Intro-Been Here Before

[loot]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do.� These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro.� We gots your back.

128 today. I have no desire to use. It's relearning how to live that's tough. Using won't fix the problems that have surfaced since I had buried them with nicotine for 19 years. Check out my HoF speech for more, if you have the time.

Yous in Funk. Always hit around 125.

Relearning how to live is hard. Very hard at times. You got any hobbies? Something to occupy your mind?

Post hof funk. Hits everyone I guess. Get small. Remember the basics. Stay occupied. Do what YOU want to do. Personally I got away from the site for a bit. Just kind of chilaxed and remembered why I wanted to quit and how good it actually feels to be doing it.

I had no desire to use either. I too was just getting burned out a bit on re-learning how to live. Eventually the feeling faded and I was like "oh yeah you dumb shit. You are doing the right thing. Its not easy but I feel a hell of a lot better now than I did when I was posioning myself".

125 days is awesome. Take some time to smell the roses and stop worrying about planting more, they really do smell quite beautiful. You've built a hell of a quit garden. Continue to tend it but remember its a labor of love that eventually will require less and less work to maintain. Hang tough bro!

Thanks guys. Day 130. Hobby? Trail running. Here's when I feel normal-good to great:
- In the middle of a trail run, usually the more silent, the better. Not the treadmill.
- When my 70lb. old man pit bull is snoring directly in my ear, it gets my breathing metered.
- The first 5 minutes when I wake up in the morning. Minute 6, that starts on a different story.
- Immediately after crying. That's been four times in 55 days. Maybe I should try that more. Something's eating at me.

There's a small part of me that says to step away from the site, but I've signed up to post to 200, and I am the January HoF train conductor with lcwb96. I take that very seriously. I have met and plan to stay in touch with a bunch of quitters in real life. Maybe my immersion that helped strengthen my quit, is working against me, but I'm flat out scared to step away from the site. I would be scared to even just post each day "Boelker62 - Day XXX" and leave. That just wouldn't be me.

When the first thing I think of each morning is my quit, and my inability to get a satisfying breath, it just gets worse. I feel stuck. I'm a fixer. I'm a problem solver, and it just kills me to not know what the fuck to do to fix me. Can you tell I'm impatient too? I tell my wife all the time to stop and smell the roses, but have a hard time doing so myself.

152? 4 me - déjà-vu, I felt the same way. you're definitely in a funk, as I was at the same time. That one for me lasted almost 2 weeks. didn't feel better till the high 140's. I just felt like something wasn't right, we all no this feeling. anyway it did go away. during that time I posted and left. I now know to help my funks I need a little distance from the site to get through it. I still post, but that's it. After I start feeling better I get involved again. Main thing is to post.
I was thinking - when I brush my teeth I don't think about cavities. don't think about anything just brush. soon posting will be the same. sometimes I just post in a morning daze without even thinking, just post. I know that posting won't ruin my day, so why not.. you'll always look for an excuse when not feeling good. but it's simply a funk, and thank god they do go away... :)

LOOT's been there too bro. Finding no satisfaction in life...at any level...and wanting to blame the very thing you feel is giving you life.

There is no magic bullet to pull you out. No words to reassure. Just know, you aren't in the fight alone. People care. Strangers would shoulder the burden for you if they could...

It'll pass friend. Take solace.

[kana]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do.� These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro.� We gots your back.

128 today. I have no desire to use. It's relearning how to live that's tough. Using won't fix the problems that have surfaced since I had buried them with nicotine for 19 years. Check out my HoF speech for more, if you have the time.

Yous in Funk. Always hit around 125.

Relearning how to live is hard. Very hard at times. You got any hobbies? Something to occupy your mind?

Post hof funk. Hits everyone I guess. Get small. Remember the basics. Stay occupied. Do what YOU want to do. Personally I got away from the site for a bit. Just kind of chilaxed and remembered why I wanted to quit and how good it actually feels to be doing it.

