Diesel's Intro Page

[Diesel2112]

Diesel, I don't doubt you for a minute. Some of us newbies (me!!) actually read whatever you write because your voice is respected. You have no idea who I am, and it's not me who you would let down if February caved you, but dammit I would be disappointed in your words to me. You got this, bro. I'm the one two weeks in wondering when the first near-cave is going to happen (so far, so good in that regard.) You've almost made a year and didn't need nicky to live for 240 days. I believe in you, dude. And thanks for showing up newbies how powerful this shit is even after 3/4 of a year. It's NOT more powerful than you, though!!!

Bro....I ain't letting anybody down. I admit when the bitch gets to me but Im also prepared to kick her ass..and will. I'm human, I get weak from time to time but that's when I turn to this sight. I got fucking noobs encouraging me. I get off on that shit. Thanks for the kind words and don't worry about me...I got this shit.

[wastepanel]

Ive cleared many hurrdles and this will be another. Just sometimes right before you jump them you think "fuck this is a high one".

I love this fucking line.

It describes every freaking bad moment of my quit as I, too, freak out before an "event" that usually meant stuffing my face in the past.

I plan to be quit so I recognize where failure may be then I figure out how to succeed. Usually, the "event" goes by without even a crave.

Fucking awesome post man.

[Diesel2112]

Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.

My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for.  Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.

Well every February they take of to Florida for a month.  Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please. 

A HUGE part of that was, of course dip.  I used to chew my ass off for a month straight.  I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher.  But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".

Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one.  I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site.  But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety.  Son of a bith!!!

I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it.  I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier.  Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month.  It actually really helps me feel better.

Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."

Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality.   I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.

Thanks for listening and stay quit!

The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!

Keep on Quittin!!

J

hey Brother D,

1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems!

Nicotine makes nothing better!

NAFAR never again for any reason!

Do something else, like put a box of roofing nails down your pants and run around the yard for 11 minutes! 'bang head'

You got this!

Yo Deisel2012, Don't fuck me. You are a quit stud and a role model for me my infant quit. Ramble on if you need to. Thats what this site is for, but dont even think about walking back into your prison cell. That door is closed and welded shut. I think its cool that you are open enough to express some fear and anxiety but shit man you have scaled mountains my friend, dont trip over a fucking anthill.
Remember this shit is life or death. Never again for any reason!!!! Proud to be quit with you. IG2H

I ain't fucking anybody but the nic bitch. Caving is not even an option. Ive cleared many hurrdles and this will be another. Just sometimes right before you jump them you think "fuck this is a high one". I told ya I was a pussy. And it's Diesel2112 not 2012. LOL. Thanks for the support.

[Dlee3]

Diesel, I don't doubt you for a minute. Some of us newbies (me!!) actually read whatever you write because your voice is respected. You have no idea who I am, and it's not me who you would let down if February caved you, but dammit I would be disappointed in your words to me. You got this, bro. I'm the one two weeks in wondering when the first near-cave is going to happen (so far, so good in that regard.) You've almost made a year and didn't need nicky to live for 240 days. I believe in you, dude. And thanks for showing up newbies how powerful this shit is even after 3/4 of a year. It's NOT more powerful than you, though!!!

[Its_Got2Happen]

Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.

My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for.  Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.

Well every February they take of to Florida for a month.  Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please. 

A HUGE part of that was, of course dip.  I used to chew my ass off for a month straight.  I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher.  But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".

Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one.  I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site.  But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety.  Son of a bith!!!

I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it.  I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier.  Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month.  It actually really helps me feel better.

Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."

Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality.   I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.

Thanks for listening and stay quit!

The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!

Keep on Quittin!!

J

hey Brother D,

1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems!

Nicotine makes nothing better!

NAFAR never again for any reason!

Do something else, like put a box of roofing nails down your pants and run around the yard for 11 minutes! 'bang head'

You got this!

Yo Deisel2012, Don't fuck me. You are a quit stud and a role model for me my infant quit. Ramble on if you need to. Thats what this site is for, but dont even think about walking back into your prison cell. That door is closed and welded shut. I think its cool that you are open enough to express some fear and anxiety but shit man you have scaled mountains my friend, dont trip over a fucking anthill.
Remember this shit is life or death. Never again for any reason!!!! Proud to be quit with you. IG2H

[30isEnuff]

Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.

