Thanks to those who took time to say congrats on my 1,000 days of quit. It means a lot and is greatly appreciated.
Beating this addiction is tough stuff, especially early on. When I think back I ask myself "why the fuck was it so hard???"
For me, it was hard because not only was I breaking free from the chains of addiction, I was also breaking thousands of bad habits that came along with the fucking addiction.
"Quitting chew" was a lot more than just no longer putting Kodiak in my lip, it was changing the entire way I lived. That seems kind of silly and over the top to me now, but it's the sad truth.
While I say addiction, I honestly think dependency is a better word. So much "bad" was born from me constantly turning to the tin and thinking it was a true part of me.
All that "bad" was REALLLY hard to undo and even more "bad" was born when I was trying to undo the old "bad". It felt like I was walking in circles in the mud, while wearing concrete shoes.
But I kept walking. Not sure why, but I did. Eventually I got out of the mud, busted out of the concrete shoes and turned "bad" into good.
Turns out I didn't need to depend on that shit and I never did.
I'm not on here as much as I used to be. I'm kinda just enjoying being "normal" again. Part of me misses telling some newbie to pull his head out of his fucking ass and to quit being a pussy ass bitch, but I think a bigger part of me doesn't.
If you are struggling, keep on walking. Things will get better, I promise and am living proof.
Quit on...
