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I'm going to take a different approach, since this same exact thing happened to me. Others may disagree, and that's fine.
Do what you have to do to get yourself right and your anxiety under control. But you must remain quit.
Once you get stable again, you will be back. I guarantee it.
Let the doctors and therapists do their job. Anxiety is a mother fucker. It gets you thinking stuff you have no business thinking and its scary. Good news is you can reverse it and you have taken steps to do so. Shows me you really want this.
Once you get feeling better again you will realize that as great as the doctors/therapists are, they cannot relate to the daily struggles of beating nicotine addiction. That's when you will come back. Things will be less scary and you will be able to handle things better because you wont be riddled with anxiety and you won't be having irrational thoughts.
Get right, stay quit, and come back. I'll still be here.
Take care.
Take notice, I have seen and heard other state that a certain someone is a dickhead. Although I don't agree with everything other say on here all the time, I find it irrational to put a name on or place people in certain categories because of how you perceive or interpret their words. Diesel here is consistent, he types what he believe and he does what he can to support others. If nice guys always finish last I will be right in with this Quitter at the finish line every damn time.
However, look at posts like this where Diesel, not only injects his wisdom, but he also makes an offer to be here waiting for this quitter's return.
This is the kind of glue that hold KTC together, this is Brotherhood!