant and about ready to pop so she is relying on me to get alot of the work around the house done and take care of her and the little dude all while 90% of the time I just want to put my fist into the wall.. Last night I went out to the garage and just started throwing stuff around just because I could. Neighbor probably thought someone was being murdered but it was just the Nic B dying, or at least being told to get out. Tomorrow morning I am suppose to take the little dude fishing as long as the weather holds out, that is going to be a huge trigger challenge. I have yet to go fishing since my quit has started. I picked up a brand new bag of seeds just for the trip. I am really hoping that the nerves calm down soon b/c when the baby is born at the end of the month (pretty close to my 30 day mark) I am going to need to have my mind straight to take care of her.

On the bright side, I have save aprox. $10 in the last 12 days, figuring it will be $20-$25 a month $240-$250 a year.

Alright back to work. Thanks for the ears.
ODAAT

You said rough, but I bet not as rough as 1 to 11 ? It will continue to get easier..Sure some days the craves will ramp up, but they will pass.

Speaking of money saved: Yesterday I transferred $125 that I saved during April (my first month) from checking to savings.. 19 years of that for me cost be about $28500 dude. Could have bought a new car!!!!!!!!!!!! Actually it's more than just $28500 cause the dollar was worth a wee bit more when I first started.

Just think, when the baby does pop, Dad will be nic free!

Quit with you Wanne

I know I think I am more excited about welcoming that little bundle of joy in Nic free than I am about the quit itself. I never realized how nice it is to be able to go out and mow or play ball and not have to worry about that can being close.

And no today is not nearly as bad as 1,2,3 or 4. Its amazing how easy it to forget what I just went through less than a week ago. Thanks for the reminder. At least today I can focus. I quit with you too Wolfe.

[thewolfe]

Day 12.

Today is rough, time is going slow at work, just kinda dragging on by. Had the itchy lip less today than yesterday. And less yesterday then the day before. Its right about now (after lunch) that the big craving hits. So I am here.

Sleep is getting easier for a short periods of time. I can usually hit the hay around 9 and actually be out by 10:30 then waking back up at 4 4:30 for work. My wits are getting tested at home, my wife is pregnant and about ready to pop so she is relying on me to get alot of the work around the house done and take care of her and the little dude all while 90% of the time I just want to put my fist into the wall.. Last night I went out to the garage and just started throwing stuff around just because I could. Neighbor probably thought someone was being murdered but it was just the Nic B dying, or at least being told to get out. Tomorrow morning I am suppose to take the little dude fishing as long as the weather holds out, that is going to be a huge trigger challenge. I have yet to go fishing since my quit has started. I picked up a brand new bag of seeds just for the trip. I am really hoping that the nerves calm down soon b/c when the baby is born at the end of the month (pretty close to my 30 day mark) I am going to need to have my mind straight to take care of her.

On the bright side, I have save aprox. $10 in the last 12 days, figuring it will be $20-$25 a month $240-$250 a year.

Alright back to work. Thanks for the ears.
ODAAT

You said rough, but I bet not as rough as 1 to 11 ? It will continue to get easier..Sure some days the craves will ramp up, but they will pass.

Speaking of money saved: Yesterday I transferred $125 that I saved during April (my first month) from checking to savings.. 19 years of that for me cost be about $28500 dude. Could have bought a new car!!!!!!!!!!!! Actually it's more than just $28500 cause the dollar was worth a wee bit more when I first started.

Just think, when the baby does pop, Dad will be nic free!

Quit with you Wanne

[Wannemacher]

Day 12.

Today is rough, time is going slow at work, just kinda dragging on by. Had the itchy lip less today than yesterday. And less yesterday then the day before. Its right about now (after lunch) that the big craving hits. So I am here.

Sleep is getting easier for a short periods of time. I can usually hit the hay around 9 and actually be out by 10:30 then waking back up at 4 4:30 for work. My wits are getting tested at home, my wife is pregnant and about ready to pop so she is relying on me to get alot of the work around the house done and take care of her and the little dude all while 90% of the time I just want to put my fist into the wall.. Last night I went out to the garage and just started throwing stuff around just because I could. Neighbor probably thought someone was being murdered but it was just the Nic B dying, or at least being told to get out. Tomorrow morning I am suppose to take the little dude fishing as long as the weather holds out, that is going to be a huge trigger challenge. I have yet to go fishing since my quit has started. I picked up a brand new bag of seeds just for the trip. I am really hoping that the nerves calm down soon b/c when the baby is born at the end of the month (pretty close to my 30 day mark) I am going to need to have my mind straight to take care of her.

On the bright side, I have save aprox. $10 in the last 12 days, figuring it will be $20-$25 a month $240-$250 a year.

