I'm the one to blame!

[JpCrew]

based on your page title.


Ok, I blame you for chat not working and my lazy ass having to actually work today...kinda.

Hunger in America. your fault.

The water leak when it rains on my back door of my house...you.

The fact that your cabinets aren't level so your granite can't be installed...yep, you.

The massive traffic jam I am going ot encounter tonight on my way home from work....you guessed it.

oh, you mean you blame yourself not anyone else for chewing...hell son, we all do that. You're doing great. One day at a time! keep it up.

I always tell myself, I've chewed for 5,475 days....311 of quitting is just the start!
Hang in there let me know if you need anything.

[CHROMEGUY]

Very interesting article I found today.....

Nicotine Warning for Cold Turkey Quitters


Roughly 80-90% of all new quitters attempt to quit cold turkey (abrupt nicotine cessation).  If you are one of them then you need to know that many highly respected websites contain advertisements, quitting instructions and articles created by the pharmaceutical industry for the purpose of getting you to purchase nicotine (which they have renamed medicine) and use it (which they have renamed therapy).  Their super slick marketing is designed to make you quickly believe that you have very little chance of succeeding unless you rush-out and purchase nicotine weaning products such as the nicotine patch, nicotine gum or nicotine lozenge and immediately put nicotine back into your bloodstream.   They do not want you to believe in "you."  They do not want you to reach for education, understanding, new skills and support, as honest tools that make dreams come true at rates that make those achieved by their weaning products laughable.

Sadly, very few sites are sharing useful, recent and honest NRT data with quitters.  Those with a financial stake must keep secret the fact that a March 2003 NRT study review by paid pharmaceutical industry consultants combined and averaged all seven over-the-counter nicotine patch and gum studies and found that 93% of those who "believed" and "trusted" in the nicotine weaning message failed and relapsed to smoking nicotine within six months ( link to full text of March, 2003 study ).  Nor will those receiving donations or profits for allowing nicotine to be marketed at their websites warn you that too many among the 7% who do quit smoking for six months have instead become permanent chemical captives to the very product they purchased to help them break nicotine's grip upon their mind.  Nor will they tell you that if you have previously tried and failed while using nicotine weaning products that, according to two nicotine patch recycling studies, your odds of relapse during a second attempt may be as high as 100%.

But most importantly, these sites continue to refuse to caution the 80-90% of new quitters who arrive having quit cold turkey, that if they have remained 100% nicotine free for 72 hours that their blood is now 100%   nicotine-clean, 90% of nicotine's metabolites have passed through their urine, and that for them chemical withdrawal has peaked in intensity and is now beginning to gradually subside.  Any nicotine use at this point constitutes chemical relapse that will require them to repeat nicotine detox all over again.  This is the "Law of Addiction."

But take heart if you are quitting cold turkey.  According to the American Cancer Society's Cancer Facts  Figures 2003 report, 91.2% of all successful long-term quitters are today quitting entirely on their own without using Zyban, Wellbutrin, hypnosis, acupuncture, magic herbs, and without toying with any gradual nicotine weaning products like the patch, gum, lozenge, spray, or inhaler. 

You'd think that government researchers would be heavily engaged in studying "their" method of quitting and "their" secrets.  You'd think that they'd be developing websites to service the cessation needs of the 80-90% of all new quitters who they know are today engaged in a cold turkey quitting experience.  You'd think that their sites would have warnings to protect cold turkey quitters from pharmaceutical grade nicotine relapse. You'd think that government and major health non-profits would have lots of articles on how to take the mystery and cold out of quitting cold.

Sadly, it simply isn't happening.  The pharmaceutical industry is making billions selling nicotine to nicotine addicts, their sphere of influence extends beyond your wildest imagination and they know that the only way to continue to increase market share and profits is by continuing their campaign to destroy the credibility of earth's most productive means of quitting - abrupt nicotine cessation.

John R. Polito, Nicotine Cessation Educator

A real eye opener Ryan! Confirms what I already thought of Nic replacement products. Thx for sharing. Oh, and congrats on staying Nic free during your fishing tournement.

