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Re: I'm back
« Reply #346 on: November 27, 2013, 02:10:00 PM »
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The holidays reintroduce us to family we haven't seen in a while.

Uncles...cousins...brothers. People that we would share a dip with after eating. People that we'd smoke a cigar with at night over some beers. 

Unfortunately, we're quit now so we can't partake. Fortunately, we're quit now so we don't have to partake.

We quit for a reason, and that reason is that we can't just use on occasion. The Law of Addiction states that reintroducing the drug to our systems will start us back on the path to using again. Think about every time you've failed in the past. It started with one random decision, didn't it? You didn't plan on diving head first into a can every chance you could...it just happened, right?

If you want to be quit, then be quit. As much as that chew or smoke is going to sound good after dinner, don't listen to the lie. If we could regulate our usage, we wouldn't have to quit. We'd be able to just use it whenever we wanted to.  Have a plan, and walk away if you need to. Don't get blackout drunk, and be in control

You can do this.

We can do this.

PM me, and you can have my number if you are giving 100% in this quit.  Post roll.  Keep your word.  Repeat.  (Even on holidays)
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Re: I'm back
« Reply #345 on: November 27, 2013, 01:56:00 PM »
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The holidays reintroduce us to family we haven't seen in a while.

Uncles...cousins...brothers. People that we would share a dip with after eating. People that we'd smoke a cigar with at night over some beers.

Unfortunately, we're quit now so we can't partake. Fortunately, we're quit now so we don't have to partake.

We quit for a reason, and that reason is that we can't just use on occasion. The Law of Addiction states that reintroducing the drug to our systems will start us back on the path to using again. Think about every time you've failed in the past. It started with one random decision, didn't it? You didn't plan on diving head first into a can every chance you could...it just happened, right?

If you want to be quit, then be quit. As much as that chew or smoke is going to sound good after dinner, don't listen to the lie. If we could regulate our usage, we wouldn't have to quit. We'd be able to just use it whenever we wanted to. Have a plan, and walk away if you need to. Don't get blackout drunk, and be in control

You can do this.

We can do this.

PM me, and you can have my number if you are giving 100% in this quit. Post roll. Keep your word. Repeat. (Even on holidays)
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Re: I'm back
« Reply #344 on: November 27, 2013, 12:42:00 PM »
The holidays reintroduce us to family we haven't seen in a while.

Uncles...cousins...brothers. People that we would share a dip with after eating. People that we'd smoke a cigar with at night over some beers.

Unfortunately, we're quit now so we can't partake. Fortunately, we're quit now so we don't have to partake.

We quit for a reason, and that reason is that we can't just use on occasion. The Law of Addiction states that reintroducing the drug to our systems will start us back on the path to using again. Think about every time you've failed in the past. It started with one random decision, didn't it? You didn't plan on diving head first into a can every chance you could...it just happened, right?

If you want to be quit, then be quit. As much as that chew or smoke is going to sound good after dinner, don't listen to the lie. If we could regulate our usage, we wouldn't have to quit. We'd be able to just use it whenever we wanted to. Have a plan, and walk away if you need to. Don't get blackout drunk, and be in control

You can do this.

We can do this.

PM me, and you can have my number if you are giving 100% in this quit. Post roll. Keep your word. Repeat. (Even on holidays)
In the end I Surrender, I and I alone accept that I have and always will have a Nicotene ADDICTION. It is my choice to quit, but I can't do it alone. I get to go down this path one time, I want to do it right. I recognize that my word, my integrety to you is on the line and is only as good as my actions. Caving is not an option in this plan-Eafman 7/11

I am not cured. I will quit one day at a time. I will continue to do what works. Posting roll everyday. To do otherwise would be foolish on my part. You can do this-Ready 12/11

To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12

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Just as a building starts with architectural drawings. Your daily quit begins with a promise.-Scowick 2/13

Here and now, focused on today, minute by minute, whatever it takes, I promise to all my bros and myself not to become a negative stat and stay quit!-krok 1/15

I want everyone to be quit. Even the assholes.-Probe1957 1/18

Ignoring history or erasing history fixes nothing and leads you inevitably down the same path.-69franx 04/30/2021

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #343 on: November 18, 2013, 09:55:00 AM »
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The KTC Way

I am quit. I have been quit for (now) 873 days today. Although it is up to me to pull the trigger in this battle, I carry the the biggest, baddest weapon: the KTC. My quit is strong, and I know that when/if I need it, my brothers will be there for me. I know that the war is not over until I am buried in the ground.

I remember those first days quit.

