Day one...120213

[srans]

Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife.  Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it.  It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.

Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.

You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.

MOGUL

This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.

I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.

Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.

Keep on quitting on!
P

Proud of you bulldog. 60 days of quit is no joke. Keep doing what your doing. It gets better and better. Quit with you today.

[Pinched]

Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife.  Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it.  It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.

Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.

You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.

MOGUL

This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.

I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.

Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.

Keep on quitting on!
P

[rdad]

Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife.  Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it.  It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.

Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.

You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.

MOGUL

This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.

[Mogul]

Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.

Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.

You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.

MOGUL

[Bulldog0311]

Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.

[rdad]

I've really taken this whole process seriously. I'm on day 36 today. I've just in the last few days really begun thinking about paying it back.
The folks on this website are saving lives every day. I posted on my Facebook account yesterday about the fact that I quit chewing and how big a part KTC has been in that. Didn't really expect anything to come of it.
Today at work out if the blue a co worker comes up to me. He says, "I wanted to thank you for telling me that you were quitting chew. I really listened to what you had to say and I threw my cigarettes away that night. I'm 6 days quit. ".
My flippin jaw hit the floor. I am trying to make sure I have a network to hold me accountable but even that is helping to get people off this poison.
Really impacted me that he chose to quit. I think everyone knows this shit is bad news. They just don't have faith in their own strength to get them free. KTC and the network of support help bring that strength out in the most remarkable ways.
To all the veteran members out there who stay online and support us new quitters...thank you. I found out today why you hang around. It's a heck of thing to help support someone else quit.

Right on Bulldog! You are killing this. I don't know but maybe a vet could chime in on this but couldn't Bulldogs friend join KTC? Or is it only for quitting dip? I think I remember reading something somewhere where all Nic quitters were welcome. If so, get him in here Bulldog! Good job man.

[Bulldog0311]

I've really taken this whole process seriously. I'm on day 36 today. I've just in the last few days really begun thinking about paying it back.
The folks on this website are saving lives every day. I posted on my Facebook account yesterday about the fact that I quit chewing and how big a part KTC has been in that. Didn't really expect anything to come of it.
Today at work out if the blue a co worker comes up to me. He says, "I wanted to thank you for telling me that you were quitting chew. I really listened to what you had to say and I threw my cigarettes away that night. I'm 6 days quit. ".
My flippin jaw hit the floor. I am trying to make sure I have a network to hold me accountable but even that is helping to get people off this poison.
Really impacted me that he chose to quit. I think everyone knows this shit is bad news. They just don't have faith in their own strength to get them free. KTC and the network of support help bring that strength out in the most remarkable ways.
To all the veteran members out there who stay online and support us new quitters...thank you. I found out today why you hang around. It's a heck of thing to help support someone else quit.

[Derk40]

Just kind of an update for me to look back on someday. Today is day 29. I am super stoked to post roll tomorrow. Tomorrow is officially one month free of nicotine. I didnt believe it was possible based on my past experience.
The last few days have been rough. Christmas. Busy time at work. Boss visits. Been crazy. We are building a house and moving in in just 6 weeks now. Just crazy.
Yesterday I wanted a dip so bad. I dont have dip dreams. I dont have sweats. I use smokey mountain to help me. Well yesterday it tasted like poop. I wanted a real chew bad. I didnt. I handled it but man. To be this far a long and still wanting it was frustrating. Why cant I just put it away? Oh yeah cause I am an addict. I wish i could go back to 20 year old me and kick the fuck outta him. I really do.
23 year dipper and now one month free. unreal.

Nice job Bulldog. Keep quittin bro.

One recommendation.... Don't worry about the past and why you started... don't matter one bit. That was a difficult thing for me during my first 30 days... both thinking about the past  worries about staying quit the future. We don't control either. Once I got that thru my thick skull my views began to really change.

ODAAT. Only worry about today. We quit for 1 day for a reason -- we control our actions today. We control whether we stuff our face with the evil weed. We control our actions in this moment.

Proud to be quit with you today!