I had no desire to use either. I too was just getting burned out a bit on re-learning how to live. Eventually the feeling faded and I was like "oh yeah you dumb shit. You are doing the right thing. Its not easy but I feel a hell of a lot better now than I did when I was posioning myself".

125 days is awesome. Take some time to smell the roses and stop worrying about planting more, they really do smell quite beautiful. You've built a hell of a quit garden. Continue to tend it but remember its a labor of love that eventually will require less and less work to maintain. Hang tough bro!

Thanks guys. Day 130. Hobby? Trail running. Here's when I feel normal-good to great:
- In the middle of a trail run, usually the more silent, the better. Not the treadmill.
- When my 70lb. old man pit bull is snoring directly in my ear, it gets my breathing metered.
- The first 5 minutes when I wake up in the morning. Minute 6, that starts on a different story.
- Immediately after crying. That's been four times in 55 days. Maybe I should try that more. Something's eating at me.

There's a small part of me that says to step away from the site, but I've signed up to post to 200, and I am the January HoF train conductor with lcwb96. I take that very seriously. I have met and plan to stay in touch with a bunch of quitters in real life. Maybe my immersion that helped strengthen my quit, is working against me, but I'm flat out scared to step away from the site. I would be scared to even just post each day "Boelker62 - Day XXX" and leave. That just wouldn't be me.

When the first thing I think of each morning is my quit, and my inability to get a satisfying breath, it just gets worse. I feel stuck. I'm a fixer. I'm a problem solver, and it just kills me to not know what the fuck to do to fix me. Can you tell I'm impatient too? I tell my wife all the time to stop and smell the roses, but have a hard time doing so myself.

152? 4 me - déjà-vu, I felt the same way. you're definitely in a funk, as I was at the same time. That one for me lasted almost 2 weeks. didn't feel better till the high 140's. I just felt like something wasn't right, we all no this feeling. anyway it did go away. during that time I posted and left. I now know to help my funks I need a little distance from the site to get through it. I still post, but that's it. After I start feeling better I get involved again. Main thing is to post.
I was thinking - when I brush my teeth I don't think about cavities. don't think about anything just brush. soon posting will be the same. sometimes I just post in a morning daze without even thinking, just post. I know that posting won't ruin my day, so why not.. you'll always look for an excuse when not feeling good. but it's simply a funk, and thank god they do go away... :)

[Boelker62]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do.� These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro.� We gots your back.

128 today. I have no desire to use. It's relearning how to live that's tough. Using won't fix the problems that have surfaced since I had buried them with nicotine for 19 years. Check out my HoF speech for more, if you have the time.

Yous in Funk. Always hit around 125.

Relearning how to live is hard. Very hard at times. You got any hobbies? Something to occupy your mind?

Post hof funk. Hits everyone I guess. Get small. Remember the basics. Stay occupied. Do what YOU want to do. Personally I got away from the site for a bit. Just kind of chilaxed and remembered why I wanted to quit and how good it actually feels to be doing it.

I had no desire to use either. I too was just getting burned out a bit on re-learning how to live. Eventually the feeling faded and I was like "oh yeah you dumb shit. You are doing the right thing. Its not easy but I feel a hell of a lot better now than I did when I was posioning myself".

125 days is awesome. Take some time to smell the roses and stop worrying about planting more, they really do smell quite beautiful. You've built a hell of a quit garden. Continue to tend it but remember its a labor of love that eventually will require less and less work to maintain. Hang tough bro!

Thanks guys. Day 130. Hobby? Trail running. Here's when I feel normal-good to great:
- In the middle of a trail run, usually the more silent, the better. Not the treadmill.
- When my 70lb. old man pit bull is snoring directly in my ear, it gets my breathing metered.
- The first 5 minutes when I wake up in the morning. Minute 6, that starts on a different story.
- Immediately after crying. That's been four times in 55 days. Maybe I should try that more. Something's eating at me.