'clap'

it wasn't until i met cold turkey that i actually believed i could do it, nrt merely stopped the chewing until deciding to chew again

Very interesting read. Thanks for posting.

Great job with your quit. Keep it up. I'm right there with you in the January HOF group.

Excellent post!

"They do not want you to believe in "you.""

Love that fact.

I don't think the Government wants you to quit! where would they get their
tax revenue.
My wife tried to get me to do the patch but came here instead.
It helps to have a brother in the fight standing with you, I thought at first
it wouldn't help mush but how wrong I've been. What are you waitng for quit!

[Aug]

Very interesting article I found today.....

Nicotine Warning for Cold Turkey Quitters


Roughly 80-90% of all new quitters attempt to quit cold turkey (abrupt nicotine cessation).  If you are one of them then you need to know that many highly respected websites contain advertisements, quitting instructions and articles created by the pharmaceutical industry for the purpose of getting you to purchase nicotine (which they have renamed medicine) and use it (which they have renamed therapy).  Their super slick marketing is designed to make you quickly believe that you have very little chance of succeeding unless you rush-out and purchase nicotine weaning products such as the nicotine patch, nicotine gum or nicotine lozenge and immediately put nicotine back into your bloodstream.   They do not want you to believe in "you."  They do not want you to reach for education, understanding, new skills and support, as honest tools that make dreams come true at rates that make those achieved by their weaning products laughable.

Sadly, very few sites are sharing useful, recent and honest NRT data with quitters.  Those with a financial stake must keep secret the fact that a March 2003 NRT study review by paid pharmaceutical industry consultants combined and averaged all seven over-the-counter nicotine patch and gum studies and found that 93% of those who "believed" and "trusted" in the nicotine weaning message failed and relapsed to smoking nicotine within six months ( link to full text of March, 2003 study ).  Nor will those receiving donations or profits for allowing nicotine to be marketed at their websites warn you that too many among the 7% who do quit smoking for six months have instead become permanent chemical captives to the very product they purchased to help them break nicotine's grip upon their mind.  Nor will they tell you that if you have previously tried and failed while using nicotine weaning products that, according to two nicotine patch recycling studies, your odds of relapse during a second attempt may be as high as 100%.

But most importantly, these sites continue to refuse to caution the 80-90% of new quitters who arrive having quit cold turkey, that if they have remained 100% nicotine free for 72 hours that their blood is now 100%   nicotine-clean, 90% of nicotine's metabolites have passed through their urine, and that for them chemical withdrawal has peaked in intensity and is now beginning to gradually subside.  Any nicotine use at this point constitutes chemical relapse that will require them to repeat nicotine detox all over again.  This is the "Law of Addiction."

But take heart if you are quitting cold turkey.  According to the American Cancer Society's Cancer Facts  Figures 2003 report, 91.2% of all successful long-term quitters are today quitting entirely on their own without using Zyban, Wellbutrin, hypnosis, acupuncture, magic herbs, and without toying with any gradual nicotine weaning products like the patch, gum, lozenge, spray, or inhaler. 

You'd think that government researchers would be heavily engaged in studying "their" method of quitting and "their" secrets.  You'd think that they'd be developing websites to service the cessation needs of the 80-90% of all new quitters who they know are today engaged in a cold turkey quitting experience.  You'd think that their sites would have warnings to protect cold turkey quitters from pharmaceutical grade nicotine relapse. You'd think that government and major health non-profits would have lots of articles on how to take the mystery and cold out of quitting cold.

Sadly, it simply isn't happening.  The pharmaceutical industry is making billions selling nicotine to nicotine addicts, their sphere of influence extends beyond your wildest imagination and they know that the only way to continue to increase market share and profits is by continuing their campaign to destroy the credibility of earth's most productive means of quitting - abrupt nicotine cessation.

John R. Polito, Nicotine Cessation Educator

A real eye opener Ryan! Confirms what I already thought of Nic replacement products. Thx for sharing. Oh, and congrats on staying Nic free during your fishing tournement.

'clap'

it wasn't until i met cold turkey that i actually believed i could do it, nrt merely stopped the chewing until deciding to chew again

Very interesting read. Thanks for posting.