Alright back to work. Thanks for the ears.
ODAAT

[rdad]

Day 10
Yea I don't know what it yesterday, it was just a rough one from the time I woke up from the time I went to bed. Today seems to be doing better. Life is still kinda foggy, and energy is really low at times and really high at others. I find myself biting my tongue a lot, with a 4 year old and a pregnant wife about anything can set me off in a heart beat. I feel like I have to seclude myself away from them just so I don't yell for no reason at all.

Seeds have kind of stop working, as the inside of my mouth heals if feel like they cut or scratch my fresh cheek, then the salt just burns. Gum is making my jaw hurt from chewing it nonstop, and I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise. If any of you have any suggestions, I am all ears. Something I don't really need to chew but can just shove in my lip and basically suck on. The journey to be quit is defiantly going to get harder before it gets easier but with the brotherhood of KTC I feel like there is nothing I can't do.

Great fight so far! You got what it takes to kick nics ass every damn day... I had a real tough time with the oral fixation for the first few months. Fake dip is very helpful; I especially liked shredded beef jerky since you can park it like dip and no need to spit. Atomic fireballs are also great distraction, little burn keeps your mouth busy. Last summer I had to have a wad of fresh mint in my gob every time I cut the lawn, but any fresh herbs will do. Worst case: go find the closest sm shop and get fitted for a ball gag. Seriously, anything that is nic free is acceptable.

10 nicotine free days! You are killing it man! Keep fighting. Quit like fuck! There is a place where you won't miss the poison or even think about it that much; you just keep fighting EDD and you will get there. PM me if you need anything.

"I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise."

10 days is not late brother, go to walmart and get some smokey mountain. It will really help. Some people never used it, others have used it a long time. If the alternative is to start dipping the real stuff, you have nothing to lose by trying it.

Double digits is awesome man! Keep it going!

Quit with you today!

AA

Fight fight fight. Do not stop. I didn't start the fake until many weeks into my quit. I used it for a few months and then finally pitched it. Do whatever it takes to keep the poison out of your body. This will get better. It takes time to heal the body and the mind.

Your posts remind me so much of mine. Go read my first few weeks. You need anything you have my number.

Hey, I can't describe how great I feel after only 166 days. Then I hear from Worktowin that it continues to get better! What more motivation do we need? Stay on the path Wannemacher. ODAAT! They add up fast.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Day 10
Yea I don't know what it yesterday, it was just a rough one from the time I woke up from the time I went to bed. Today seems to be doing better. Life is still kinda foggy, and energy is really low at times and really high at others. I find myself biting my tongue a lot, with a 4 year old and a pregnant wife about anything can set me off in a heart beat. I feel like I have to seclude myself away from them just so I don't yell for no reason at all.

Seeds have kind of stop working, as the inside of my mouth heals if feel like they cut or scratch my fresh cheek, then the salt just burns. Gum is making my jaw hurt from chewing it nonstop, and I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise. If any of you have any suggestions, I am all ears. Something I don't really need to chew but can just shove in my lip and basically suck on. The journey to be quit is defiantly going to get harder before it gets easier but with the brotherhood of KTC I feel like there is nothing I can't do.

Great fight so far! You got what it takes to kick nics ass every damn day... I had a real tough time with the oral fixation for the first few months. Fake dip is very helpful; I especially liked shredded beef jerky since you can park it like dip and no need to spit. Atomic fireballs are also great distraction, little burn keeps your mouth busy. Last summer I had to have a wad of fresh mint in my gob every time I cut the lawn, but any fresh herbs will do. Worst case: go find the closest sm shop and get fitted for a ball gag. Seriously, anything that is nic free is acceptable.

10 nicotine free days! You are killing it man! Keep fighting. Quit like fuck! There is a place where you won't miss the poison or even think about it that much; you just keep fighting EDD and you will get there. PM me if you need anything.

"I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise."

10 days is not late brother, go to walmart and get some smokey mountain. It will really help. Some people never used it, others have used it a long time. If the alternative is to start dipping the real stuff, you have nothing to lose by trying it.

Double digits is awesome man! Keep it going!

Quit with you today!

AA

Fight fight fight. Do not stop. I didn't start the fake until many weeks into my quit. I used it for a few months and then finally pitched it. Do whatever it takes to keep the poison out of your body. This will get better. It takes time to heal the body and the mind.

Your posts remind me so much of mine. Go read my first few weeks. You need anything you have my number.

