DonkeyMN ---- Run!

[DonkeyMN]

Day 17- wanted to put this copied in here from a post from the group.

I got home today after work, I went out to the mailbox. What the fuck do I see there, a coupon from Grizzly. I stared at it for a minute, not knowing what to do with it. My kids are yelling at me from in the house, the dog is taking a shit on the empty lot next to my house. What do I do with this thing? I walk over to the garbage, and start to rip it up. Then I think, how can I not have this coming to my house anymore? Oh shit, theres a number right there that says " call to unsubscribe "....

I put the dog in the house, tell the kids to go be busy and Dad needs to make a phone call. The lady that picks up - first question - " Are you a tobacco user?" I shit you not. I pause, and say NOT ANY MORE . Her: What do you want to do? Me: unsubscribe from your mailings. Her: No problem. Oh, by the way, are you 18? WTF. Now they ask that?

Then, I come on here, and someone got their mailings today. Someone who was still in the fog. Could I have thought that clearly to do that 15 days ago? No way.

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Day 15 - Life is starting to get more normal. Not sure when my distracted ass will be able to completely concentrate on something for more than 15 minutes though. Not real great for the work part of life. I also have more cravings at work than anywhere else, probably because of boredom. Oh well, smokey mountain to the rescue.

I feel more relaxed now than when I was dipping.

The struggle is real, but worth it. I am making a difference in my life, and my family's lives. My 9 year old is proud of me and that makes me crazy happy.

"The struggle is real but worth it!"

Indeed it is! It will get so much better!

NAFAR!

[DonkeyMN]

Day 15 - Life is starting to get more normal. Not sure when my distracted ass will be able to completely concentrate on something for more than 15 minutes though. Not real great for the work part of life. I also have more cravings at work than anywhere else, probably because of boredom. Oh well, smokey mountain to the rescue.

I feel more relaxed now than when I was dipping.

The struggle is real, but worth it. I am making a difference in my life, and my family's lives. My 9 year old is proud of me and that makes me crazy happy.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 10- I had my first dip dream last night... funny that in my dream I felt so ashamed, and I actually thought crap.... now I gotta go back to day 1.

Not sure why, but I read stories of people having them and thought "how weird, I'm sure that will never happen to me."

I am having cravings that are really getting satisfied by the fake dip and am not sure how to feel about that. The oral addiction of putting dip in my mouth is apparently very real. I am hoping this just goes away like many have told me in chat.

ODAAT

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Day 8 - I have been feeling pretty good the last couple days. Getting good sleep - I think I am tired at night from pushing the craves away during the day. A little win- I flossed the teeth today and didn't really bleed! That's something I don't remember happening for a long time.

I am thankful that my group seems to be loosening up and starting to rally around each other and we May (get it?) just be alright.

I don't think about it ALL the time now, just most. Once in a while I catch myself and say - hey, its been an hour 'dance'

Congrats! You are beginning to realize how great things will get???

Hang in there. It gets so much better. You have no idea!

[DonkeyMN]

Day 8 - I have been feeling pretty good the last couple days. Getting good sleep - I think I am tired at night from pushing the craves away during the day. A little win- I flossed the teeth today and didn't really bleed! That's something I don't remember happening for a long time.

I am thankful that my group seems to be loosening up and starting to rally around each other and we May (get it?) just be alright.

I don't think about it ALL the time now, just most. Once in a while I catch myself and say - hey, its been an hour 'dance'

[DonkeyMN]

I will try to not take over this introduction area by posting too much.

But, hey - future me. Remember this Day 4. Remember how you thought that the worst part was when the nic was leaving your body? Fuck that, this is worse. The fog is still a little here, yet now I am clearheaded enough now to be short tempered, angry with the dumbest shit.

Sucks to know that the best thing I can do now is put my head down, don't talk much to anyone and hope it gets better. This is the prison she puts you in.

I think about it all the time.

Fuck nicotine

[jpetmpls]

Nice work! Love seeing these fellow MN quitters roll through. Looks like you've got a pretty decent mindset going, so I'll only add one thing. Be careful, don't get too high and don't get too low. Nicotine addiction tends to mask a lot of emotions. Not feeling great? Have a dip. Don't like a situation? Walk away and pack a dip. You know the drill I'm sure. Prepare yourself for the reality of few things. That being said, once you push through, things are so much better. You have my word on that.