Great job with your quit. Keep it up. I'm right there with you in the January HOF group.

Excellent post!

"They do not want you to believe in "you.""

Love that fact.

[buckshanks]

Very interesting article I found today.....

Nicotine Warning for Cold Turkey Quitters


Roughly 80-90% of all new quitters attempt to quit cold turkey (abrupt nicotine cessation).  If you are one of them then you need to know that many highly respected websites contain advertisements, quitting instructions and articles created by the pharmaceutical industry for the purpose of getting you to purchase nicotine (which they have renamed medicine) and use it (which they have renamed therapy).  Their super slick marketing is designed to make you quickly believe that you have very little chance of succeeding unless you rush-out and purchase nicotine weaning products such as the nicotine patch, nicotine gum or nicotine lozenge and immediately put nicotine back into your bloodstream.   They do not want you to believe in "you."  They do not want you to reach for education, understanding, new skills and support, as honest tools that make dreams come true at rates that make those achieved by their weaning products laughable.

Sadly, very few sites are sharing useful, recent and honest NRT data with quitters.  Those with a financial stake must keep secret the fact that a March 2003 NRT study review by paid pharmaceutical industry consultants combined and averaged all seven over-the-counter nicotine patch and gum studies and found that 93% of those who "believed" and "trusted" in the nicotine weaning message failed and relapsed to smoking nicotine within six months ( link to full text of March, 2003 study ).  Nor will those receiving donations or profits for allowing nicotine to be marketed at their websites warn you that too many among the 7% who do quit smoking for six months have instead become permanent chemical captives to the very product they purchased to help them break nicotine's grip upon their mind.  Nor will they tell you that if you have previously tried and failed while using nicotine weaning products that, according to two nicotine patch recycling studies, your odds of relapse during a second attempt may be as high as 100%.

But most importantly, these sites continue to refuse to caution the 80-90% of new quitters who arrive having quit cold turkey, that if they have remained 100% nicotine free for 72 hours that their blood is now 100%   nicotine-clean, 90% of nicotine's metabolites have passed through their urine, and that for them chemical withdrawal has peaked in intensity and is now beginning to gradually subside.  Any nicotine use at this point constitutes chemical relapse that will require them to repeat nicotine detox all over again.  This is the "Law of Addiction."

But take heart if you are quitting cold turkey.  According to the American Cancer Society's Cancer Facts  Figures 2003 report, 91.2% of all successful long-term quitters are today quitting entirely on their own without using Zyban, Wellbutrin, hypnosis, acupuncture, magic herbs, and without toying with any gradual nicotine weaning products like the patch, gum, lozenge, spray, or inhaler. 

You'd think that government researchers would be heavily engaged in studying "their" method of quitting and "their" secrets.  You'd think that they'd be developing websites to service the cessation needs of the 80-90% of all new quitters who they know are today engaged in a cold turkey quitting experience.  You'd think that their sites would have warnings to protect cold turkey quitters from pharmaceutical grade nicotine relapse. You'd think that government and major health non-profits would have lots of articles on how to take the mystery and cold out of quitting cold.

Sadly, it simply isn't happening.  The pharmaceutical industry is making billions selling nicotine to nicotine addicts, their sphere of influence extends beyond your wildest imagination and they know that the only way to continue to increase market share and profits is by continuing their campaign to destroy the credibility of earth's most productive means of quitting - abrupt nicotine cessation.

John R. Polito, Nicotine Cessation Educator

A real eye opener Ryan! Confirms what I already thought of Nic replacement products. Thx for sharing. Oh, and congrats on staying Nic free during your fishing tournement.

'clap'

it wasn't until i met cold turkey that i actually believed i could do it, nrt merely stopped the chewing until deciding to chew again

Very interesting read. Thanks for posting.

Great job with your quit. Keep it up. I'm right there with you in the January HOF group.

[cdforecheck]

Very interesting article I found today.....

