Day 5 of quit (sort of)

[dabean22]

To future Exile (when you return to KTC to actually quit for real) Your November 13 group is the one you left last time. The group that quit when you couldn't (not looking down on you, it's just a fact) After you left, I asked the group what they felt. Sort of a memorial of you and your quit. Here is what they said.

Midwest04z - Day 13 - I just wish Exile would have called before he caved. He was one of my contacts and we texted almost everyday. If I had any last words it would be to for him to quit today ( again) because we quit ODAAT and we QLF!

Brinkhoffs52 - Day 23 - I think exile's cave is a stark reminder that quit, when not properly nourished, can be a fragile thing. A "quit" is not just a state of mind, but i believe that on some level it has a life of its own. If you don;t properly feed it with the kool-aide, and support it, then it will not be strong when the little bitch comes bearing down on i and it shall perish. There is no reason that anyone using this site to it's fullest should have a weak quit. FEED YOUR QUIT!!!!

DaBean22- Day 18 Exile makes me wonder how many people are just saying the words, hoping that they will at some point understand "quit". I'm glad I get it.

mpscottmorgan- Day5. didn't know exile, but i know what it's like to let the bitch beat you. you have to have the right mindset and stay strong, ask for help when you need it. that's what i'm doing different this time.

Aredmo- lucky number 13. Did not know Exile but its a bummer when anyone goes back out to use chew- its a reminder of how powerful the nic bitch is.

Mike from AB - Day 2. Here goes. New here so didn't know Exile either, but I can sure understand the temptation to cave. I just hope he remembers and learns from the experience so that when his come to God moment happens  it truly is time to quit, that he'll be that much better prepared for it whether soon again or years down the road.

pclark1856 - Day 22. Exile's cave is a reminder to remain vigilant. Caving is not an option. Gum, gum, gum.

N8R - Day 3 - He's cave had no effect on me. Not gonna lie to you all, this is one of the easiest things I've done. Legit, the harder part isn't going to be to hit 100, my harder problem is gonna be to stay quit. Absolutely zero symptoms so far, and sleeping like a champ.

Onedollar99cents - day 15. As for exile - what a dissapointment, i wonder how dissapointed his loved ones will be, obviously all of us are, but when this asshat finally comes to his senses i hope its not too late and he is not covered in tumors.

CMVSteveD - Day 25 - Quitting is a personal choice for us all, exile has chosen to be at the meecy of his addiction rather than free of it.

I don't know if anything speaks to you but let me say this, when you do finally realize what it means to quit (and not simply stop for a while) make sure you come find the November Sky Divers and let us know. We will all be very happy for you and will have your back. Now answer the 3 questions for real and with your head on straight, eat come crow and quit. QLFEDD and NAFAR.

How did it happen?

Why did it happen?

What are you doing differently to prevent it from happening again?

[worktowin]

That's one long winded way to spell b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-. You caved because you were hungry??? You caved because you're an addict and you chose to cave instead of owning your quit. Cavers rationalize everything (trust me I know from experience).

I'm glad you're back, but you need to get your head right. Post roll, keep your word, repeat.

Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit. -Scowick

^^^^truth whole lot of good here Minny has given u free medicine

really? Minny nailed it. BS.

I have serious doubts about you my friend. I think we'll probably see you post a 1 in the next december group or maybe january.

Prove me wrong.

And put down that big mac.

Exile, I hope you read this. But if you don't, I hope that your team in November does.

Start at the bottom and read this whole thread. Here is a 30 year old man on a mission. Successful. Family. Educated. On his way. Giving time to his country. An all American. A man that is honorable and.... Uh oh. Wait a minute. Now we hit a speed bump.

See, this site is all about integrity. It is all about giving your word. And keeping it. It means waking up in the morning, posting roll first thing, and then keeping your word. Now, here is the deal, in the beginning there are some fucking horrible days for almost all of us. Those days were created by our addiction. We allowed those days into our lives. If we didn't use nicotine, we wouldn't have earned them. And to overcome those days we have a team of thousands that have been in the same shoes or that currently are that will move mountains to get you through the hard times. And there are still days, 240 days in, that addiction sings that siren song to me, the volume is much lower now and it is easier to flip the bitch off.

Exile chose to turn his back on this plan. He chose to not reach out. He chose to not be a man if integrity. And he is once again a slave to an addiction that sucked all of us in to a lie for way too many years. But in the end, he didn't keep his word to us over and over.

Don't be an exile. Be a man (or woman) of your word. Reach out if you are struggling. You are part of something bigger than your own struggles. Use your group and contacts to build each other up. Helping one another to overcome the battle makes everyone stronger. Giving in to a cancer causing expensive filthy addiction instead of choosing a family that will do anything to help you... Man, that is a fucking shame.

