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[Its_Got2Happen]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

You fucking caved?

Sarcasm

Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'

No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.

I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.

Time to move forward.

Thanks.

The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.

Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.

Thanks man. You're right.

Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .

That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.

It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.

The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.

Ryan

[Diesel2112]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

You fucking caved?

Sarcasm

Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'

No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.

I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.

Time to move forward.

Thanks.

The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.

Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.

Thanks man. You're right.

Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .

That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.

[Its_Got2Happen]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

You fucking caved?

Sarcasm

Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'

No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.

I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.

Time to move forward.

Thanks.

The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.

Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.

[Diesel2112]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

You fucking caved?

Sarcasm

Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'

No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.

I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.

Time to move forward.

Thanks.

[Diesel2112]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

Thanks fellas. Even though in my heart of hearts I know I did not cave, this whole thing threw me for a complete loop. My shrink was pissed I called him this morning for something so, as he called "minor". Fucker said he was gonna bill me. I don't give a fuck. Ill gladly pay him, even though he gave me shitty advice. Told me, "you don't owe those people an explanation, you made an honest mistake. Stop beating yourself up over it". I could not do that.

My kids had their annual Christmas concert/play last night. My son was a wise man with some speaking lines. I have no clue what he said or how he did. All I could think about was this fuck up. My mom (who was there also) could see it on my face too, and kept telling me to let it go.

I could not until I got it off my chest here. My brain has been going haywire, like I'm "waiting" for the law of addiction to kick in because nic vapor, or whatever the fuck that shit is, came out of my mouth.

It was a honest fuck up but it also has scared the living shit out of me. It has also made me realize that this site has turned me in to one honest mother fucker.

Thanks again, gents.

[Wt57]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

You fucking caved?

Sarcasm

Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'

[SirDerek]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.

I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.

Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

[jaynellie]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!

Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!

[Erussell]

I gotta get this off my chest.  My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home.  Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking.  She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT.  NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work.  I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth???  When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said  "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard).  He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth.  Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?".  He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out.  I  put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!!  I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry.  My parents were baffled.  My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset.  I am physically shaking ask I type this right now. 

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing.  Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig.  I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds.  I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out.  heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette.  I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing.  Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave?  God I hope not. 

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal.  Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh.  Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too.  He talked me out of it, thank God.  Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses. 

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain.  To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either.  I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it.  I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything.  I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest.  Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.

[worktowin]

I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave? God I hope not.

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.

Craig

Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.

You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.

Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.

Michael

[Diesel2112]

I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...

First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.

Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.

You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".

So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".

A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).

Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".

HOLY FUCK!!!!

I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"

I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.

I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.

I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.

I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.

Is this a cave? God I hope not.

I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.

I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.

I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.

My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.

I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.

Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.

Craig

[Diesel2112]

Hey ass gaskets...

STOP CAVING!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!

Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.    People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk. 

I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site.  Open up your fucking eyes and use it. 

You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well. 

Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!

Fuck Me....

BRAVO!!!!!!

Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares

Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'

Ditto. Thank you.

x2 Diesel except I am not going to fuck you physically

X3 I concur!!!

Can't even get any ass play on this site anymore. Sad.

[Erussell]

Hey ass gaskets...

STOP CAVING!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!

Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.    People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk. 

I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site.  Open up your fucking eyes and use it. 

You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well. 

Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!

Fuck Me....

BRAVO!!!!!!

Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares

Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'

Ditto. Thank you.

x2 Diesel except I am not going to fuck you physically

X3 I concur!!!

[Pinched]

Hey ass gaskets...

STOP CAVING!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!

Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.    People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk. 

I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site.  Open up your fucking eyes and use it. 

You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well. 

Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!

Fuck Me....

BRAVO!!!!!!

Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares

Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'

Ditto. Thank you.

x2 Diesel except I am not going to fuck you physically

[brettlees]

Hey ass gaskets...

STOP CAVING!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!

Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.    People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk. 

I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site.  Open up your fucking eyes and use it. 

You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well. 

Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!

Fuck Me....

BRAVO!!!!!!

Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares

Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'

Ditto. Thank you.