Nicotine Warning for Cold Turkey Quitters


Roughly 80-90% of all new quitters attempt to quit cold turkey (abrupt nicotine cessation).  If you are one of them then you need to know that many highly respected websites contain advertisements, quitting instructions and articles created by the pharmaceutical industry for the purpose of getting you to purchase nicotine (which they have renamed medicine) and use it (which they have renamed therapy).  Their super slick marketing is designed to make you quickly believe that you have very little chance of succeeding unless you rush-out and purchase nicotine weaning products such as the nicotine patch, nicotine gum or nicotine lozenge and immediately put nicotine back into your bloodstream.   They do not want you to believe in "you."  They do not want you to reach for education, understanding, new skills and support, as honest tools that make dreams come true at rates that make those achieved by their weaning products laughable.

Sadly, very few sites are sharing useful, recent and honest NRT data with quitters.  Those with a financial stake must keep secret the fact that a March 2003 NRT study review by paid pharmaceutical industry consultants combined and averaged all seven over-the-counter nicotine patch and gum studies and found that 93% of those who "believed" and "trusted" in the nicotine weaning message failed and relapsed to smoking nicotine within six months ( link to full text of March, 2003 study ).  Nor will those receiving donations or profits for allowing nicotine to be marketed at their websites warn you that too many among the 7% who do quit smoking for six months have instead become permanent chemical captives to the very product they purchased to help them break nicotine's grip upon their mind.  Nor will they tell you that if you have previously tried and failed while using nicotine weaning products that, according to two nicotine patch recycling studies, your odds of relapse during a second attempt may be as high as 100%.

But most importantly, these sites continue to refuse to caution the 80-90% of new quitters who arrive having quit cold turkey, that if they have remained 100% nicotine free for 72 hours that their blood is now 100%   nicotine-clean, 90% of nicotine's metabolites have passed through their urine, and that for them chemical withdrawal has peaked in intensity and is now beginning to gradually subside.  Any nicotine use at this point constitutes chemical relapse that will require them to repeat nicotine detox all over again.  This is the "Law of Addiction."

But take heart if you are quitting cold turkey.  According to the American Cancer Society's Cancer Facts  Figures 2003 report, 91.2% of all successful long-term quitters are today quitting entirely on their own without using Zyban, Wellbutrin, hypnosis, acupuncture, magic herbs, and without toying with any gradual nicotine weaning products like the patch, gum, lozenge, spray, or inhaler. 

You'd think that government researchers would be heavily engaged in studying "their" method of quitting and "their" secrets.  You'd think that they'd be developing websites to service the cessation needs of the 80-90% of all new quitters who they know are today engaged in a cold turkey quitting experience.  You'd think that their sites would have warnings to protect cold turkey quitters from pharmaceutical grade nicotine relapse. You'd think that government and major health non-profits would have lots of articles on how to take the mystery and cold out of quitting cold.

Sadly, it simply isn't happening.  The pharmaceutical industry is making billions selling nicotine to nicotine addicts, their sphere of influence extends beyond your wildest imagination and they know that the only way to continue to increase market share and profits is by continuing their campaign to destroy the credibility of earth's most productive means of quitting - abrupt nicotine cessation.

John R. Polito, Nicotine Cessation Educator

A real eye opener Ryan! Confirms what I already thought of Nic replacement products. Thx for sharing. Oh, and congrats on staying Nic free during your fishing tournement.

'clap'

it wasn't until i met cold turkey that i actually believed i could do it, nrt merely stopped the chewing until deciding to chew again

[Kdip]

Very interesting article I found today.....

Nicotine Warning for Cold Turkey Quitters


Roughly 80-90% of all new quitters attempt to quit cold turkey (abrupt nicotine cessation).  If you are one of them then you need to know that many highly respected websites contain advertisements, quitting instructions and articles created by the pharmaceutical industry for the purpose of getting you to purchase nicotine (which they have renamed medicine) and use it (which they have renamed therapy).  Their super slick marketing is designed to make you quickly believe that you have very little chance of succeeding unless you rush-out and purchase nicotine weaning products such as the nicotine patch, nicotine gum or nicotine lozenge and immediately put nicotine back into your bloodstream.  They do not want you to believe in "you."  They do not want you to reach for education, understanding, new skills and support, as honest tools that make dreams come true at rates that make those achieved by their weaning products laughable.