The vets were all over me for being a retread. My presence summoned the admins and put me on many people's radars. I believe my very first pm sent here was "fuck you" to Loot because I was tired of being harassed. Many people told my brothers to ignore because I'd "be gone soon enough".

I remember the physical and mental pain I went through. I couldn't sleep ever. My skin felt like I walked out of a volcano. The front of my lip would pulsate after dinner and not stop until I passed out. After waking up on a sweat covered sheet, I'd start the day again. I buried a friend that first week while staying quit. I fought with my wife while being quit. I lived my life while being quit.

What I remember the fondest was how my brothers and I would stand united in our pain. Quitting is quite shitty at times, and I cannot tell you how great it felt to have somebody standing next to me that felt the same way about life as I did. All 101 of us (that posted a day 1 in October 2011) knew what it took to be quit. Some of us were ready to make that commitment. Some faded away. I spent countless nights texting eafman, moe, and teamkeoki. My wife sat jealous, but these guys really seemed to be the only men on this planet that understood why I was "not myself" (as my wife put it). A friendship is not based on the good times. It is forged in the bad.

As the fog began lifting, I started to see the site clearer. The people here cared about whether I was quit or not. My quit was my quit, but it was stronger when somebody else made it through a trial successfully. We celebrated together, and we grieved together. We grew into quitters. A whole new world was opened to us. As potential after potential joined the site, by phone contacts swelled. I spent countless hours talking somebody through a day 2 crave when I was far past it. I was quit, but my quit was so much stronger when I would get little "thank you" messages. It wasn't anger on this site. No, it was confusion. The non-users wanted to be quit, and the quit wanted the non-users to wake up. Neither side could understand why the other was "so dense".

The KTC is an integral part of my life. I'm not posting 50 times a day like I did in the past. I post once some days: my roll call. I try to get on here and keep up with the latest issues, and I step in when my presence is necessary. I still get texts all the time, and I still adopt a quitter or two. The friendships I made here no longer revolve around dip (or the lack thereof).

This is the KTC way.

We take back our freedom one step at a time. It doesn't come all at once. It has to be earned. In fact, my quit wouldn't be so special if I didn't have to work so damn hard at it sometimes. I plan to be quit, and I am quit. I plan for potential pitfalls before I start my day, and I recognize that pain is temporary and a cave can't be taken back. There is no way in hell I plan on ever (EVER) posting a day 1 again, and luckily for me, I control that. There is one thing and one thing alone I do control in this world: my actions. I choose to live the KTC way.
goose bumps WP like a Catholic school girl at prom...Great read and your timing is spot on, AGAIN!!!

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #342 on: November 18, 2013, 06:30:00 AM »
The KTC Way

I am quit. I have been quit for (now) 873 days today. Although it is up to me to pull the trigger in this battle, I carry the the biggest, baddest weapon: the KTC. My quit is strong, and I know that when/if I need it, my brothers will be there for me. I know that the war is not over until I am buried in the ground.

I remember those first days quit.

The vets were all over me for being a retread. My presence summoned the admins and put me on many people's radars. I believe my very first pm sent here was "fuck you" to Loot because I was tired of being harassed. Many people told my brothers to ignore because I'd "be gone soon enough".

I remember the physical and mental pain I went through. I couldn't sleep ever. My skin felt like I walked out of a volcano. The front of my lip would pulsate after dinner and not stop until I passed out. After waking up on a sweat covered sheet, I'd start the day again. I buried a friend that first week while staying quit. I fought with my wife while being quit. I lived my life while being quit.

What I remember the fondest was how my brothers and I would stand united in our pain. Quitting is quite shitty at times, and I cannot tell you how great it felt to have somebody standing next to me that felt the same way about life as I did. All 101 of us (that posted a day 1 in October 2011) knew what it took to be quit. Some of us were ready to make that commitment. Some faded away. I spent countless nights texting eafman, moe, and teamkeoki. My wife sat jealous, but these guys really seemed to be the only men on this planet that understood why I was "not myself" (as my wife put it). A friendship is not based on the good times. It is forged in the bad.

As the fog began lifting, I started to see the site clearer. The people here cared about whether I was quit or not. My quit was my quit, but it was stronger when somebody else made it through a trial successfully. We celebrated together, and we grieved together. We grew into quitters. A whole new world was opened to us. As potential after potential joined the site, by phone contacts swelled. I spent countless hours talking somebody through a day 2 crave when I was far past it. I was quit, but my quit was so much stronger when I would get little "thank you" messages. It wasn't anger on this site. No, it was confusion. The non-users wanted to be quit, and the quit wanted the non-users to wake up. Neither side could understand why the other was "so dense".

