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[No Retreat]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days? Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.

So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.

Regards,
Diesel2112 Craig M.

D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.

[Diesel2112]

Thanks all. Ive posted roll...and will continue to do so.

[Morgan1]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?�  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.

So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�

Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.

You got lucky this time and caught yourself.

Be careful.

EDIT: Go post roll now please.

Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that

Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man

Post up! You have nothing to apologies for if you're still quit.

Sweet Jesus the drama on this site.......hey Craig - start posting roll again. You can quit for one day right? Thats all it is bro. Nothing to get anxious or panicky about. It's quitting for one day. Own the quit, don't let it own you. You're a bad mfer, not some guy who needs a therapist to quit dipping. I will PM you my number - you need it, you use it. I'm here to help bro. I'm not trying to insult you, but all the drama needs to go. Own this. You have the power and you have support. There are guys here that I will NEVER meet that I trust and value more than some people I see everyday. Embrace the site. Embrace Sept. Leave all that other bs behind. Welcome back.

[copingwithoutcopen]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?�  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.

So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�

Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.

You got lucky this time and caught yourself.

Be careful.

EDIT: Go post roll now please.

Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that

Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man

Post up! You have nothing to apologies for if you're still quit.

[Wedge]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?�  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.

So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�

Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.

You got lucky this time and caught yourself.

Be careful.

EDIT: Go post roll now please.

Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that

Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man

I kept track of him, kept nudging him back around. :D

[Wt57]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?�  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.

So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�

Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.

You got lucky this time and caught yourself.

Be careful.

EDIT: Go post roll now please.

Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that

Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man

[per034]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?�  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.

So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�

Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.

You got lucky this time and caught yourself.

Be careful.

EDIT: Go post roll now please.

go post roll in september. if you've been clean while you've been gone, you're still with september.

this curse we've given to ourselves will not go away. this is the penance we've been forced to serve for our mistakes. you see caves and craves at many different days. that's because we're all addicts and all in danger of failing. what you don't want to do is think about forever. think about today. once you start looking at someone elses day 1,000 crave, you'll start to worry about being fucked for life.

but that doesn't matter. tomorrow never comes. focus on today. who cares about day 1,000? care about today. when tomorrow comes, it will be today again.

your quit isn't forever. it's for today.

[wastepanel]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?�  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.

So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�

Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.

You got lucky this time and caught yourself.

Be careful.

EDIT: Go post roll now please.

[J2b]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.  I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".  I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,  who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".  Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,  especially this one because there really is no finish line,  and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.  I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?  You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?  Guys are caving after only a few days?   Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?  This shit scared me even more and I freaked.  I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.  Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.  I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared. 

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.  He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,  which I totally understand.

So,  as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,  and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.  It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.  Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.  If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand. 

Regards, 
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.

I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).

By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.

[mikegooch]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.  I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".  I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie,  who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".  Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,  especially this one because there really is no finish line,  and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.  I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?  You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?  Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?  This shit scared me even more and I freaked.  I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie.  Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.  I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared. 

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.  He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,  which I totally understand.

So,  as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,  and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.  It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.  Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.  If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand. 

Regards, 
Diesel2112 Craig M.

As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch

[Diesel2112]

A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.

As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.

I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!

I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days? Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.

I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.

Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.

I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.

So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.

I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.

Regards,
Diesel2112 Craig M.

[Grizzly25]

Thanks so much. That was very well written and truthfuil. I'm just having a really tough time with all this as I approach day 12. The anxiety/tight chest feeling is almost debilatating at times. I honestly don't remember what I used to feel like before chew. I was not married, did not have a beautiful daughter or an amazing son. All those things came along with my horrible habit that I hid from all of them. I guess I fear that if I rid myself of the habbit I may lose a part of them. What a dumb fuck.

They will appreciate the new you much more than you know!

If you need to rage, bitch, complain, hell even whine do it here we can take it but dont force that on your family!

Stay Strong, focused,  QUIT brother!

Remember you are doing this for you nobody else!

[Diesel2112]

Thanks man. Looking forward to better days. Getting my ass/chest kicked here lately. I will not cave though. I will stay strong and grind this out.

[Greg5280]

Your mind will play tricks on you for a long time. All the chatter is just your body asking for its fix. Fight it off!! Whatever you are experiencing will not be made better by re-introducing poison into your body.

Remember how badly this sucks and how you feel. You only have to go through it once if you stick to the plan.

STAY QUIT
Greg

[Diesel2112]

Thanks so much. That was very well written and truthfuil. I'm just having a really tough time with all this as I approach day 12. The anxiety/tight chest feeling is almost debilatating at times. I honestly don't remember what I used to feel like before chew. I was not married, did not have a beautiful daughter or an amazing son. All those things came along with my horrible habit that I hid from all of them. I guess I fear that if I rid myself of the habbit I may lose a part of them. What a dumb fuck.