Sadly, very few sites are sharing useful, recent and honest NRT data with quitters.  Those with a financial stake must keep secret the fact that a March 2003 NRT study review by paid pharmaceutical industry consultants combined and averaged all seven over-the-counter nicotine patch and gum studies and found that 93% of those who "believed" and "trusted" in the nicotine weaning message failed and relapsed to smoking nicotine within six months ( link to full text of March, 2003 study ).  Nor will those receiving donations or profits for allowing nicotine to be marketed at their websites warn you that too many among the 7% who do quit smoking for six months have instead become permanent chemical captives to the very product they purchased to help them break nicotine's grip upon their mind.  Nor will they tell you that if you have previously tried and failed while using nicotine weaning products that, according to two nicotine patch recycling studies, your odds of relapse during a second attempt may be as high as 100%.

But most importantly, these sites continue to refuse to caution the 80-90% of new quitters who arrive having quit cold turkey, that if they have remained 100% nicotine free for 72 hours that their blood is now 100%   nicotine-clean, 90% of nicotine's metabolites have passed through their urine, and that for them chemical withdrawal has peaked in intensity and is now beginning to gradually subside.  Any nicotine use at this point constitutes chemical relapse that will require them to repeat nicotine detox all over again.  This is the "Law of Addiction."

But take heart if you are quitting cold turkey.  According to the American Cancer Society's Cancer Facts  Figures 2003 report, 91.2% of all successful long-term quitters are today quitting entirely on their own without using Zyban, Wellbutrin, hypnosis, acupuncture, magic herbs, and without toying with any gradual nicotine weaning products like the patch, gum, lozenge, spray, or inhaler. 

You'd think that government researchers would be heavily engaged in studying "their" method of quitting and "their" secrets.  You'd think that they'd be developing websites to service the cessation needs of the 80-90% of all new quitters who they know are today engaged in a cold turkey quitting experience.  You'd think that their sites would have warnings to protect cold turkey quitters from pharmaceutical grade nicotine relapse. You'd think that government and major health non-profits would have lots of articles on how to take the mystery and cold out of quitting cold.

Sadly, it simply isn't happening.  The pharmaceutical industry is making billions selling nicotine to nicotine addicts, their sphere of influence extends beyond your wildest imagination and they know that the only way to continue to increase market share and profits is by continuing their campaign to destroy the credibility of earth's most productive means of quitting - abrupt nicotine cessation.

John R. Polito, Nicotine Cessation Educator

A real eye opener Ryan! Confirms what I already thought of Nic replacement products. Thx for sharing. Oh, and congrats on staying Nic free during your fishing tournement.

[ryano34]

Very interesting article I found today.....

Nicotine Warning for Cold Turkey Quitters


Roughly 80-90% of all new quitters attempt to quit cold turkey (abrupt nicotine cessation). If you are one of them then you need to know that many highly respected websites contain advertisements, quitting instructions and articles created by the pharmaceutical industry for the purpose of getting you to purchase nicotine (which they have renamed medicine) and use it (which they have renamed therapy). Their super slick marketing is designed to make you quickly believe that you have very little chance of succeeding unless you rush-out and purchase nicotine weaning products such as the nicotine patch, nicotine gum or nicotine lozenge and immediately put nicotine back into your bloodstream. They do not want you to believe in "you." They do not want you to reach for education, understanding, new skills and support, as honest tools that make dreams come true at rates that make those achieved by their weaning products laughable.

Sadly, very few sites are sharing useful, recent and honest NRT data with quitters. Those with a financial stake must keep secret the fact that a March 2003 NRT study review by paid pharmaceutical industry consultants combined and averaged all seven over-the-counter nicotine patch and gum studies and found that 93% of those who "believed" and "trusted" in the nicotine weaning message failed and relapsed to smoking nicotine within six months ( link to full text of March, 2003 study ). Nor will those receiving donations or profits for allowing nicotine to be marketed at their websites warn you that too many among the 7% who do quit smoking for six months have instead become permanent chemical captives to the very product they purchased to help them break nicotine's grip upon their mind. Nor will they tell you that if you have previously tried and failed while using nicotine weaning products that, according to two nicotine patch recycling studies, your odds of relapse during a second attempt may be as high as 100%.