The KTC is an integral part of my life. I'm not posting 50 times a day like I did in the past. I post once some days: my roll call. I try to get on here and keep up with the latest issues, and I step in when my presence is necessary. I still get texts all the time, and I still adopt a quitter or two. The friendships I made here no longer revolve around dip (or the lack thereof).

This is the KTC way.

We take back our freedom one step at a time. It doesn't come all at once. It has to be earned. In fact, my quit wouldn't be so special if I didn't have to work so damn hard at it sometimes. I plan to be quit, and I am quit. I plan for potential pitfalls before I start my day, and I recognize that pain is temporary and a cave can't be taken back. There is no way in hell I plan on ever (EVER) posting a day 1 again, and luckily for me, I control that. There is one thing and one thing alone I do control in this world: my actions. I choose to live the KTC way.
In the end I Surrender, I and I alone accept that I have and always will have a Nicotene ADDICTION. It is my choice to quit, but I can't do it alone. I get to go down this path one time, I want to do it right. I recognize that my word, my integrety to you is on the line and is only as good as my actions. Caving is not an option in this plan-Eafman 7/11

I am not cured. I will quit one day at a time. I will continue to do what works. Posting roll everyday. To do otherwise would be foolish on my part. You can do this-Ready 12/11

To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12

Theres a lot of people that come here, especially vets, that WANT to be reminded that they are addicts.-Tarpon 6/12

Just as a building starts with architectural drawings. Your daily quit begins with a promise.-Scowick 2/13

Here and now, focused on today, minute by minute, whatever it takes, I promise to all my bros and myself not to become a negative stat and stay quit!-krok 1/15

I want everyone to be quit. Even the assholes.-Probe1957 1/18

Ignoring history or erasing history fixes nothing and leads you inevitably down the same path.-69franx 04/30/2021

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #341 on: October 21, 2013, 10:51:00 AM »
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Maggie:  Because I don't want to be afraid of being alive.

Glenn:  Being afraid is what's kept us alive.

Maggie:  No, it's how we kept breathing.
In the post apocalyptic world filled with zombies, many of the characters of the Walking Dead struggle to just survive. Their lives are so filled with this instinct that they forget what it is truly like to be alive. Now, this isn't a new concept. George Romero dealt with this years ago in his movies.

When we quit here, we took shelter inside the KTC. We were just looking to survive this quit. Those first few days are so insane and so scary that many of us are left in the fetal position begging for mercy. Quitting is brutal.

But we keep breathing. We keep quitting.

We stay vigilant because one moment of weakness can lead us back to where we once were.

The KTC is a place that helps us keep breathing. It doesn't keep us alive. It's our shelter when times are bad: when we need to hide from the zombies outside. It is up to us (as individuals) to be ALIVE.

We quit for a reason. Don't be sad about it. Celebrate it. Make it a part of your life, and enjoy that life. Engrain the coping tools you learn here into your life. It's so easy to look at all the shit that surrounds us and feel overwhelmed. There is one thing and one thing only in this world we control: our actions.

845 days ago I took control of mine. I ain't going back. I'd rather be alive than just be breathing.

You can do this.
I am not a fan of Walking Dead but I can certainly understand the symbolism here. Proud to quit and be alive with you today!

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #340 on: October 21, 2013, 10:44:00 AM »
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Maggie:  Because I don't want to be afraid of being alive.

Glenn:  Being afraid is what's kept us alive.

Maggie:  No, it's how we kept breathing.
In the post apocalyptic world filled with zombies, many of the characters of the Walking Dead struggle to just survive. Their lives are so filled with this instinct that they forget what it is truly like to be alive. Now, this isn't a new concept. George Romero dealt with this years ago in his movies.

When we quit here, we took shelter inside the KTC. We were just looking to survive this quit. Those first few days are so insane and so scary that many of us are left in the fetal position begging for mercy. Quitting is brutal.

But we keep breathing. We keep quitting.

We stay vigilant because one moment of weakness can lead us back to where we once were.

The KTC is a place that helps us keep breathing. It doesn't keep us alive. It's our shelter when times are bad: when we need to hide from the zombies outside. It is up to us (as individuals) to be ALIVE.

We quit for a reason. Don't be sad about it. Celebrate it. Make it a part of your life, and enjoy that life. Engrain the coping tools you learn here into your life. It's so easy to look at all the shit that surrounds us and feel overwhelmed. There is one thing and one thing only in this world we control: our actions.

845 days ago I took control of mine. I ain't going back. I'd rather be alive than just be breathing.

