Day 574-
When asked if the craves ever stop by a quitter around 200 days, I responded and this should go in here
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Well, that depends on who you ask. For myself, it has not. I will go weeks, sometimes even a couple months now, and nothing. No thoughts, craves, whatever.... Then sometimes things hit you. I will share a story with you that happened only 2 weeks ago.
My 11 year old son whom I have played baseball with since he was 2 years old, coached him the last 5 years in the local small town league wanted to "step it up" to the big league, a travel team. This means he needed to attend a tryout. Well, parents were explicitly NOT ALLOWED at the 1.5 hr tryout. I didn't see it coming, but let me tell you.... when my boy walked away from me, into that complex to play ball without me.... I fucking lost it. I sat there lonely as you all felt on day 3. I didn't really have a plan for the next 1.5 hours. I went to the local sports store and fucked around for a half hour, but then, I drove around. I ended up back at the park and across the road was a C-store. I have not wanted to go get my ol' buddy Grizzly as bad as then, in the past 300 days.
I put in a stick of gum, and pulled out the phone and tried to pass time on KTC. If it would have been any worse, I would have made the texts / call to any other quitter. I was not prepared.
Sometimes you need to get some water, do some pushups, all the same things we did in those first 30 days just to get by. And you know what? It's ok to keep doing that. There is no shame. There is no shame in reminding yourself you need some help, because nicotine is still a naggy bitch.