But most importantly, these sites continue to refuse to caution the 80-90% of new quitters who arrive having quit cold turkey, that if they have remained 100% nicotine free for 72 hours that their blood is now 100%   nicotine-clean, 90% of nicotine's metabolites have passed through their urine, and that for them chemical withdrawal has peaked in intensity and is now beginning to gradually subside. Any nicotine use at this point constitutes chemical relapse that will require them to repeat nicotine detox all over again. This is the "Law of Addiction."

But take heart if you are quitting cold turkey. According to the American Cancer Society's Cancer Facts  Figures 2003 report, 91.2% of all successful long-term quitters are today quitting entirely on their own without using Zyban, Wellbutrin, hypnosis, acupuncture, magic herbs, and without toying with any gradual nicotine weaning products like the patch, gum, lozenge, spray, or inhaler.

You'd think that government researchers would be heavily engaged in studying "their" method of quitting and "their" secrets. You'd think that they'd be developing websites to service the cessation needs of the 80-90% of all new quitters who they know are today engaged in a cold turkey quitting experience. You'd think that their sites would have warnings to protect cold turkey quitters from pharmaceutical grade nicotine relapse. You'd think that government and major health non-profits would have lots of articles on how to take the mystery and cold out of quitting cold.

Sadly, it simply isn't happening. The pharmaceutical industry is making billions selling nicotine to nicotine addicts, their sphere of influence extends beyond your wildest imagination and they know that the only way to continue to increase market share and profits is by continuing their campaign to destroy the credibility of earth's most productive means of quitting - abrupt nicotine cessation.

John R. Polito, Nicotine Cessation Educator

[JpCrew]

Well, I had my first fishing tournament since I've quit. 

The first day:
The fish were not biting
The wind was blowing 25-35 mph
I was craving like a son of a bitch

The second day:
The fish were not biting
A cold front moved in and it rained most of the day
I was craving like a son of a bitch

But you know what?  I'm still quit.  I know I will have more tests to this quit, but I'm quit! 

Thanks to Moose for posting roll for me last couple of days!

Well Done. Well Done.

Indeed. I was looking for a recap of your weekend :) Way to face those triggers and get 'r done. You will see very soon that NOTHING is better with a dip - NOTHING.

AWESOME Ryano...that you stayed quit.

See, you can do anything now!!!! You won your first big battle.
Stay strong. remember what it took to win. and repeat next time!

[Rkymtnman]

Well, I had my first fishing tournament since I've quit. 

The first day:
The fish were not biting
The wind was blowing 25-35 mph
I was craving like a son of a bitch

The second day:
The fish were not biting
A cold front moved in and it rained most of the day
I was craving like a son of a bitch

But you know what?  I'm still quit.  I know I will have more tests to this quit, but I'm quit! 

Thanks to Moose for posting roll for me last couple of days!

Well Done. Well Done.

Indeed. I was looking for a recap of your weekend :) Way to face those triggers and get 'r done. You will see very soon that NOTHING is better with a dip - NOTHING.

[Ready]

Well, I had my first fishing tournament since I've quit.

The first day:
The fish were not biting
The wind was blowing 25-35 mph
I was craving like a son of a bitch

The second day:
The fish were not biting
A cold front moved in and it rained most of the day
I was craving like a son of a bitch

But you know what? I'm still quit. I know I will have more tests to this quit, but I'm quit!

Thanks to Moose for posting roll for me last couple of days!

Well Done. Well Done.

[ryano34]

Well, I had my first fishing tournament since I've quit.

The first day:
The fish were not biting
The wind was blowing 25-35 mph
I was craving like a son of a bitch

The second day:
The fish were not biting
A cold front moved in and it rained most of the day
I was craving like a son of a bitch

But you know what? I'm still quit. I know I will have more tests to this quit, but I'm quit!