You can do this.
In the end I Surrender, I and I alone accept that I have and always will have a Nicotene ADDICTION. It is my choice to quit, but I can't do it alone. I get to go down this path one time, I want to do it right. I recognize that my word, my integrety to you is on the line and is only as good as my actions. Caving is not an option in this plan-Eafman 7/11

I am not cured. I will quit one day at a time. I will continue to do what works. Posting roll everyday. To do otherwise would be foolish on my part. You can do this-Ready 12/11

To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12

Theres a lot of people that come here, especially vets, that WANT to be reminded that they are addicts.-Tarpon 6/12

Just as a building starts with architectural drawings. Your daily quit begins with a promise.-Scowick 2/13

Here and now, focused on today, minute by minute, whatever it takes, I promise to all my bros and myself not to become a negative stat and stay quit!-krok 1/15

I want everyone to be quit. Even the assholes.-Probe1957 1/18

Ignoring history or erasing history fixes nothing and leads you inevitably down the same path.-69franx 04/30/2021

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #339 on: September 18, 2013, 08:58:00 PM »
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So I dodged a bullet today, and hopefully it's something that the kids remember me for.

It was a beautiful day out today.  I was watching Akron give Michigan all they could handle (unfortunately, falling short).  Mrs. Panel was looking happy.  I was enjoying the last of my IPA from last week's trip. 

My plan was to take my oldest out to sell popcorn for scouts after the game.  I had him get his uniform on, and then I saw his friend coming down the driveway.  I let them play for a little bit before the 2 girls living behind us show up with a 3 month old kitten.

It didn't have a collar.

It was cute as fuck.

The kids all fell in love immediately.

The neighbor had already put the kabosh on the possible new addition to their family, and the girls brought it over here "just because".  As the kids and my wife got into the thing, I started worrying.  I already have 2 cats and I know for a fact that this cute stage only leads to pee on basement carpet.  My wife knows this as well, but the kids...

Mrs. Panel left for a quarter auction, and I laid out my plan.  I printed out some flyers, and as a group (with 5 kids ranging from 12-5), we set out to find this little guy's home.  The questions began.  What happens if we don't find his home?  Where's he going to sleep tonight?  What should we name him?  Ugh.

I laid it out for them:  We were going to put up these signs today.  He would sleep in our pet carrier tonight.  Tomorrow, Jr. and I would set out to sell popcorn and ask anybody if they knew who's cat it was.  If that didn't work, he was going to the vet's office Monday where they would place him in a good home.

We walked about a mile and a half (I know...I've run this path many times.) before some little girls gave us a double take from their yard.   I saw this...barely.  I called out, and I saw two giant smiles on these girls' faces.  Their dad waved from the window and said thank you.

On the way back to the house, the kids reminisced about their short but sweet time with "Baby".  The bell of the ice cream truck distracted them, and they all celebrated a job well done over cones.

Life is about these moments. 

Looking back, I could have freaked out and kicked the cat out and just let it run.  My kids would probably think I was mean, and they would think about the time I wouldn't let them keep a kitten they found.  Now, they are heroes.  They beamed as they told their mom about this.  My son hung the flyer in his room.

I did not have an extra animal sleeping at my house last night.

Enjoy your battles.
:D
A great story. A great ending. A lucky cat. Some lucky kids. A lucky wife.

And a man of integrity who has taken his life back.

Well done, and I don't even like cats!!!
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Re: I'm back
« Reply #338 on: September 15, 2013, 08:40:00 PM »
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So I dodged a bullet today, and hopefully it's something that the kids remember me for.

It was a beautiful day out today.  I was watching Akron give Michigan all they could handle (unfortunately, falling short).  Mrs. Panel was looking happy.  I was enjoying the last of my IPA from last week's trip. 

My plan was to take my oldest out to sell popcorn for scouts after the game.  I had him get his uniform on, and then I saw his friend coming down the driveway.  I let them play for a little bit before the 2 girls living behind us show up with a 3 month old kitten.

It didn't have a collar.

It was cute as fuck.

The kids all fell in love immediately.

The neighbor had already put the kabosh on the possible new addition to their family, and the girls brought it over here "just because".  As the kids and my wife got into the thing, I started worrying.  I already have 2 cats and I know for a fact that this cute stage only leads to pee on basement carpet.  My wife knows this as well, but the kids...

Mrs. Panel left for a quarter auction, and I laid out my plan.  I printed out some flyers, and as a group (with 5 kids ranging from 12-5), we set out to find this little guy's home.  The questions began.  What happens if we don't find his home?  Where's he going to sleep tonight?  What should we name him?  Ugh.