[apogeeammo]

Day 10
Yea I don't know what it yesterday, it was just a rough one from the time I woke up from the time I went to bed. Today seems to be doing better. Life is still kinda foggy, and energy is really low at times and really high at others. I find myself biting my tongue a lot, with a 4 year old and a pregnant wife about anything can set me off in a heart beat. I feel like I have to seclude myself away from them just so I don't yell for no reason at all.

Seeds have kind of stop working, as the inside of my mouth heals if feel like they cut or scratch my fresh cheek, then the salt just burns. Gum is making my jaw hurt from chewing it nonstop, and I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise. If any of you have any suggestions, I am all ears. Something I don't really need to chew but can just shove in my lip and basically suck on. The journey to be quit is defiantly going to get harder before it gets easier but with the brotherhood of KTC I feel like there is nothing I can't do.

Great fight so far! You got what it takes to kick nics ass every damn day... I had a real tough time with the oral fixation for the first few months. Fake dip is very helpful; I especially liked shredded beef jerky since you can park it like dip and no need to spit. Atomic fireballs are also great distraction, little burn keeps your mouth busy. Last summer I had to have a wad of fresh mint in my gob every time I cut the lawn, but any fresh herbs will do. Worst case: go find the closest sm shop and get fitted for a ball gag. Seriously, anything that is nic free is acceptable.

10 nicotine free days! You are killing it man! Keep fighting. Quit like fuck! There is a place where you won't miss the poison or even think about it that much; you just keep fighting EDD and you will get there. PM me if you need anything.

"I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise."

10 days is not late brother, go to walmart and get some smokey mountain. It will really help. Some people never used it, others have used it a long time. If the alternative is to start dipping the real stuff, you have nothing to lose by trying it.

Double digits is awesome man! Keep it going!

Quit with you today!

AA

[B-loMatt]

Day 10
Yea I don't know what it yesterday, it was just a rough one from the time I woke up from the time I went to bed. Today seems to be doing better. Life is still kinda foggy, and energy is really low at times and really high at others. I find myself biting my tongue a lot, with a 4 year old and a pregnant wife about anything can set me off in a heart beat. I feel like I have to seclude myself away from them just so I don't yell for no reason at all.

Seeds have kind of stop working, as the inside of my mouth heals if feel like they cut or scratch my fresh cheek, then the salt just burns. Gum is making my jaw hurt from chewing it nonstop, and I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise. If any of you have any suggestions, I am all ears. Something I don't really need to chew but can just shove in my lip and basically suck on. The journey to be quit is defiantly going to get harder before it gets easier but with the brotherhood of KTC I feel like there is nothing I can't do.

Great fight so far! You got what it takes to kick nics ass every damn day... I had a real tough time with the oral fixation for the first few months. Fake dip is very helpful; I especially liked shredded beef jerky since you can park it like dip and no need to spit. Atomic fireballs are also great distraction, little burn keeps your mouth busy. Last summer I had to have a wad of fresh mint in my gob every time I cut the lawn, but any fresh herbs will do. Worst case: go find the closest sm shop and get fitted for a ball gag. Seriously, anything that is nic free is acceptable.

10 nicotine free days! You are killing it man! Keep fighting. Quit like fuck! There is a place where you won't miss the poison or even think about it that much; you just keep fighting EDD and you will get there. PM me if you need anything.

[Wannemacher]

Day 10
Yea I don't know what it yesterday, it was just a rough one from the time I woke up from the time I went to bed. Today seems to be doing better. Life is still kinda foggy, and energy is really low at times and really high at others. I find myself biting my tongue a lot, with a 4 year old and a pregnant wife about anything can set me off in a heart beat. I feel like I have to seclude myself away from them just so I don't yell for no reason at all.

Seeds have kind of stop working, as the inside of my mouth heals if feel like they cut or scratch my fresh cheek, then the salt just burns. Gum is making my jaw hurt from chewing it nonstop, and I really don't want to go to the fake stuff this late because I feel like that would be my demise. If any of you have any suggestions, I am all ears. Something I don't really need to chew but can just shove in my lip and basically suck on. The journey to be quit is defiantly going to get harder before it gets easier but with the brotherhood of KTC I feel like there is nothing I can't do.

[Spence249]

Day 9 ~ Today is not easy. In fact it sucks. All around sucks. Craving hard core, pounding headache, eyes jaw and teeth hurt. I knew this would be no walk in the park but man, I can see why people cave so easily. I just want to leave work go home curl up in a ball and sleep or lay there. I have so much I need to get accomplished in the next 5 hours a but I can't seem to stay focused or on task. Slamming water like is the last drop on earth, chewing gum and seed. Man oh man this is a rough one... Hopefully tomorrow will be a little bit easier but it seems like every day after about 6 it has gotten worse and worse

Work may suffer. Your quit cannot.