Thanks to Moose for posting roll for me last couple of days!

[JpCrew]

Thanks guys. I've actually read this everyday since I wrote it. I think it helps me get through the day!

Ryano...you may be the one to blame for your addiction BUT you are not alone in fighting it. Stay strong.

Lean on me, when you're not strong.
I'll be your friend.
I'll help you carry on.

:ph43r:

[ryano34]

Thanks guys. I've actually read this everyday since I wrote it. I think it helps me get through the day!

[quit_to_win]

I realized I rambled during this post, you don't have to read. lol

I know I have met several on this site already, but wanted to share a little bit about myself.
I remember my first dip.  Me and a friend were driving to a county track meet where we would be running later in the day.  We stopped at a service station to get something to drink and for some reason decided to buy a can of dip (Skoal fine cut wintergreen).  We were only 16, but the lady behind the counter didn't even look at us.  Although it made us sick as a dog and we sucked at our track meet, we finished the rest of the can over the next couple of days.  We were hooked!  At 16 I was already a nic addict.  Of course I didn't know that at the time.

I'm 32 now and the can has been with me through it all:
It was with me every football game I played in high school
It was with me after my dad told me he had cancer (oct. my senior year)
It was with me while my dad struggled through chemo
It was with me when I would drive down the road begging God not to take him.
It was with me when my dad took his last breath (jan my senior year)
It was with me when I graduated from high school
It was with me when I started and finished college
It was with me when I got my first real job
It was with me when I got married and enjoyed my honeymoon
It was with me when my beautiful daughter was born
It was with me when my daughter turned 1

One day (about a week ago) My wife was out and it was just me and my daughter at home.  So I get my can out and start stuffing a big dip in my mouth when I look over and she is watching me.  There she was, with those big blue eyes, watching her daddy stuff that cancer dirt in his mouth.  I felt like crap.  Why am I doing this?  How did I get here?  Who's to blame?  So right then and there, I spit the dip out, and went around the house with a trash bag and collected all the hidden cans and spit bottles, then to my truck for the same.   I was not going to let me daughter see me stick that crap in my mouth ever again. 

Is this my first time to try to quit?  lol, not even close
Why is it different this time?  I think theres a couple of answers to this

1. I realized now that it's my fault.  It's my fault I'm addicted to nicotine.  No one forced me to take that first dip.  No one forced me to buy any dip after that.  No one forced me to buy a can a day for 16 YEARS!  I chose to do that!  I can't blame it on my dad dying, I can't blame it on stress.  I had a choice and I chose to dip!

2. I'm quitting for me.  While my daughter made me realize that I'm a complete dumb ass, I'm quitting because I want and need to quit!  My quits in the past have been because my wife asked me too.  I love my wife, so I gave it a shot and failed miserably every time.

3.  I finally realized that I'm a complete and total addict.  I can't quit anytime I want to and I can't have just one dip.  I'm addicted to this shit and if I do decide to have just one, I'm back to my can a day habit again.  Believe me, I've done that more times than I can count. 

4. My wife see's me struggling and tells me, "I'm sorry you're going through this".  It got me thinking, she shouldn't feel sorry for me.  I did this to myself!!  She didn't have anything to do with my addiction! 

    I deserve every crave and every side effect during this quit.
    I deserve the headaches
    I deserve the indigestion
    I deserve the constant feel of hunger and the weight gain
    I deserve the fetal position I get in while laying in the bed yearning for another dip
    I deserve the fog that still hasn't lifted!


Anyway, sorry so long!

I choose not to dip today!

Ryan, you Really have this down. Quit for YOURSELF first and foremost!!! Nice post. Remember what you have written today during the next few months. The road to quitting is a tough one but you can DO this ONE day at a time!!! You should have a copy of this along with the CONTRACT to QUIT (on this website) in your wallet at all times. Welcome to the fun house.

Kdip is right on. Print this out and read it daily. Hell, I might read it daily as I too, have young daughter (6). I couldn't imagine telling her that I was sick and may not be around because I was too stupid and weak to quit something that will ultimately kill me in time. Give me a PM and my number is your for the asking. You'll get as much out of this site as you put in. We'll be with you every step of the way. Post up every little thing that you struggle with. At least one of us have gone through so just know that you're not alone.