There's a small part of me that says to step away from the site, but I've signed up to post to 200, and I am the January HoF train conductor with lcwb96. I take that very seriously. I have met and plan to stay in touch with a bunch of quitters in real life. Maybe my immersion that helped strengthen my quit, is working against me, but I'm flat out scared to step away from the site. I would be scared to even just post each day "Boelker62 - Day XXX" and leave. That just wouldn't be me.

When the first thing I think of each morning is my quit, and my inability to get a satisfying breath, it just gets worse. I feel stuck. I'm a fixer. I'm a problem solver, and it just kills me to not know what the fuck to do to fix me. Can you tell I'm impatient too? I tell my wife all the time to stop and smell the roses, but have a hard time doing so myself.

[Diesel2112]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do.  These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro.  We gots your back.

128 today. I have no desire to use. It's relearning how to live that's tough. Using won't fix the problems that have surfaced since I had buried them with nicotine for 19 years. Check out my HoF speech for more, if you have the time.

Yous in Funk. Always hit around 125.

Relearning how to live is hard. Very hard at times. You got any hobbies? Something to occupy your mind?

Post hof funk. Hits everyone I guess. Get small. Remember the basics. Stay occupied. Do what YOU want to do. Personally I got away from the site for a bit. Just kind of chilaxed and remembered why I wanted to quit and how good it actually feels to be doing it.

I had no desire to use either. I too was just getting burned out a bit on re-learning how to live. Eventually the feeling faded and I was like "oh yeah you dumb shit. You are doing the right thing. Its not easy but I feel a hell of a lot better now than I did when I was posioning myself".

125 days is awesome. Take some time to smell the roses and stop worrying about planting more, they really do smell quite beautiful. You've built a hell of a quit garden. Continue to tend it but remember its a labor of love that eventually will require less and less work to maintain. Hang tough bro!

[loot]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do.  These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro.  We gots your back.

128 today. I have no desire to use. It's relearning how to live that's tough. Using won't fix the problems that have surfaced since I had buried them with nicotine for 19 years. Check out my HoF speech for more, if you have the time.

Yous in Funk. Always hit around 125.

Relearning how to live is hard. Very hard at times. You got any hobbies? Something to occupy your mind?

[Boelker62]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do. These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro. We gots your back.

128 today. I have no desire to use. It's relearning how to live that's tough. Using won't fix the problems that have surfaced since I had buried them with nicotine for 19 years. Check out my HoF speech for more, if you have the time.

[loot]

Yousa Damned stud B...no doubt about it.

Dunno what day you are on but It sounds like yous in funk? Day 125 or so?

It will pass. They always do. These words are little consolation LOOT knows...keep your head up bro. We gots your back.

[Boelker62]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.

Proud of you and proud to be quit right next to you brother...

Nice work brother.

Solid support, brother. Excellent example of how to use the tools. Keep on kicking ass.

The dreams sucked for me, but they served a purpose. They give us a glimpse into what "FAIL" looks like. That strengthens our resolve. Like Clampy said, I'm not sure they ever go away. That is fine with me, because I need the reminder to keep focus. They do get farther and farther apart, though.

You definitely get it and say it well to all of us. One day at a time, everyday is what you will get from us here. Proud of you and your quit.

'worship'

Posting roll is an honor and a responsibility, but it is also a cry for help.

I am honored to post my goals and achievements. I want to quit today. I am proud of how high I've climbed. But I know that it is my responsibility to do so if I want to utilize the tools on this site. I want to do everything in my power to stay quit today. I will carry the biggest, baddest fucking weapon into this battle. It is up to me to pull the trigger. I know that I cannot do this alone. When left to my own devices, I fail.

I fucking love this post.

Thank you for writing it.

I needed a little inspiration today, and rereading this, and all your comments has certainly helped. Thank you.

[wastepanel]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.

Proud of you and proud to be quit right next to you brother...

Nice work brother.