I laid it out for them:  We were going to put up these signs today.  He would sleep in our pet carrier tonight.  Tomorrow, Jr. and I would set out to sell popcorn and ask anybody if they knew who's cat it was.  If that didn't work, he was going to the vet's office Monday where they would place him in a good home.

We walked about a mile and a half (I know...I've run this path many times.) before some little girls gave us a double take from their yard.  I saw this...barely.  I called out, and I saw two giant smiles on these girls' faces.  Their dad waved from the window and said thank you.

On the way back to the house, the kids reminisced about their short but sweet time with "Baby".  The bell of the ice cream truck distracted them, and they all celebrated a job well done over cones.

Life is about these moments. 

Looking back, I could have freaked out and kicked the cat out and just let it run.  My kids would probably think I was mean, and they would think about the time I wouldn't let them keep a kitten they found.  Now, they are heroes.  They beamed as they told their mom about this.  My son hung the flyer in his room.

I did not have an extra animal sleeping at my house last night.

Enjoy your battles.
:D
A great story. A great ending. A lucky cat. Some lucky kids. A lucky wife.

And a man of integrity who has taken his life back.

Well done, and I don't even like cats!!!

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #337 on: September 15, 2013, 07:36:00 PM »
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So I dodged a bullet today, and hopefully it's something that the kids remember me for.

It was a beautiful day out today. I was watching Akron give Michigan all they could handle (unfortunately, falling short). Mrs. Panel was looking happy. I was enjoying the last of my IPA from last week's trip.

My plan was to take my oldest out to sell popcorn for scouts after the game. I had him get his uniform on, and then I saw his friend coming down the driveway. I let them play for a little bit before the 2 girls living behind us show up with a 3 month old kitten.

It didn't have a collar.

It was cute as fuck.

The kids all fell in love immediately.

The neighbor had already put the kabosh on the possible new addition to their family, and the girls brought it over here "just because". As the kids and my wife got into the thing, I started worrying. I already have 2 cats and I know for a fact that this cute stage only leads to pee on basement carpet. My wife knows this as well, but the kids...

Mrs. Panel left for a quarter auction, and I laid out my plan. I printed out some flyers, and as a group (with 5 kids ranging from 12-5), we set out to find this little guy's home. The questions began. What happens if we don't find his home? Where's he going to sleep tonight? What should we name him? Ugh.

I laid it out for them: We were going to put up these signs today. He would sleep in our pet carrier tonight. Tomorrow, Jr. and I would set out to sell popcorn and ask anybody if they knew who's cat it was. If that didn't work, he was going to the vet's office Monday where they would place him in a good home.

We walked about a mile and a half (I know...I've run this path many times.) before some little girls gave us a double take from their yard. I saw this...barely. I called out, and I saw two giant smiles on these girls' faces. Their dad waved from the window and said thank you.

On the way back to the house, the kids reminisced about their short but sweet time with "Baby". The bell of the ice cream truck distracted them, and they all celebrated a job well done over cones.

Life is about these moments.

Looking back, I could have freaked out and kicked the cat out and just let it run. My kids would probably think I was mean, and they would think about the time I wouldn't let them keep a kitten they found. Now, they are heroes. They beamed as they told their mom about this. My son hung the flyer in his room.

I did not have an extra animal sleeping at my house last night.

Enjoy your battles.
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Re: I'm back
« Reply #336 on: September 15, 2013, 06:35:00 AM »
So I dodged a bullet today, and hopefully it's something that the kids remember me for.

It was a beautiful day out today. I was watching Akron give Michigan all they could handle (unfortunately, falling short). Mrs. Panel was looking happy. I was enjoying the last of my IPA from last week's trip.

My plan was to take my oldest out to sell popcorn for scouts after the game. I had him get his uniform on, and then I saw his friend coming down the driveway. I let them play for a little bit before the 2 girls living behind us show up with a 3 month old kitten.

It didn't have a collar.

It was cute as fuck.

The kids all fell in love immediately.

The neighbor had already put the kabosh on the possible new addition to their family, and the girls brought it over here "just because". As the kids and my wife got into the thing, I started worrying. I already have 2 cats and I know for a fact that this cute stage only leads to pee on basement carpet. My wife knows this as well, but the kids...

Mrs. Panel left for a quarter auction, and I laid out my plan. I printed out some flyers, and as a group (with 5 kids ranging from 12-5), we set out to find this little guy's home. The questions began. What happens if we don't find his home? Where's he going to sleep tonight? What should we name him? Ugh.