My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for.  Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.

Well every February they take of to Florida for a month.  Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please. 

A HUGE part of that was, of course dip.  I used to chew my ass off for a month straight.  I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher.  But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".

Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one.  I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site.  But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety.  Son of a bith!!!

I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it.  I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier.  Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month.  It actually really helps me feel better.

Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."

Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality.  I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.

Thanks for listening and stay quit!

The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!

Keep on Quittin!!

J

hey Brother D,

1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems!

Nicotine makes nothing better!

NAFAR never again for any reason!

Do something else, like put a box of roofing nails down your pants and run around the yard for 11 minutes! 'bang head'

You got this!

[jhaenel23]

Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.

My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.

Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.

A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".

Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!

I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.

Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."

Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality. I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.

Thanks for listening and stay quit!

The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!

Keep on Quittin!!

J

[Diesel2112]

Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.

My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.

Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.

A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".

Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!

I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.

Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."

Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality. I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.

Thanks for listening and stay quit!

[30isEnuff]

Interesting....I had my first dip dream in a 100 days or so last night. Must be something in the air. Pretty good dry streak for me too.

If you begin to have them a lot, though they can be a bitch, you will learn to laugh them off easily enough.

Still a pretty good reminder of how deep the claws were sunk in.

hey Diesel2112, Even in your dreams "You are the BadAss Quitter"! You woke up and discovered that the dream is fake, the nic bitch is a liar and YOU my brother are the badass quitter!
Victory is in the air for YOU Diesel. Jump up and down cause you're a winner TODAY!
Proud to be QUIT with YOU!
cheers.

[redtrain14]

Interesting....I had my first dip dream in a 100 days or so last night. Must be something in the air. Pretty good dry streak for me too.

If you begin to have them a lot, though they can be a bitch, you will learn to laugh them off easily enough.

Still a pretty good reminder of how deep the claws were sunk in.

[Diesel2112]

238 days quit and I had my first dip dream last night. In it I bought a pouch of nasty ass beechnut and a can of my old "pal" Kodiak. Why the hell I bought beechnut I have no idea, think I only tried it a handful of times... kodiak, I know why I bought that.

For some reason I bought them at Walmart and as soon as I walked out of the store I threw in a huge wad of beechnut...and stood there and waited, right in front of the store.

Not sure what I was waiting for. A super buzz? To "be addicted again"? For "the good times to roll again"? OR, maybe to prove...I just don't like the stuff anymore?

My mind didn't race but I did think "the boys at ktc aren't gonna like this". But as I sucked in that beechnut and my mouth filled upwith an un godly amount of spit, nothing happened. No buzz, no euphoria, no OMG what did I just do feeling, just "Damn that shit is nasty!!!!"

So I spat the biggest puddle of disgusting brown slime on the ground, right in front of Walmart and took the pouch and put it in the garbage can and took the tin of unopened Kodiak and chucked it onto the roof. Some guy yelled at me for throwing it on the roof, I told him to fuck off and woke up, relieved it was all a dream.

Not sure what this all means, but it was my first dip dream so I thought I would share.

[omahaflyer]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old.  70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death!  Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years.  The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough.  Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"  She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her.  Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or  "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future.  I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.   Truth is, it's not. 

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible.  We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us. 

Never again, for any reason.

Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.

Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!

Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, all. Much appreciated.

prayers with your family diesel..

Prayers to you and yours.

[kana]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old.  70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death!  Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years.  The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough.  Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"  She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her.  Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or  "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future.  I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.   Truth is, it's not. 

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible.  We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us. 

Never again, for any reason.

Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.

Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!

Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, all. Much appreciated.

prayers with your family diesel..

[Diesel2112]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old.  70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death!  Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years.  The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough.  Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"  She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her.  Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or  "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future.  I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.   Truth is, it's not. 

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible.  We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us. 

Never again, for any reason.

Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.

Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!

Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, all. Much appreciated.

[jbradley]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old.  70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death!  Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years.  The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough.  Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"  She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her.  Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or  "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future.  I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.   Truth is, it's not. 

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible.  We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us. 

Never again, for any reason.

Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.

Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!

Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.