Clint - Sounds like we have similar careers (and similar stressors). For many years I worked prehospital EMS and for a about year in a 911 dispatch center. Now one of my jobs is to manager a air-medical communications center. Also lookes like we quit about the same time.
TacoMedic probably is in our family of first responders.
This type of work gives the nic bitch ammunition. She wispers in your ear, "You deserve this. After all the shit you saw today, all the disease and trauma, all the violence and pain. one little dip is not that big of a deal, YOU DESERVE THIS".
Beware. She is wispering those sweet nothings in my ear also. BUT. I'm determined to not cave. I will no longer be a slave to the can. I can beat this addiction, and TODAY, I give you my word, I WILL NOT USE ANY FORM OF NICOTINE TODAY. Tomorrow, I'll post roll call and make the same committtment, one day at a time.
So Clint, thanks for helping in my quit. Let me know how I can help you.
MattMan