DonkeyMN ---- Run!

[DonkeyMN]

Day 150-

A little frustrating funk today. Strange because the past 30+ days have been really good. You hear that? 30 damn days of living my life without any problems / craves. I think possibly the fact that a member caved at 154 days in our group is the cause of this... who knows.

Anxiety is up today, wish I had a punching bag. 'blowup'

I know this is temporary, and I have plenty to be thankful for. I just wanted to vent a bit. Quit on, you crazy diamond.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 121 -

If you are reading this and you are a quitter just starting... keep the faith. A quit goes through many ups and downs. There are a lot of posts on here when people need help, and things are bad. But I wanted to take time to post when something is good. Our May 17 group is about done with the HOF. It is a time of reflection. Of appreciation of what I have done to this point. Not only that, but the funks that come and go, are getting fewer and farther between.

I am at a high point in the roller coaster now. I use fake dip yet, but mostly only when I drink, and at work once in a while. I go through a can about every 2 weeks. I can see myself being rid of it - which is nice. But I know to keep my mind even keel. I am not going to get cocky, overconfident... it can turn in an instant, be ready, this is the reality of nicotine free life.

I stand guard at the gates, waiting. waiting. protect the quit at all costs.

[DonkeyMN]

Just read your HOF speech. Damn. Powerful. Stuff.

I lost my father to pancreatic cancer far too long ago when he was far too young. But unlike you, I was stupid, as I continued to stuff my maw with Copenhagen as I watched him wilt away.

Other than that, I know how you feel. Hope you can find peace on this Mother's Day as she has now gone to be with her Father. (at least that's what I believe).

Thank you bud.

Yesterday was very..... well it was just weird, having to hold a good face for my wife and kids - because it was her day too. And I thought about my Mom probably 200 times, saddened.... just a damn emotional roller coaster.

Day 105 and QLF.

[CavMan83]

Just read your HOF speech. Damn. Powerful. Stuff.

I lost my father to pancreatic cancer far too long ago when he was far too young. But unlike you, I was stupid, as I continued to stuff my maw with Copenhagen as I watched him wilt away.

Other than that, I know how you feel. Hope you can find peace on this Mother's Day as she has now gone to be with her Father. (at least that's what I believe).

[CavMan83]

Day 72 - I feel the need to come on here and post an update, but not much is to really update.

I am in the waiting portion of the early quit. We in May have not gotten where the HOF is hitting our group. There is very little that will make me think that a dip is a good idea. Ho Hum...

Being involved in the Sheet for the group helps keeps me interested and active. I am thankful for that. If any young quitter is reading through this Intro and wondering if you should step up, DO IT! It really gives you an appreciation for the ODAAT mantra.

That's all I got for now. Life is good, especially without having a shitty habit to drag me down. 'nutkick'

Donkey,

You're in the middle of a pre-HOF funk. Funks come and go (but don't come to stay) even well after the HOF. Do the things you've done to keep you active. Active in your group in May, active in groups that came before, active in groups that will follow. The funk will pass. The "ho-hum" you feel is temporary. There will be more "ho-hum" periods to come, but you have the tools you need to get through them. Great job getting to day 72. Keep doing what you're doing and one day you'll be at day 7200 (and beyond).

Quit with you today.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 72 - I feel the need to come on here and post an update, but not much is to really update.

I am in the waiting portion of the early quit. We in May have not gotten where the HOF is hitting our group. There is very little that will make me think that a dip is a good idea. Ho Hum...

Being involved in the Sheet for the group helps keeps me interested and active. I am thankful for that. If any young quitter is reading through this Intro and wondering if you should step up, DO IT! It really gives you an appreciation for the ODAAT mantra.

That's all I got for now. Life is good, especially without having a shitty habit to drag me down. 'nutkick'

[Ready]

Day 58 - I have settled back into a normal routine. Want to get the fake out of the picture but will still be patient. I used to chew a can every other day of real, now go through a can a week of fake. So there's that.

Spent some time on chat yesterday trying to recruit a guy that just happened upon the chat. Was a frustrating time, kinda like talking to my old self 70 days ago. The stranglehold that nic bitch has on people is maddening, sad....

Focus at work is much better. The home life is good, although my wife seems to think I am "cured". Need to come on here to get real support and have people that understand there are times when the nic whore just pulls on your sleeve, like a 4 year old that wants attention. Nothing else matters to that 4 year old, and will stop at nothing to get you to acknowledge them. I acknowledge the craving.... look it in the eye and then walk away. Put some gum or fake in. Do something else.

Do something else indeed! Damn proud of you!

[DonkeyMN]

Day 58 - I have settled back into a normal routine. Want to get the fake out of the picture but will still be patient. I used to chew a can every other day of real, now go through a can a week of fake. So there's that.

Spent some time on chat yesterday trying to recruit a guy that just happened upon the chat. Was a frustrating time, kinda like talking to my old self 70 days ago. The stranglehold that nic bitch has on people is maddening, sad....

Focus at work is much better. The home life is good, although my wife seems to think I am "cured". Need to come on here to get real support and have people that understand there are times when the nic whore just pulls on your sleeve, like a 4 year old that wants attention. Nothing else matters to that 4 year old, and will stop at nothing to get you to acknowledge them. I acknowledge the craving.... look it in the eye and then walk away. Put some gum or fake in. Do something else.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 38 - I haven't been on the site as much as before but wanted to say I am thankful to all who expressed their concerns and well wishes during this shitty time of my life. I am amazed at how many people have offered encouragement. - Strangers, yet brothers in arms against the faceless demon that hides in the shadows now.