I laid it out for them: We were going to put up these signs today. He would sleep in our pet carrier tonight. Tomorrow, Jr. and I would set out to sell popcorn and ask anybody if they knew who's cat it was. If that didn't work, he was going to the vet's office Monday where they would place him in a good home.

We walked about a mile and a half (I know...I've run this path many times.) before some little girls gave us a double take from their yard. I saw this...barely. I called out, and I saw two giant smiles on these girls' faces. Their dad waved from the window and said thank you.

On the way back to the house, the kids reminisced about their short but sweet time with "Baby". The bell of the ice cream truck distracted them, and they all celebrated a job well done over cones.

Life is about these moments.

Looking back, I could have freaked out and kicked the cat out and just let it run. My kids would probably think I was mean, and they would think about the time I wouldn't let them keep a kitten they found. Now, they are heroes. They beamed as they told their mom about this. My son hung the flyer in his room.

I did not have an extra animal sleeping at my house last night.

Enjoy your battles.
In the end I Surrender, I and I alone accept that I have and always will have a Nicotene ADDICTION. It is my choice to quit, but I can't do it alone. I get to go down this path one time, I want to do it right. I recognize that my word, my integrety to you is on the line and is only as good as my actions. Caving is not an option in this plan-Eafman 7/11

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #335 on: September 07, 2013, 02:47:00 PM »
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Day 800, and I'm tired.

My month of traveling has caught up with me, and now I'm working night and day.  It also helps that my weekend plans include a flag raising with the scouts on Friday, a wine trip on Saturday, and a double birthday party for my boys on Sunday.  My basement was trashed so I spent 2 days going through it and throwing away bags of old broken toys and things that the cats have pissed on.

I've been burning the candles at both ends here.

I really am enjoying my life right now as well.

When I first quit, it was a chore to do stuff.  I had to sometimes fake a smile while cleaning or play on the site when I should have been working on taxes.  I'd text through a craving while watching television.  I don't "have" to do that.  95% of the time, I feel fucking awesome.

Roll is and has never been a chore.  It's my promise to keep me quit.  I know that, and you will never change my mind on that.  Looking back, I wasn't "quit" when I wasn't posting roll the first time around.  I was just not using.  Now, I am 100% quit.  (My son has suggested I start a site for mom's Candy Crush addiction and his video game addiction.  He wasn't too keen on going cold turkey, but suggested it to my wife.  He gets it (I think  'crackup' ).).

I feel like I've helped many people here, but (here's the dirty little secret) that help(s) me.  It's an honor to be quit with all of you, and I wouldn't be writing this without you.  Accountability is a two way street.  I have asked for help from some of you.  I may ask for help in the future.  I'll do my best to help you in times of need.  That's why this site is magical.  I am no less of an addict because I'm 800 days quit or because my name appears in blue.  We are all addicts here, and we are all here to help one another.

Roll is both our war cry and our cry for help.

So, thank you all.  Proud to be quit here.
A wine trip? Ghey.

Oh and congrats on 8 hundo and for everything you do in this site.

Mad props.

Quit on...
Agree with Diesel. Wine tasting? Is your husband treating?

Don't forget your purse.

Seriously Waste, congratufuckinglations on 8 floors.

It's an honor brother. Shout if you ever need anything.
To be fair, it means I get to drink beer all day long on the bus, most of the wineries now brew beer as well, and the last stop is here.

And it makes Mrs. Panel frisky.
nothing wrong with drinking wine! Grats on the 800!
Congrats WP thank you for all your help along the way. Nice to bang out 800+ 1's. I will go to the last place for you, go taste all the TJ Swann you want.
A big Congratulations Mr. WastePanel!!!! 800 is simply Killer!
Thank you for all you've done for me in chat! I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for you!
How was the biker rally thing. Good job on 800. I'm only 776 days behind ya
as always thanks for sharing  your guidance.
800 days.

257 days ago I would have said one of 2 things... 1- big deal, you can quit this habit any time, so what? 2- impossible, no way. The first would have been in the morning, the second in the evening when I was shaking and sweating and ready to rip someone apart.

Today, I will say congratulations and thank you. We all use ktc in different ways. Some use chat. Some post in many groups. Some lurk all over the place. The intros seem to be my inspiration, and you and several others always seem to say just the right thing at just the right time.

It pains me to quote Ms Clinton, but this process takes a village. Thanks for being a vocal part of the community.
Damn proud of you.
Congratulations on the milestone wastepanel.

You are an asset to the site, and I think you would be hard pressed to find anyone who disagrees with that fact.

Thanks for investing the time in my quit, especially in those early weeks. Your honesty and encouragement impacted my quit significantly. 250 today and I am not sure I would have made it here without you.

