Falcon67,I agree. I will not be doing this again. it was a big shock to me, i never thought i would come back to that point. I am still Nicotine Free today, making day 3. Thank you all for your support!
1 - it happened because 2 reasons, not excuses just honest reasons. Last time i had dipped had been when my wife and i separated, and now she is leaving and it just.... happened. i had been drinking too much and then next thing i know i've got a mouthful of dip and a lot of beer in me. it helped me to realize how what i've seen on here which describes it perfectly every day is a quit day, and you are never truly quit, always fighting.
2 - why? it happened because i was acting like a baby, not wanting to cope with the tidal wave of emotions that was crashing down around me.
3 - i've experienced how easy it is to fall back into nicotine's clutches. and i am not willing to spend the rest of my life shackled to that bitch. i've started focusing on my physical well being as well as my emotional well being. i am an addict, and i am finding new healthier options for myself to be addicted to.