I have had some blahs, some really good days, and some really bad ones. Like I mentioned before I am a "bored chewer". Something I never really realized about myself. Bored at work? Have a chew. Bored at Church? Ninja a chew. Bored with life? Chew it up. The weekends are the easiest part of the quit, since there are so many things to do. The mundane work, weekday life is when I get itchy. Want summer to get here so there is more to do!

[JGlav]

Day 26- well, the person who always defended and loved me,my mom, died yesterday morning. I was too out of it to crave yesterday so will see how the next few days go. I won't be on here much, but will find time to post roll.

So sorry to hear this DonkeyMN. I lost my pop in the beginning months of my quit as well. I am truly sorry for your loss. Please know this community is a great support for quitting
and just plain ole support for those grieving. Stay strong brother, tougher days are surely ahead. Prayers for you and you family.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 26- well, the person who always defended and loved me,my mom, died yesterday morning. I was too out of it to crave yesterday so will see how the next few days go. I won't be on here much, but will find time to post roll.

[Ready]

Day 17- wanted to put this copied in here from a post from the group.

I got home today after work, I went out to the mailbox. What the fuck do I see there, a coupon from Grizzly. I stared at it for a minute, not knowing what to do with it. My kids are yelling at me from in the house, the dog is taking a shit on the empty lot next to my house. What do I do with this thing? I walk over to the garbage, and start to rip it up. Then I think, how can I not have this coming to my house anymore? Oh shit, theres a number right there that says " call to unsubscribe "....

I put the dog in the house, tell the kids to go be busy and Dad needs to make a phone call. The lady that picks up - first question - " Are you a tobacco user?" I shit you not. I pause, and say NOT ANY MORE . Her: What do you want to do? Me: unsubscribe from your mailings. Her: No problem. Oh, by the way, are you 18? WTF. Now they ask that?

Then, I come on here, and someone got their mailings today. Someone who was still in the fog. Could I have thought that clearly to do that 15 days ago? No way.

Donkey- you are doing this the right way man. Keep posting roll, keeping tracking your victories like this, and keep quitting for you. When I'm bored with my quit, I go back to my intro and I have these type of posts that remind me what a bitch it was in the beginning. It is so worth it. Simple formula of accountability and brotherhood.

As for the work thing you posted about a few days ago, I get it. I lost almost an entire 30 days of work to the fog because I was here non-stop. It was a great sacrifice as it helped me keep motivated and clean. I don't regret a single minute of it, because now, I'm far more productive on the other side. It may take some time, but as long as you keep doing what you are doing, you'll kill it!

Nice quit dude!

I see you involved in your group.

Well done getting involved!

NAFAR!!!

[Thumblewort]

Day 17- wanted to put this copied in here from a post from the group.

I got home today after work, I went out to the mailbox. What the fuck do I see there, a coupon from Grizzly. I stared at it for a minute, not knowing what to do with it. My kids are yelling at me from in the house, the dog is taking a shit on the empty lot next to my house. What do I do with this thing? I walk over to the garbage, and start to rip it up. Then I think, how can I not have this coming to my house anymore? Oh shit, theres a number right there that says " call to unsubscribe "....

I put the dog in the house, tell the kids to go be busy and Dad needs to make a phone call. The lady that picks up - first question - " Are you a tobacco user?" I shit you not. I pause, and say NOT ANY MORE . Her: What do you want to do? Me: unsubscribe from your mailings. Her: No problem. Oh, by the way, are you 18? WTF. Now they ask that?

Then, I come on here, and someone got their mailings today. Someone who was still in the fog. Could I have thought that clearly to do that 15 days ago? No way.

Donkey- you are doing this the right way man. Keep posting roll, keeping tracking your victories like this, and keep quitting for you. When I'm bored with my quit, I go back to my intro and I have these type of posts that remind me what a bitch it was in the beginning. It is so worth it. Simple formula of accountability and brotherhood.

As for the work thing you posted about a few days ago, I get it. I lost almost an entire 30 days of work to the fog because I was here non-stop. It was a great sacrifice as it helped me keep motivated and clean. I don't regret a single minute of it, because now, I'm far more productive on the other side. It may take some time, but as long as you keep doing what you are doing, you'll kill it!

Nice quit dude!

[Viking]

Day 17- wanted to put this copied in here from a post from the group.

I got home today after work, I went out to the mailbox. What the fuck do I see there, a coupon from Grizzly. I stared at it for a minute, not knowing what to do with it. My kids are yelling at me from in the house, the dog is taking a shit on the empty lot next to my house. What do I do with this thing? I walk over to the garbage, and start to rip it up. Then I think, how can I not have this coming to my house anymore? Oh shit, theres a number right there that says " call to unsubscribe "....

I put the dog in the house, tell the kids to go be busy and Dad needs to make a phone call. The lady that picks up - first question - " Are you a tobacco user?" I shit you not. I pause, and say NOT ANY MORE . Her: What do you want to do? Me: unsubscribe from your mailings. Her: No problem. Oh, by the way, are you 18? WTF. Now they ask that?

Then, I come on here, and someone got their mailings today. Someone who was still in the fog. Could I have thought that clearly to do that 15 days ago? No way.

Donkey- you are doing this the right way man. Keep posting roll, keeping tracking your victories like this, and keep quitting for you. When I'm bored with my quit, I go back to my intro and I have these type of posts that remind me what a bitch it was in the beginning. It is so worth it. Simple formula of accountability and brotherhood.

As for the work thing you posted about a few days ago, I get it. I lost almost an entire 30 days of work to the fog because I was here non-stop. It was a great sacrifice as it helped me keep motivated and clean. I don't regret a single minute of it, because now, I'm far more productive on the other side. It may take some time, but as long as you keep doing what you are doing, you'll kill it!

[JGlav]

Beautiful thing roll post a nd a promise is! You mad your promise that day and honored it. Well done. Congrats on 15 days.