[ParadigmDawg]

Dude has no quit in him....

[dabean22]

It has been relayed to me via PM Via text that Exile caved again today. He doesn't intend on returning to the site until he has his "shit together". If I somehow have that information wrong, I apologize but I'm fairly confident because the source is trusted at this site. To Exile, I only have one question at this moment......

Why aren't you posting day 1 RIGHT FUCKING NOW? Don't wait for it to get even harder.

[tarpon17]

That's one long winded way to spell b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-. You caved because you were hungry??? You caved because you're an addict and you chose to cave instead of owning your quit. Cavers rationalize everything (trust me I know from experience).

I'm glad you're back, but you need to get your head right. Post roll, keep your word, repeat.

Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit. -Scowick

^^^^truth whole lot of good here Minny has given u free medicine

really? Minny nailed it. BS.

I have serious doubts about you my friend. I think we'll probably see you post a 1 in the next december group or maybe january.

Prove me wrong.

And put down that big mac.

[traumagnet]

That's one long winded way to spell b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-. You caved because you were hungry??? You caved because you're an addict and you chose to cave instead of owning your quit. Cavers rationalize everything (trust me I know from experience).

I'm glad you're back, but you need to get your head right. Post roll, keep your word, repeat.

Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit. -Scowick

^^^^truth whole lot of good here Minny has given u free medicine

[srans]

That's one long winded way to spell b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-. You caved because you were hungry??? You caved because you're an addict and you chose to cave instead of owning your quit. Cavers rationalize everything (trust me I know from experience).

I'm glad you're back, but you need to get your head right. Post roll, keep your word, repeat.

Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit. -Scowick

I got to agree with this ^^^. The truth will set you free.

[Minny]

That's one long winded way to spell b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-. You caved because you were hungry??? You caved because you're an addict and you chose to cave instead of owning your quit. Cavers rationalize everything (trust me I know from experience).

I'm glad you're back, but you need to get your head right. Post roll, keep your word, repeat.

Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit. -Scowick

[Quit]

Good to see you posted up roll again. It is looking to me as if you are starting down the path of a serial quitter.

Time to break that cycle. One thing I see you missing in "What are you going to do different" is get some more support through this site. I have left you a PM if you so desire to take me up on my offer of support.

[traumagnet]

I am not even going to read this addict speak this is such bullshit. You think you were the only one in the military n was over the wt limits. I was over all the time but passed my body fat cause I worked out. N to quote Evil weight is easier to lose than cancer. Pull your head out exile man the fuck up n quit...boo hoo I am the only one that has had to study...get you ass back on this site and drink the koolaid this time instead of looking for the exit. You need help I will do whatever I can to help you

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Joining the November quit group because I caved after 43 days of quit. Don't be a dumbass like me guys.

1. How did it happen?

I have 13 years in the Army National Guard and at 6'2 and 213 pounds, I was right at what they considered a fat ass already. One of my problems is I like eating just as much as I like nicotine. I have always kept this in check by working out and running like an animal so I could eat what I wanted and overstep the weight requirement by "taping out" and proving I had more muscle mass than fat.
I have been in graduate school to become a nurse practitioner have been taking 13-15 hours per semester for the last 3 semesters. I quit working out in February about the same time I started trying to get off of dip....this also happened to be about the same time my workload/time requirements for school and clinical rotations doubled. Since that time I have gained 25 pounds of pure Ronald McDonald ass fat. I finished school and clinical in the first part of August and passed my certification exam on August 8th. So since this time I have had a few days of idol time to let the nic bitch get into my head. After finally taking some time to take a breath and look around at my world I realized I was up to 238 pounds and have to meet ht/wt requirements as well as take a PT test in October for the military. So I decided to get off my ass and tighten back up quick, fast, and in a hurry. Sunday, August 11th, at 43 days of quit.... I was going to work on some property we recently bought and I was hungry......instead of getting something healthy to eat I gave in and bought a can of snuff and allowed the bitch to convince me I needed it to help me curb my appetite.

2. Why did it happen?

I allowed the nic bitch to play too many head games with me over the past few days and did not take the time to reach out to my fellow quitters for support. I did not anticipate the cravings kicking into overdrive once I had this newly found free time on my hands. I blamed my weight gain solely on the lack of tobacco and allowed the bitch to convince me I would be better off with her and could achieve my weight loss and fitness goals quicker.

