Decision Made - Day 1

[Bokie]

Thanks Viking! Thanks Eye!

I used to go to bed at 9:30. My family thought I was just getting old, and could not handle staying up late, as I get up at 5am for work. The reality is, I would slap in a dip, play games on my cell phone for 2 hours and then go to sleep. As for a spitter, I always had a bottle near bye, with a tin of fake chew (probably 3 years old) next to it. My tin of Cope, my preference, was hidden away. While I could swallow, and did often, I preferred to pack half a tin in before bed, to get that last fix. The next morning, I would hit the same gas station, place my order and I was off on my hour and half drive to work. No big deal when you have a dip. Today's commute is no more difficult or more stressful, without the dip.

You guys are correct, I have more energy during the day, and at night. My next challenge is to go fishing without a dip. That is a challenge I will be ready for next Spring. Bass fishing is pretty much over here in MA.

Cheers!

[Bokie]

Thanks Viking! Thanks Eye!

I used to go to bed at 9:30. My family thought I was just getting old, and could not handle staying up late, as I get up at 5am for work. The reality is, I would slap in a dip, play games on my cell phone for 2 hours and then go to sleep. As for a spitter, I always had a bottle near bye, with a tin of fake chew (probably 3 years old) next to it. My tin of Cope, my preference, was hidden away. While I could swallow, and did often, I preferred to pack half a tin in before bed, to get that last fix. The next morning, I would hit the same gas station, place my order and I was off on my hour and half drive to work. No big deal when you have a dip. Today's commute is no more difficult or more stressful, without the dip.

You guys are correct, I have more energy during the day, and at night. My next challenge is to go fishing without a dip. That is a challenge I will be ready for next Spring. Bass fishing is pretty much over here in MA.

Cheers!

[eyehatecope]

You can't sleep now but, before long you will be sleeping more than you have. It's one thing that I'm amazed about. I used to be like many others, going to bed at 1130, 1200, 1230 and so on. All to get that nic. I needed that last taste before I laid down. Some times laid down with it, nasty spitter next to me. I couldn't swallow it. My point is I'm amazed at how much rest my body calls for now. I'm guessing it's still catching up from all that lost sleep. I'm in the bed nowadays by 9-930. Weekends, I can actually sleep in until 800AM which is amazing. Going back down memory lane, going to bed at 1130, 1200, 1230 at night, I was up bright and early to get that fix. Thank God I no longer need that nasty nic.

[Viking]

Ok, so I'm on Day 8. Last night was a real challenge I found myself doing many things around the house that I typically would only do to get outside and get a dip on. I too was a hider. My family didn't know I was on the sauce. They thought I quit a long time ago. I've lived a lie for way too long. Last night I also did not sleep. One reason was because of that damn baseball game. Sadly I'm not a fan of either team, but come on, that was a great game I could not turn off even with a 20 minute rain delay. After the game, I stared at the ceiling waiting for the sand man, but he didn't show, and the alarm went off. Both of them! I'm actually pretty proud of my mindset right now. I'm a little edgy, but getting on just fine during the day. Triumph is helping, but I'm not loving the fake stuff! Any how, this is my log entry for today. On Day 8, still quit, still waiting for the clouds to leave my brain. Thanks to all who have reached out, appreciate it. All those in the Feb 2017 Quit Group, PLEASE let me know if I can be of any assistance to your quit in any way. Just send me a message. Cheers!

I quit with you all today!

Hey Bokie,

I'm in your Feb 17 quit group. I am going through a lot of the same things you are going through. You are not alone. I am hating these feelings and mind games right with you. At the same time, in many ways, I feel better than I have in a long, long time. I have more energy in spite of the fact it is being spent in a fog and reading KTC stories, all after four hours of sleep. How about you?

It was an awesome ball game last night. Baseball is always toughest for me. I've coached and played baseball my whole life, was introduced to chewing tobacco through my baseball playing days, I'm still around baseball all the time, so I completely get the harshness of having to face the triggers like you did last night. Awesome that you made it through, bro.

I also hid it like you did. I was way too ashamed to let any of the 15-18 yr. old kids I have coached know that I was chewing right in front of their face. They look at me as a role model. I was far too ashamed to ever let any of them know, and even more, I hope none of them ever chewed because of me.

Anyway, no hiding it any more for either of us. We are going to be honest with ourselves and our loved ones. That feeling of dishonesty just sucks. Way to push through all that last night.

Stay quit. Feb 17 group quits dipping. We don't quit on each other.