Keep up the great work.

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #334 on: September 06, 2013, 01:54:00 PM »
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: kana
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Quote from: 30isEnuff
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Quote from: Dougie
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Day 800, and I'm tired.

My month of traveling has caught up with me, and now I'm working night and day.  It also helps that my weekend plans include a flag raising with the scouts on Friday, a wine trip on Saturday, and a double birthday party for my boys on Sunday.  My basement was trashed so I spent 2 days going through it and throwing away bags of old broken toys and things that the cats have pissed on.

I've been burning the candles at both ends here.

I really am enjoying my life right now as well.

When I first quit, it was a chore to do stuff.  I had to sometimes fake a smile while cleaning or play on the site when I should have been working on taxes.  I'd text through a craving while watching television.  I don't "have" to do that.  95% of the time, I feel fucking awesome.

Roll is and has never been a chore.  It's my promise to keep me quit.  I know that, and you will never change my mind on that.  Looking back, I wasn't "quit" when I wasn't posting roll the first time around.  I was just not using.  Now, I am 100% quit.  (My son has suggested I start a site for mom's Candy Crush addiction and his video game addiction.  He wasn't too keen on going cold turkey, but suggested it to my wife.  He gets it (I think  'crackup' ).).

I feel like I've helped many people here, but (here's the dirty little secret) that help(s) me.  It's an honor to be quit with all of you, and I wouldn't be writing this without you.  Accountability is a two way street.  I have asked for help from some of you.  I may ask for help in the future.  I'll do my best to help you in times of need.  That's why this site is magical.  I am no less of an addict because I'm 800 days quit or because my name appears in blue.  We are all addicts here, and we are all here to help one another.

Roll is both our war cry and our cry for help.

So, thank you all.  Proud to be quit here.
A wine trip? Ghey.

Oh and congrats on 8 hundo and for everything you do in this site.

Mad props.

Quit on...
Agree with Diesel. Wine tasting? Is your husband treating?

Don't forget your purse.

Seriously Waste, congratufuckinglations on 8 floors.

It's an honor brother. Shout if you ever need anything.
To be fair, it means I get to drink beer all day long on the bus, most of the wineries now brew beer as well, and the last stop is here.

And it makes Mrs. Panel frisky.
nothing wrong with drinking wine! Grats on the 800!
Congrats WP thank you for all your help along the way. Nice to bang out 800+ 1's. I will go to the last place for you, go taste all the TJ Swann you want.
A big Congratulations Mr. WastePanel!!!! 800 is simply Killer!
Thank you for all you've done for me in chat! I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for you!
How was the biker rally thing. Good job on 800. I'm only 776 days behind ya
as always thanks for sharing  your guidance.
800 days.

257 days ago I would have said one of 2 things... 1- big deal, you can quit this habit any time, so what? 2- impossible, no way. The first would have been in the morning, the second in the evening when I was shaking and sweating and ready to rip someone apart.

Today, I will say congratulations and thank you. We all use ktc in different ways. Some use chat. Some post in many groups. Some lurk all over the place. The intros seem to be my inspiration, and you and several others always seem to say just the right thing at just the right time.

It pains me to quote Ms Clinton, but this process takes a village. Thanks for being a vocal part of the community.
Damn proud of you.

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #333 on: September 06, 2013, 01:15:00 PM »
Quote from: kana
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Day 800, and I'm tired.

My month of traveling has caught up with me, and now I'm working night and day.  It also helps that my weekend plans include a flag raising with the scouts on Friday, a wine trip on Saturday, and a double birthday party for my boys on Sunday.  My basement was trashed so I spent 2 days going through it and throwing away bags of old broken toys and things that the cats have pissed on.

I've been burning the candles at both ends here.

I really am enjoying my life right now as well.

When I first quit, it was a chore to do stuff.  I had to sometimes fake a smile while cleaning or play on the site when I should have been working on taxes.  I'd text through a craving while watching television.  I don't "have" to do that.  95% of the time, I feel fucking awesome.

Roll is and has never been a chore.  It's my promise to keep me quit.  I know that, and you will never change my mind on that.  Looking back, I wasn't "quit" when I wasn't posting roll the first time around.  I was just not using.  Now, I am 100% quit.  (My son has suggested I start a site for mom's Candy Crush addiction and his video game addiction.  He wasn't too keen on going cold turkey, but suggested it to my wife.  He gets it (I think  'crackup' ).).