[MN_Engineer]

Random thoughts day 2...

I don't like the creepys anymore. I really don't like people saying "good for you" when they hear I quit. I haven't done a god damn thing yet.

I woke up last night at 2am and couldn't figure out if I needed to piss, or what was going on with me. Apparently my body just said this is more important than sleep. 'bang head'

Yet you have done a "god damn thing"!! You have eliminated nicotine from your life for two days now and you are taking your life back one minute/hour/day at a time!! You have to celebrate and embrace the little things in this journey as well as the major victories.

Your body will rebel in multiple ways. Drink so much water that you literally need to live on the toilet because you are pissing constantly. Flush the poison out of your system. If you need to, get gum, seeds or fake dip (I use(d) Grinds coffee pouches and Baccoff wintergreen pouches) to curb the oral fixation. If the cravings get too intense, insert your balls in a desk drawer and slam repeatedly. The craving will pass by the time you can stand upright again.

I won't lie - the foreseeable future will be rough but you have a massive support group here on KTC. Share your digits and reach out for support. We have all been through the suck of the first days/weeks and are here to offer encouragement and support in any way we can.

I have shared my digits with you in a PM (see Inbox button in the top right corner of your screen). Don't hesitate to reach out. I'm glad you are here!

[DonkeyMN]

Random thoughts day 2...

I don't like the creepys anymore. I really don't like people saying "good for you" when they hear I quit. I haven't done a god damn thing yet.

I woke up last night at 2am and couldn't figure out if I needed to piss, or what was going on with me. Apparently my body just said this is more important than sleep. 'bang head'

[wastepanel]

Random thoughts...

I kinda like the feeling of the creepy crawlies on my skin now -Ha

I dont like how I feel somewhat sleepy. Need caffeine?

Quitting is for quitters

You're in for it man.

It's awesome that you like this feeling now, but it's going to suck. I can't tell you when it will start to suck...but it will. This whole addiction thing....it comes with a price. That price is the suck. The good news is that the suck doesn't last long. I can't tell you when the suck will stop....but it will.

When times are bad, lean on your tools (friends, seeds, gums, water, etc). When times are good, plan for the bad.

Eventually, your mood won't be dependent on the plant or on the want foe the plant. You are free to be you. That's why I quit and that's why I'm glad I quit.

Pm me your number man. We do this together.

[Bert75]

Hey Donkey. From one Minnesotan to another you got this. Read up, listen and read some more. I'm a couple years older than you and I was a dumbass over half my life just like you. Same deal, started out smoking and then started to dip to quit smoking. All of us are here for one reason, to quit being a dumbass and quit this crap once and for all. Pull up a chair and make it happen. I quit with you today man!!

[Idaho Spuds]

Donkey welcome,
Perfect get active in your group and post updates here, rant, bitch and ask questions.
Post roll, stay quit, help others, build a network.
ID Spuds

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Random thoughts...

I kinda like the feeling of the creepy crawlies on my skin now -Ha

I dont like how I feel somewhat sleepy. Need caffeine?

Quitting is for quitters

You will certainly be going through a lot of physical and mental changes due to withdrawals. There is a section on what to expect. It's pretty accurate for the most part.

The creepy crawlies. Yup. Wait till you get the jitters. Those are fun. But here's the good part, they will all pass with time. Then you don't need to go through it again.

Your other question about getting involved with your group means just that. Get to know them and let them get to know you. It will build accountability. Go post in your group what you first posted in here. If no one responds, make a comment about something another of your group posts.

Ask for phone numbers. You will probably be a bit shocked that complete strangers will PM (private message) you their personal phone number. It's so you can reach out when you're struggling. Via talking or texting. It may seem strange, but it does work. You don't "have" to. It's just another tool that is available should you chose to take advantage of it.

I saw your roll post. I'm counting on you to keep your word. Whatever it takes!

[DonkeyMN]

Random thoughts...

I kinda like the feeling of the creepy crawlies on my skin now -Ha

I dont like how I feel somewhat sleepy. Need caffeine?

Quitting is for quitters