I'm such a girl

[AJK]

This poem by Wendell Berry illustrates the healing process beautifully.


I go among trees and sit still.
All my stirring becomes quiet
around me like circles on water.
My tasks lie in their places
Where I left them, asleep like cattleÂ…

Then what I am afraid of comes,
I live for a while in its sight.
What I fear in it leaves it,
And the fear of it leaves me.
It sings, and I hear its song.

[Cindy]

As you know this is my first day, I saw you said you are being treated for anxiety, well I am, too. That was part of the reason I have been putting off quitting. I got to thinking about it though and I think that after a while having quit will actually help with my anxiety. I used it as a crutch and and was held captive by it. I am trying to look at it as one LESS thing to worry about

[slarowe5]

Your doing great lady! Im here if you need me :)

[AJK]

Day 8. Pretty good!

I was a bit worried going into my first weekend without, but had a plan of keeping busy - not doing regular things that would cause a trigger. It worked, and the weekend was fine. On top of that, I fasted/prayed most of the day yesterday. Only water. It was amazing as I totally got peace for the first time in a week. Busy week this week - work is crazy hectic, lots of yoga classes scheduled and traveling near the end of the week to visit my Mom and Son downstate. Taking ODAAT!

[Done4Me]

... I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside...

Hilarious! Funny that we dudes don't know it and funny you know we don't.

I like me some Amy. Keep the foot on the quit accelerator and post +1s.

[danojeno]

... I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside...

Hilarious! Funny that we dudes don't know it and funny you know we don't.

[Menace]

Amy,

Keep drinking the water and the koolaid here on KTC. Bottom line it will suck till it doesn't but with KTC as your guide you can and will quit. If my dumb ass can quit then I know anyone can. Just keep repeating to yourself....ODAAT or One minute if need be.

[30yraddict]

You can do this. You cannot imagine how good it is going to get...

I wrote these single/?p=1101493t=1006646 single/?p=1102558t=1006646 early on in my quit.

I agree with using the intro as your journal... It is not only helpful now, but an invaluable look back when you become "mature" in quit.

When you have bad days remember it is going to get FAR better. Freedom is truly awesome.

[AJK]

Day 7! Man its been a long mfing week. As long as the days don't get as bad as day 4, I can do this! Today still craving but there are longer periods of time between. Keeping myself busy with walking/hiking/yoga and starting a knitting project this afternoon. I've gained 5 lbs this week and not thrilled about it. Going to be munching on carrot sticks and not hot tamales this week. Upping the proteins and veggies. Water is my beverage choice for years anyway, but drinking more now than usual.

I am already looking back on this journal with fondness. Think I'll keep it up for awhile.

:-)

[Done4Me]

6th day. Again not so bad. Mouth and throat still sore, but getting better. I notice that food tastes really dull. Like hardly any flavor.

Something I thought was interesting: after yoga class I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside. My message was "think of something that makes you smile", and the first thing I thought of was being nic free.

Heading in the right direction, and even made some new friends in may mayhem 2014. If you are reading this and are new, don't be afraid to check out more seasoned quitters.

Here's to another day closer to hof!

Saw your day 7 post. You're killing it Amy. Sometimes bad things happen for a reason. Never forget the pain of your day 4. You're past that now. Quit one day at a time.

[AJK]

6th day. Again not so bad. Mouth and throat still sore, but getting better. I notice that food tastes really dull. Like hardly any flavor.

Something I thought was interesting: after yoga class I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside. My message was "think of something that makes you smile", and the first thing I thought of was being nic free.

Heading in the right direction, and even made some new friends in may mayhem 2014. If you are reading this and are new, don't be afraid to check out more seasoned quitters.

Here's to another day closer to hof!

[30isEnuff]

You are in the thick of it AJK. Enjoy the good moments and days. Use them to keep your tools sharp. When cravings and temptations come, BE READY. The nic bitch does NOT go away that easily, she will come a whispering. You can bet on it. 5 days is wicked awesome and should be celebrated BUT, do not get complacent. Avoid alcohol for a while. This will keep you in the driver seat.

Keep it up.

What ^^^said AmyJo.

Press on sister. ODAAT...you got this.

[Its_Got2Happen]

You are in the thick of it AJK. Enjoy the good moments and days. Use them to keep your tools sharp. When cravings and temptations come, BE READY. The nic bitch does NOT go away that easily, she will come a whispering. You can bet on it. 5 days is wicked awesome and should be celebrated BUT, do not get complacent. Avoid alcohol for a while. This will keep you in the driver seat.

Keep it up.

[Thumblewort]

Thanks for keeping us up to date! You'll read your intro in a couple of months and be proud of the journey! Quit all day with you.

[AJK]

You are doing great. You Can and will do this!!!

Thank you razd!