Wannemacher - those craves last less than 3 minutes each man. I know you don't believe me so time one and prove it to yourself. It made it easier for me to live through them when I knew they wouldn't last. I also spent a lot of time curled up in the corner! Read on here and keep it going! It gets a lot better soon.

AA

Work can and will suffer. My first few weeks - complete blur. Had people calling me telling me I talked to them the day before. Whatever, liars!

It sucks no doubt about it, but it does get better. SOOO much better. Hang in there.

[apogeeammo]

Day 9 ~ Today is not easy. In fact it sucks. All around sucks. Craving hard core, pounding headache, eyes jaw and teeth hurt. I knew this would be no walk in the park but man, I can see why people cave so easily. I just want to leave work go home curl up in a ball and sleep or lay there. I have so much I need to get accomplished in the next 5 hours a but I can't seem to stay focused or on task. Slamming water like is the last drop on earth, chewing gum and seed. Man oh man this is a rough one... Hopefully tomorrow will be a little bit easier but it seems like every day after about 6 it has gotten worse and worse

Work may suffer. Your quit cannot.

Wannemacher - those craves last less than 3 minutes each man. I know you don't believe me so time one and prove it to yourself. It made it easier for me to live through them when I knew they wouldn't last. I also spent a lot of time curled up in the corner! Read on here and keep it going! It gets a lot better soon.

AA

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Day 9 ~ Today is not easy. In fact it sucks. All around sucks. Craving hard core, pounding headache, eyes jaw and teeth hurt. I knew this would be no walk in the park but man, I can see why people cave so easily. I just want to leave work go home curl up in a ball and sleep or lay there. I have so much I need to get accomplished in the next 5 hours a but I can't seem to stay focused or on task. Slamming water like is the last drop on earth, chewing gum and seed. Man oh man this is a rough one... Hopefully tomorrow will be a little bit easier but it seems like every day after about 6 it has gotten worse and worse

Work may suffer. Your quit cannot.

[Wannemacher]

Day 9 ~ Today is not easy. In fact it sucks. All around sucks. Craving hard core, pounding headache, eyes jaw and teeth hurt. I knew this would be no walk in the park but man, I can see why people cave so easily. I just want to leave work go home curl up in a ball and sleep or lay there. I have so much I need to get accomplished in the next 5 hours a but I can't seem to stay focused or on task. Slamming water like is the last drop on earth, chewing gum and seed. Man oh man this is a rough one... Hopefully tomorrow will be a little bit easier but it seems like every day after about 6 it has gotten worse and worse

[Its_Got2Happen]

Right, the suck is getting better, the cravings are getting further apart, but the big test is to come. I have just about made it through the week but have yet to touch a weekend. This one is going to pretty much on the down low. Maybe have a beer at home, so it shouldn't be to tough. Unless I get outside working then it will be really bad. I picked up an extra pack of gum and bag of seeds to keep me going.

I did find a can last night that I missed on my clean out, when I went to dump it out the smell of the wintergreen about made my yack. How the heck did I ever shove that stuff in my lip. But on the other hand I did about shed a tear watching it dissolve into brown nothingness. I hope to God that is the last one I find. Even though I thought it was disgusting my brain wanted it, my hands wanted to shove one in, it took a very conscious effort to make sure that my body did not just go into auto mode and do what it is used to doing.

Day 5 flying by waiting on day 6
1DAAT

A lot of us know that feeling of revulsion and attraction at the same time! Back in the 80's the dealers used laxative to cut the coke so when a former user saw cocaine after quitting sometimes they would shat themselves! Its a bit like that.

Day 5 is awesome, keep it going, quit with you today!

Apogeeammo

PS: Smokey Mountain herbal dip is an acceptable alternative if you feel like you can't live without something in your lip. Its available at Walmart, has no nicotine, and tastes like wintergreen hammered corn silk but it helped me survive my first couple of weeks. After a while, I didn't want it anymore and I haven't used it in a long time.

You're doing great! Keep up the hard work. This is all about you being dedicated and focused on your quit. It is the most important thing in your life right now. Take back your life brother! Save yourself! This is for you and you alone. It will get much much better, I guarantee it. Stay strong.

I quit with you today.

Sounds like you're doing well. Keep a positive attitude because it keeps getting better everyday! Some days it may not feel like it, but it truly does keep getting better.

Nice win macher. Found a tin on day 5 and pitched it. That would have foiled many a quit. I guess you are in it to win it.

Thanks for the PM and the kind words, I replied with my number. Keep me posted on your success. You will get through this first weekend. I know this because you will post roll early and you will keep your word. Easy on the beers this weekend. Disinhibition will kill a quit. You are warned.

Keep it up.

Ryan