Solid support, brother. Excellent example of how to use the tools. Keep on kicking ass.

The dreams sucked for me, but they served a purpose. They give us a glimpse into what "FAIL" looks like. That strengthens our resolve. Like Clampy said, I'm not sure they ever go away. That is fine with me, because I need the reminder to keep focus. They do get farther and farther apart, though.

You definitely get it and say it well to all of us. One day at a time, everyday is what you will get from us here. Proud of you and your quit.

'worship'

Posting roll is an honor and a responsibility, but it is also a cry for help.

I am honored to post my goals and achievements. I want to quit today. I am proud of how high I've climbed. But I know that it is my responsibility to do so if I want to utilize the tools on this site. I want to do everything in my power to stay quit today. I will carry the biggest, baddest fucking weapon into this battle. It is up to me to pull the trigger. I know that I cannot do this alone. When left to my own devices, I fail.

I fucking love this post.

Thank you for writing it.

[eric71]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.

Proud of you and proud to be quit right next to you brother...

Nice work brother.

Solid support, brother. Excellent example of how to use the tools. Keep on kicking ass.

The dreams sucked for me, but they served a purpose. They give us a glimpse into what "FAIL" looks like. That strengthens our resolve. Like Clampy said, I'm not sure they ever go away. That is fine with me, because I need the reminder to keep focus. They do get farther and farther apart, though.

You definitely get it and say it well to all of us. One day at a time, everyday is what you will get from us here. Proud of you and your quit.

[Radman]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.

Proud of you and proud to be quit right next to you brother...

Nice work brother.

Solid support, brother. Excellent example of how to use the tools. Keep on kicking ass.

The dreams sucked for me, but they served a purpose. They give us a glimpse into what "FAIL" looks like. That strengthens our resolve. Like Clampy said, I'm not sure they ever go away. That is fine with me, because I need the reminder to keep focus. They do get farther and farther apart, though.

[Souliman]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.

Proud of you and proud to be quit right next to you brother...

Nice work brother.

[SirDerek]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.

Proud of you and proud to be quit right next to you brother...

[boog1964]

proud to be a member of The Wreckin Crew with you brother!

[Clampy]

Roll call is not a daily attendance sheet, it is a daily pledge.

We've all pledged to ourselves before that "this is the last one..." It means a lot more to me and thousands of others when that pledge is to you, not just my own conscience. My commitment to my conscience had been altered through 21 years of chemical imbalance. My commitment to you, when it's made every day, cannot be changed. It cannot be reasoned away. It cannot have its inhibitions lowered. It is done. And I must uphold my pledge.

I have done a million dumb, counterproductive, unhealthy and/or illegal things in my days when I really only have had to answer to myself. Still, very little of my life do I regret. I have had two severe cave dreams since this quit started 51 days ago. I woke up crying from the one last week. It is because of that external commitment that I feel such responsibility to uphold my word.

This is the program. This is how this works. Do it. Even if you, a good quitter really doesn't NEED to post roll for yourself everyday (which I doubt you don't), I am asking you post roll for me. Let me know you are there even if we don't talk. Let me know you are still pledging to quit for that day. Let me see that I have others I am responsible to answer to.

If this isn't you, and you don't need any of this. Please take your form of quit somewhere else. I wish you luck. I honestly do wish you success. But for this site, for these purposes, I want to go into my daily battle, and it is a fucking battle every fucking day for me, knowing, believing that everyone of us is here for the same cause, and have the same way to get there.

I can't fucking wait to hit Hall of Fame to write thanks to all of my quit brothers. But then again, yeah, that can wait, cause today is a mother fucking battle for me, and the remaining 49 are likely to be as well, so I'll have a bunch more names to add to that list by that point.

Peace, Love and Quit,
Boelker62

bring that all day long!

This guy gets it

read up Noobs - drink the cool-aide. Post Roll. Quit. Never look back.

-Clampy

P.S. I still have cave nightmares... 2.5 year later. Not sure they ever go away.