I feel like I've helped many people here, but (here's the dirty little secret) that help(s) me.  It's an honor to be quit with all of you, and I wouldn't be writing this without you.  Accountability is a two way street.  I have asked for help from some of you.  I may ask for help in the future.  I'll do my best to help you in times of need.  That's why this site is magical.  I am no less of an addict because I'm 800 days quit or because my name appears in blue.  We are all addicts here, and we are all here to help one another.

Roll is both our war cry and our cry for help.

So, thank you all.  Proud to be quit here.
A wine trip? Ghey.

Oh and congrats on 8 hundo and for everything you do in this site.

Mad props.

Quit on...
Agree with Diesel. Wine tasting? Is your husband treating?

Don't forget your purse.

Seriously Waste, congratufuckinglations on 8 floors.

It's an honor brother. Shout if you ever need anything.
To be fair, it means I get to drink beer all day long on the bus, most of the wineries now brew beer as well, and the last stop is here.

And it makes Mrs. Panel frisky.
nothing wrong with drinking wine! Grats on the 800!
Congrats WP thank you for all your help along the way. Nice to bang out 800+ 1's. I will go to the last place for you, go taste all the TJ Swann you want.
A big Congratulations Mr. WastePanel!!!! 800 is simply Killer!
Thank you for all you've done for me in chat! I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for you!
How was the biker rally thing. Good job on 800. I'm only 776 days behind ya
as always thanks for sharing  your guidance.
800 days.

257 days ago I would have said one of 2 things... 1- big deal, you can quit this habit any time, so what? 2- impossible, no way. The first would have been in the morning, the second in the evening when I was shaking and sweating and ready to rip someone apart.

Today, I will say congratulations and thank you. We all use ktc in different ways. Some use chat. Some post in many groups. Some lurk all over the place. The intros seem to be my inspiration, and you and several others always seem to say just the right thing at just the right time.

It pains me to quote Ms Clinton, but this process takes a village. Thanks for being a vocal part of the community.

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Re: I'm back
« Reply #332 on: September 06, 2013, 10:51:00 AM »
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Quote from: Dougie
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Day 800, and I'm tired.

My month of traveling has caught up with me, and now I'm working night and day.  It also helps that my weekend plans include a flag raising with the scouts on Friday, a wine trip on Saturday, and a double birthday party for my boys on Sunday.  My basement was trashed so I spent 2 days going through it and throwing away bags of old broken toys and things that the cats have pissed on.

I've been burning the candles at both ends here.

I really am enjoying my life right now as well.

When I first quit, it was a chore to do stuff.  I had to sometimes fake a smile while cleaning or play on the site when I should have been working on taxes.  I'd text through a craving while watching television.  I don't "have" to do that.  95% of the time, I feel fucking awesome.

Roll is and has never been a chore.  It's my promise to keep me quit.  I know that, and you will never change my mind on that.  Looking back, I wasn't "quit" when I wasn't posting roll the first time around.  I was just not using.  Now, I am 100% quit.  (My son has suggested I start a site for mom's Candy Crush addiction and his video game addiction.  He wasn't too keen on going cold turkey, but suggested it to my wife.  He gets it (I think  'crackup' ).).

I feel like I've helped many people here, but (here's the dirty little secret) that help(s) me.  It's an honor to be quit with all of you, and I wouldn't be writing this without you.  Accountability is a two way street.  I have asked for help from some of you.  I may ask for help in the future.  I'll do my best to help you in times of need.  That's why this site is magical.  I am no less of an addict because I'm 800 days quit or because my name appears in blue.  We are all addicts here, and we are all here to help one another.

Roll is both our war cry and our cry for help.

So, thank you all.  Proud to be quit here.
A wine trip? Ghey.

Oh and congrats on 8 hundo and for everything you do in this site.

Mad props.

Quit on...
Agree with Diesel. Wine tasting? Is your husband treating?

Don't forget your purse.

Seriously Waste, congratufuckinglations on 8 floors.

It's an honor brother. Shout if you ever need anything.
To be fair, it means I get to drink beer all day long on the bus, most of the wineries now brew beer as well, and the last stop is here.

And it makes Mrs. Panel frisky.
nothing wrong with drinking wine! Grats on the 800!
Congrats WP thank you for all your help along the way. Nice to bang out 800+ 1's. I will go to the last place for you, go taste all the TJ Swann you want.
A big Congratulations Mr. WastePanel!!!! 800 is simply Killer!
Thank you for all you've done for me in chat! I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for you!
How was the biker rally thing. Good job on 800. I'm only 776 days behind ya
as always thanks for sharing  your guidance.
we choose our battles.. the battles we do fight, be aware that they have to be, but passion rules? James Hetfield