-Viking

[rdad]

still waiting for the clouds to leave my brain.

They will Bokie. Just wait for it. Its coming soon. And when the fog lifts its freaking awesome. You have a lot of milestones and realizations still ahead. Enjoy this journey bro. You are on your way to being who you really are. Not the nicotine fiend we all were!

[Bokie]

Ok, so I'm on Day 8. Last night was a real challenge I found myself doing many things around the house that I typically would only do to get outside and get a dip on. I too was a hider. My family didn't know I was on the sauce. They thought I quit a long time ago. I've lived a lie for way too long. Last night I also did not sleep. One reason was because of that damn baseball game. Sadly I'm not a fan of either team, but come on, that was a great game I could not turn off even with a 20 minute rain delay. After the game, I stared at the ceiling waiting for the sand man, but he didn't show, and the alarm went off. Both of them! I'm actually pretty proud of my mindset right now. I'm a little edgy, but getting on just fine during the day. Triumph is helping, but I'm not loving the fake stuff! Any how, this is my log entry for today. On Day 8, still quit, still waiting for the clouds to leave my brain. Thanks to all who have reached out, appreciate it. All those in the Feb 2017 Quit Group, PLEASE let me know if I can be of any assistance to your quit in any way. Just send me a message. Cheers!

I quit with you all today!

[rdad]

Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!

I would steer you away from posting solely in your quit group. Not all of us want to wade through page after page and post after post trying to offer advice. It gets to be a mess and a headache. Here, in your intro, you actually have MORE community exposure and it's easier and quicker to access. You might also get more advice from old timers/vets who still peruse this part of our forum regularly. Quite a few of us hold to the opinion that this site lost a lot of damn good interaction when the bulk of the conversation was steered to quit groups. Anyway... just my 2 bits. Keep on rockin', man. This is all good stuff!

I don't know why everyone is not more involved in the intros. This is where it used to happen.

[AppleJack]

Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!

I would steer you away from posting solely in your quit group. Not all of us want to wade through page after page and post after post trying to offer advice. It gets to be a mess and a headache. Here, in your intro, you actually have MORE community exposure and it's easier and quicker to access. You might also get more advice from old timers/vets who still peruse this part of our forum regularly. Quite a few of us hold to the opinion that this site lost a lot of damn good interaction when the bulk of the conversation was steered to quit groups. Anyway... just my 2 bits. Keep on rockin', man. This is all good stuff!

[eyehatecope]

Bokie just jump on in the Feb '17 thread and post away. Won't hurt nothing.

[syndrome]

Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.

I could not agree more Eye! Those names and numbers are both intimidating and inspiring! I appreciate the support and look forward to learning more about the KTC community.

Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!

Write as much as you want anywhere you want! I used my intro a lot the first few months.

Never be intimidated about someone's number, if it didn't offend people all I'd post is a +1 for roll because I am an addict and will never be cured. That's my take on it, my digits are just a number to me, all I care about is being quit and free.

No offense intended to anyone.

hay man there are lots a reasons i post up top in feb groops. first off it reinviggerates my quit. seckind it shood be a exampel of what you can do. if a moron like me can make 2900 days quit so can you. if you stick with the program that is. third is to give some avice where i can cuz i think im gettin pritty good at quitin. and forth is to keep you guys in line a bit so the nuckel draggers round here dont get all pissy in the groop thred and chase some peepel off.

[Thumblewort]

Day 1 - for the 2nd time.

Last time was almost 10 yrs ago - had quit for 1+ yr (the 'old' quitsmokeless.org site), then relapsed and haven't seriously quit since.

Until today.

You need to make your own intro dude.

[shbrewer]

Day 1 - for the 2nd time.

Last time was almost 10 yrs ago - had quit for 1+ yr (the 'old' quitsmokeless.org site), then relapsed and haven't seriously quit since.

Until today.

[Thumblewort]

Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.

I could not agree more Eye! Those names and numbers are both intimidating and inspiring! I appreciate the support and look forward to learning more about the KTC community.

Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!

Write as much as you want anywhere you want! I used my intro a lot the first few months.

Never be intimidated about someone's number, if it didn't offend people all I'd post is a +1 for roll because I am an addict and will never be cured. That's my take on it, my digits are just a number to me, all I care about is being quit and free.

No offense intended to anyone.

[Bokie]

Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.

I could not agree more Eye! Those names and numbers are both intimidating and inspiring! I appreciate the support and look forward to learning more about the KTC community.

Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!

[eyehatecope]

Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.