Day 41
It will be six weeks tomorrow since I have given up chewing tobacco. I don't know if I am better person for it, but I do know that I am stronger and know myself a little better than I did before I started. I am also battling my other addiction of alcohol these days as well. Booze is more difficult for me to quit than anything I have attempted before. I'm not sure why but it is and there isn't anything I can do about it. I am an addict and always will be.
My nic quit is going well with little to no cravings these days. I do have my triggers but they are manageable since I want to be quit. If I didn't want to be quit then there are lots of opportunities to cave and plenty of excuses! Oh the excuses, there are so many that I could fill this page with just a portion and still not even come close to listing them all.
My alcohol quit is still a little shaky at this point. Someone from this site told me to put as much effort into not drinking as I did into drinking. This put things into perspective and has helped me, but I am still having a hard time imagining not ever having a drink again. It just feels so good and is so enjoyable!
Anyhow, just wanted to write this shit down since I am not going to be in this state of mind (or so I hope) for the rest of my life.