This is 2 weeks for me today. I have learned a lot. It's crazy to me that we all have the same problem and yet we are experiencing such a broad range of physical and emotional withdraws and challenges. It's only been 2 weeks and I already feel so distant from days 1-3. This will probably piss a bunch of people off and it is not bragging in the least, but my quit was not that bad. I didn't do a lot of planning and I've never tried to quit before. I had a mark on my gum and it scared the hell out of me. I found this site and quit right then and there. I think I stated this, but my day three was the only really bad moment of my quit so far. Without reading through this site, there is no chance that I would have gotten past those last couple hours of day 3. I was completely caved and had my hand on the tin before I started reading from the site. It calmed me down and eventually the urge went away. If I could make one change, it would have been to sign up and start posting roll at day 1. I didn't sign up and post roll until day 7. This is mainly due to the fact that I am loathe to speak to a bunch of weirdo's I don't know. Nor was I comfortable starting a commitment I was not fully committed to. With this lack of commitment, I was damn lucky to make it to day 7 before I started posting roll. I guess I have to thank God for that one.
So I have pretty much told everyone in my life that I quit. I don't have a wife or kids, so there was no ground breaking celebration or anything. However, there is a little bit of accountability from them and then this site as well. I've gotten a few numbers and made a few comments. I can tell people on this site may want a little more out of me. I've never been a real social butterfly and I don't do huge groups of friends. What I am comfortable with are a few close friends and supporters. I have a pact with Tony to text each other if we don't see each other on roll call and this works for me. As time goes on, I'll form the same pact with a few others. This is how I am approaching it at this time.
At this point I am totally fine with talking a day 1-3 out of the woods, but to be honest I am still learning the best way for me to stay quit. So I guess what I need to work on is getting out there and meeting new people making myself more accountable to others and vice versa.
So what's up with the posting everywhere. Should I be posting under support for December? I could not help but read the epic meltdown over there yesterday. I see people complaining about it, but I think we are all better off for it. I view a bunch of it as blowing off steam, but there was great wisdom in many of the comments. I picked out the things I think I can use to keep me quit. Also what about the 100% group, do I need to be posting there as well? Is there anywhere else I need to be posting?
Ok that's all I have for my 2 week celebration. Does anyone have any thoughts on making my quit stronger?