3. What am I going to do different to prevent it from happening again?

I am going to plan ahead for life changes and scenarios that could allow the bitch to come calling. I am going to post roll every single day, first thing in the morning. I am going to stop eating shit and improve my diet. I am going to run AT LEAST once a day until I get back where I need to be and then work just as hard at keeping the weight off as I do staying quit so that the retarded ass logic of using nicotine to "help me lose weight" will never work it's way back into my brain. I will reach out to SOMEONE anytime I feel the urge to put some more of this cancer causing shit in my mouth.

Glad to see you take your arms, reach in between your legs, insert your hands up your colon and remove your head! Now that Is DUCK FIP Behavior QUACK!QUACK!

Now, the questions appear to ne answered honestly. It is time to take some jacks on the jaw for being an ass and not seeking out fellow quitters before. That is the only part of your answers I am struggling with right now. You should have been posting every damn day when haas, boomer, pinched, or I were posting shit about it. Also, I asked people for there damn numbers numerous times. Your a smart guy, you think that was simple for my damn health. Hell no! It was so I could bug the shit out of you if you didn't post roll.

Maybe you should start texting and posting more quitters now instead of waiting until the urges come. That is more addictive thinking. YOU PREVENT RELAPSE..YOU DON"T STOP IT AT THE MOMENT IT IS THERE! You have been around for 43 days and only posted around 70 times. That is some lame ass crap for someone who was going to quit. I am being a dick.. i know! Because you shit on us DUCKS when we were there to help ya! Don't do it to November! Okay, I spoke my piece. Now send me your damn number so I can give you hell if you don't post ROLL. QUACK! QUACK!

PS: you can make passive aggressive statements about the name but the fact is... your ass is jealous cause DUCK FIPS are QFQQ who Fly Together, if you don't leave us.

[Keddy]

Exile,
Read the HOF speeches most have a common theme same stories just different locations. There are no special butterflies here. We are all the same here addicts always will be we will never be cured.

Looks like exile has left the country!

[traumagnet]

Exile,
Read the HOF speeches most have a common theme same stories just different locations. There are no special butterflies here. We are all the same here addicts always will be we will never be cured.

[exile]

I have seen alot of posts about cravings and how they sneak back in even after tens or hundreds of days quit. I have to say, this is what led to me making the stupid decision to take several "one last dip(s)" during the last couple months after having been quit for over 100 days. It wasn't so much that single isolated craving on that particular day....but the thought that "It is always going to be this bad, the cravings are always going to be this strong, and I will not be able to keep this monkey off my back forever....why am I trying to kid myself."
Then the self rationalization comes into play "I work hard, I treat people good, I'm not a drug head or alcoholic.....I deserve this one pleasure in life." For me, these few slip up may have actually helped me in my quit, because as I said earlier in this thread, the actual experience of putting another dip in my lip (after not having any for well over 100 days) was a huge disappointment. There was no warm and tingly, no relaxation, no stress relief, no surge of energy, no burst of courage, not even a good taste. Just shame, disappointment in my self , and the realization that the stressful day or situation that led me to this point was still there.
So, I don't care if cravings ever do go away, I don't care if they never ease up...I have resolved to embrace these cravings. I will also embrace the times I caved over the last couple months. The cravings remind me what a grip tobacco had on my life, what a weakness I had, and how much strength and determination it took to overcome this (praise Jesus). I would be willing to bet that VERY few people in this world could put tobacco down and walk away from it once they were addicted to the point that I (and all of you I'm sure) was. We are pretty bad ass...and we need to keep that in mind. When a craving hits, I will use it as a reminder to thank God for delivering me from slowly financing my own cancer and cardiovascular disease. If there were no more cravings, I might forget what a pitiful, weak, addicted punk I used to be.......I will embrace the times I caved and put that crap back in my mouth and use it as a reminder of what a foolish, nasty thing it really is. This is much easier to see once you have a clear head and can look at it objectively. I threw away well over 100 days of "sobriety".....and then the experiences were not even enjoyable!!!!
N E V E R  again.

Embrace the suck, embrace your shortcomings, embrace your stupidity, embrace your weakness......and use them as weapons against the former weak, addicted, tobacco enslaved self that is desperately fighting to get the best of you. Get mad, get serious, and stay quit.

This was my thoughts as I read your POST........


Oh SHIT!
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!

That is just freaky. Oh wait, there is nothing special about this. He is just another addict like you! Quit lying to me nic bitch! Sneaky freaking pain in the 'arse'


Quitting with you today Exile.

I'm sure we all have a lot more in common than we would like to admit! We have probably all fought off the same ridiculous thoughts and temptations on this road.

[exile]

Exile,
I dont see that you ever stopped your patch. I see that you stopped the dip but not the patch. From the sounds of it you are still patched up and if that is the case you have to be nicotine free to participate on this site. If you are infact without the patch then my mistake.

Yep, your mistake. Patch free since around the middle of May.