Volp

edit due to my scanning instead of READing. Sorry. Welcome back and lets get it done this time!!

[Volp]

I realized I rambled during this post, you don't have to read. lol

I know I have met several on this site already, but wanted to share a little bit about myself.
I remember my first dip.  Me and a friend were driving to a county track meet where we would be running later in the day.  We stopped at a service station to get something to drink and for some reason decided to buy a can of dip (Skoal fine cut wintergreen).  We were only 16, but the lady behind the counter didn't even look at us.  Although it made us sick as a dog and we sucked at our track meet, we finished the rest of the can over the next couple of days.  We were hooked!  At 16 I was already a nic addict.  Of course I didn't know that at the time.

I'm 32 now and the can has been with me through it all:
It was with me every football game I played in high school
It was with me after my dad told me he had cancer (oct. my senior year)
It was with me while my dad struggled through chemo
It was with me when I would drive down the road begging God not to take him.
It was with me when my dad took his last breath (jan my senior year)
It was with me when I graduated from high school
It was with me when I started and finished college
It was with me when I got my first real job
It was with me when I got married and enjoyed my honeymoon
It was with me when my beautiful daughter was born
It was with me when my daughter turned 1

One day (about a week ago) My wife was out and it was just me and my daughter at home.  So I get my can out and start stuffing a big dip in my mouth when I look over and she is watching me.  There she was, with those big blue eyes, watching her daddy stuff that cancer dirt in his mouth.  I felt like crap.  Why am I doing this?  How did I get here?  Who's to blame?  So right then and there, I spit the dip out, and went around the house with a trash bag and collected all the hidden cans and spit bottles, then to my truck for the same.  I was not going to let me daughter see me stick that crap in my mouth ever again. 

Is this my first time to try to quit?  lol, not even close
Why is it different this time?  I think theres a couple of answers to this

1. I realized now that it's my fault.  It's my fault I'm addicted to nicotine.  No one forced me to take that first dip.  No one forced me to buy any dip after that.  No one forced me to buy a can a day for 16 YEARS!  I chose to do that!  I can't blame it on my dad dying, I can't blame it on stress.  I had a choice and I chose to dip!

2. I'm quitting for me.  While my daughter made me realize that I'm a complete dumb ass, I'm quitting because I want and need to quit!  My quits in the past have been because my wife asked me too.  I love my wife, so I gave it a shot and failed miserably every time.

3.  I finally realized that I'm a complete and total addict.  I can't quit anytime I want to and I can't have just one dip.  I'm addicted to this shit and if I do decide to have just one, I'm back to my can a day habit again.  Believe me, I've done that more times than I can count. 

4. My wife see's me struggling and tells me, "I'm sorry you're going through this".  It got me thinking, she shouldn't feel sorry for me.  I did this to myself!!  She didn't have anything to do with my addiction! 

    I deserve every crave and every side effect during this quit.
    I deserve the headaches
    I deserve the indigestion
    I deserve the constant feel of hunger and the weight gain
    I deserve the fetal position I get in while laying in the bed yearning for another dip
    I deserve the fog that still hasn't lifted!


Anyway, sorry so long!

I choose not to dip today!

Ryan, you Really have this down. Quit for YOURSELF first and foremost!!! Nice post. Remember what you have written today during the next few months. The road to quitting is a tough one but you can DO this ONE day at a time!!! You should have a copy of this along with the CONTRACT to QUIT (on this website) in your wallet at all times. Welcome to the fun house.

Kdip is right on. Print this out and read it daily. Hell, I might read it daily as I too, have young daughter (6). I couldn't imagine telling her that I was sick and may not be around because I was too stupid and weak to quit something that will ultimately kill me in time. Give me a PM and my number is your for the asking. You'll get as much out of this site as you put in. We'll be with you every step of the way. Post up every little thing that you struggle with. At least one of us have gone through so just know that you're not alone.

Volp