Good evening all, here is some truth. I thought I was a leisure dipper. Less than a tin a day and mostly only at work. I said I could quit anytime I wanted to. I was right, I could quit, but the question now is, for how long.
I'm 34 and have been dipping for approx 17 years with a couple year break around year 12. I started back dipping because I was weak willed around co workers. Every time I look at my beautiful 5yr old daughter I think of being the best I can be for her. The aftermath... I decided one day almost 3 weeks ago I was done and just had enough. The first few days seemed to fly by like a haze. The next few days proved to be harder with lack of sleep and things went downhill from there. For the last 2 weeks my stress and anxiety have been through the roof. Checking my mouth constantly making myself believe I have oral cancer, literally a mere hours of sleep a day, sporadic headaches and very tense/ sore throat. This whole situation has really blindsided me. Iv e always had the stance that anxiety and stress were weakness and controllable. That only weak individuals had these issues and somehow I was better than that. I'm here to tell you, NO ONE is immune to the devastating effects mentally and physically to nicotine. I was and continue to be amazed at how much control this substance had and still has over my body and mind. I quit cold turkey. It's winter outside so not much exercising can be done outside. Seemingly the side effects mentioned above subside very little as each day goes by. Each day goes by makes me stronger and smile bigger that I and we can overcome this self imposed oppression. I have learned a lot by reading this site and will continue to gain knowledge from those that succeed ahead of me. I can only imagine whats to come based on what I'm going thru now. I just hope and keep faith that I remain strong enough to overcome my addiction.