[Bulldog0311]

Just kind of an update for me to look back on someday. Today is day 29. I am super stoked to post roll tomorrow. Tomorrow is officially one month free of nicotine. I didnt believe it was possible based on my past experience.
The last few days have been rough. Christmas. Busy time at work. Boss visits. Been crazy. We are building a house and moving in in just 6 weeks now. Just crazy.
Yesterday I wanted a dip so bad. I dont have dip dreams. I dont have sweats. I use smokey mountain to help me. Well yesterday it tasted like poop. I wanted a real chew bad. I didnt. I handled it but man. To be this far a long and still wanting it was frustrating. Why cant I just put it away? Oh yeah cause I am an addict. I wish i could go back to 20 year old me and kick the fuck outta him. I really do.
23 year dipper and now one month free. unreal.

[srans]

Today is day 17 for me. What a day. Best friend lives a few states away. He and I have known one another since 1990 when I got stationed on Guam in the Marines. I knew he put a lip in every once in while. Usually bummed one off me. Maybe once a week. Once every two weeks.
I didn't know it was still going on.
I told him I was quitting. I told him about the site. He's been checking in on me every few days. Offered to buy me smokey mountain on day 2 and overnight it to me when I was panicking a little. He's just. One of the good guys.
This morning he called me and told me he was chewing. About 1 can every three days. Now that Might not sound like much but if it's regular he's addicted. Quantity doesn't matter if she has her hooks in you.
My heart dropped. I couldn't believe it. My best friends life was in danger.
He asked for the website address and I gave it to him.
He texted me later. He dumped his half a can and registered for the site.
He's day one.
Hot damn!!!

That's great bulldog. About your friend and your 17 days of quit. Some people come to pretend. Some people come to act. Some people come to just plain quit. Glad to be quit with you.

[Bulldog0311]

Today is day 17 for me. What a day. Best friend lives a few states away. He and I have known one another since 1990 when I got stationed on Guam in the Marines. I knew he put a lip in every once in while. Usually bummed one off me. Maybe once a week. Once every two weeks.
I didn't know it was still going on.
I told him I was quitting. I told him about the site. He's been checking in on me every few days. Offered to buy me smokey mountain on day 2 and overnight it to me when I was panicking a little. He's just. One of the good guys.
This morning he called me and told me he was chewing. About 1 can every three days. Now that Might not sound like much but if it's regular he's addicted. Quantity doesn't matter if she has her hooks in you.
My heart dropped. I couldn't believe it. My best friends life was in danger.
He asked for the website address and I gave it to him.
He texted me later. He dumped his half a can and registered for the site.
He's day one.
Hot damn!!!

[Mogul]

Bulldog, If you can at all, embrace the suck and the fog. Remember that movie, OH SHit, what was the name, OH YEAH, YOUNG GUNS when they were high on the Peyote, and one saw the size of that damn cock a doodle doo? well, that is what the fog is like. Just remember they can't kill you because your invisible. OK, are we on the same page now??

Embrace it, laugh at it, tell everyone else you would come out and play if they didn't mind your soiled underwear. They will leave you alone after that. You get sleepy, sleep. You get horny, rub one out. you get hungry, eat. you get the point. This is your time to quit. Everybody else can wait. You will be soooo much better to them than you ever were if they will be patient and support you.

I got your back. Mogul

[Scowick65]

So lethargic and tired today. I can't tell you what I've done. I know I took a nap. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Weird tho zero cravings. Just tired.

Turn your foglights on, keep your guard up and be prepared for the Nic Bitch to sneak up on you...then kick her in the throat and release some frustration.

I know you have heard the phrase "it is going to suck until it doesn't", well my friend you are still in that early stage where some days are OF and some just plain suck.

At least you can smile knowing that you are winning.

x2

[Pinched]

So lethargic and tired today. I can't tell you what I've done. I know I took a nap. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Weird tho zero cravings. Just tired.

Turn your foglights on, keep your guard up and be prepared for the Nic Bitch to sneak up on you...then kick her in the throat and release some frustration.

I know you have heard the phrase "it is going to suck until it doesn't", well my friend you are still in that early stage where some days are OF and some just plain suck.

At least you can smile knowing that you are winning.

[Bulldog0311]

So lethargic and tired today. I can't tell you what I've done. I know I took a nap. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Weird tho zero cravings. Just tired.