There comes a point where hard decisions have to be made. Many times in life, decisions that aren't popular are the ones that are right for you. Today's my day.
I've spent the past hour reading over today's events in April, 2012. I admit, perhaps true to my name, I caused a fair amount of drama at scott h for what was probably honest mistakes in posting roll. I'm known as a wise guy, a smart alec, and a guy that likes to get the last word. As sincere as I can be right now, I have no idea why I did what I did in April, 2012, today. I apologize to that group and scott h in particular.
Those actions have caused me to look at who I am. Believe it or not, I am not the 'gator' character many know me as. I'm a shy, quiet, boring guy. Apparently, computer screens give you more courage and more personality to boot. Not necessarily better personality, but more.
Anyway, back to my decision. Today is day 655--I joined this site on April 5, 2010, a slave to the can. I can't tell you how much this site has done for me in quitting dip. I can't tell you how much I've grown to appreciate everyone on this site.
I have quite a few friends on here, even though I don't know the real names of 99 percent of you on here. We've met in chat. We've posted support together. We've butted heads. Most importantly, we've quit together.
Today, however, I tell you I need a break. I've requested to be relieved as a chat mod. I feel it is time someone else have a turn protecting the 'sanctity' of our little 'ghey' chat club. :D I also don't intend to post roll everyday as I have, give or take a few days, for the past 655 days.
I know what many will say. Gator's planning to cave. Gator's giving up on the philosophy. Gator's turning his back on us. Well, let me say this. After 655 days, posting roll on here everyday does not keep me quit. The realization I'm still an addict and will always be one keeps me quit. The desire to never have cancer keeps me quit. The honest lack of desire to ever put that stuff in my mouth again keeps me quit. So, I'm not planning to cave. I'm not giving up on the philosophy because I think the philosophy of this site is the only chance most of us addicts ever have. And I'm not turning my back on anyone. I've got over two dozen numbers, and will pop in from time to time to see how you guys are doing. Anyone that wants to, pm me anytime, text me, or get my number so we can stay in touch.
So why is gator making this announcement? Honestly, I owe it to you guys. I know every day long time posters quit posting without any explanation or closure. radtech did it and upset many people by just stopping. I don't want that. Bash me for this thread if you want, and many will...but I owe all of you an explanation of what I'm doing and why.
Do I recommend anyone else stop posting? Do I recommend anyone posting forever? It's as we always say on here...take what works, leave the rest. I definitely think the decision to stop posting is one that should not be made lightly. Guy hits hof today, don't think tomorrow you got it beat so I'm not posting. If you need and want to post forever, go for it. If that isn't who you want to be, do everything you can to make sure.
Personally, I know I'll be back posting again, and it won't be a freaking day one. I will not do that to myself or you guys. It will be with all my old groups and probably a few new ones. I just don't know when.
I want to thank chewie for saving my life. I want to thank klark, copehater, redtrain, markr, NOLAQ and wheelchairguy for being my genuine best quit friends. I want to thank all the mods and all the quitters that work so hard in here. I literally cannot list all my friends on here, vets, newbies, doesn't matter. forbes, dippshit, moa, radtech, ryan...the list is endless. The memories and the lessons are too.
Guys, I love you all and, as we say, not in a ghey way.
Thank you.
Greg
