Get Busy Livin or Get Busy Dyin

[bradf]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.

Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.

Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.

21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.

Day 59
Received the results back from the blood test they did when I got my annual physical....drum roll please...all good. In the past year, I have even managed to get my cholesterol into an "excellent" range as the doctor noted (and this is a feat for someone from my dad's family).

Day 60
Was waiting at the dealership while the wife's car was getting serviced this morning and was looking back over the last 60 days. It is absolutely amazing that in the past 21 years, any time I went to the doctor or dentist, all I could think about was the "now" and being good to go until I could get back to the car/office/house and get another dip. Do you realize how screwed up that is? Basically, I was living life in short little increments until the next doctor or dentist visit and numb to the reality that the filter I viewed life through was filthy from nicotine and I could not see further than the next fix. I love the new filter of clarity and freedom that I am starting to experience life through now. For me to give that up would be like Charlton Heston giving up his guns, "when you take it from my cold, dead hands". I will fight with everything I have, every day, to keep my quit.

[30isEnuff]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.

Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.

Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.

21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.

[Tuco]

Good stuff, Brad. I'll throw up a +1 for the exercise as an anxiety remedy. Even hitting the gym for an hour a day 3 days a week will do wonders for your frame of mind.

Quit on!

[FMBM707]

Glad to read about your clean bill of health. Hope that helps with the anxiety. You've got my # holler if you need anything.

Quit with you

[Done4Me]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.

Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.

Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.

[bradf]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.

Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.

[G]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

[bradf]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

[schaef418]

Congrats on 50! quit with you today...keep up the hard work!

[Done4Me]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Brad - I struggle with this as well. I started smoking around age 18 and switched to dip when I got my first office job. Never smoked much, maybe 5 to 10 a day. Dip was a can a day. I never new I had anxiety until I stopped dipping. All of my adult life I've used tobacco. Am I ADD, dunno. Am I depressed? Not a bit. Am I anxious? Without a doubt yes. Will the brain rewire and fix itself over time, have no idea. All you can do is try and fix it today through meds or therapy. I on a new med now and waiting to see if it's working. Don't think it is but at least I took action. If this doesn't work I'll try something else. You're on the right path. There was a long discussion about anxiety, focus, loss of concentration that I posted to my intro if you want to dig it up.

[Tuco]

Day 49
So on day 37 I wrote about "Trigger" from work. A bit more back story for you, "Trigger" would also be my father-in-law and the guy who had my position prior to going to rehab in 2010. Needless to say, he is not a fan of reporting to his son-in-law who also initiated the intervention that sent him to rehab.

Well, a few years ago Trigger decided in his infinite business wisdom that he was going to try his hand in the residential real estate development business. Well 2007/2008 was a great time (sarcasm) to put seven figures of borrowed money into real estate. Fast forward to today, I was served a subpoena to appear at a deposition and answer fun questions about how he defrauded the bank by falsifying financial statements in order to obtain the loan.

A few things that are really on my brain after a stressful day : 1) You can't run from the truth 2) It is past the time for me to look for another job 3) FU nic, you lose again today and I WIN free from your chains of oppression.

Anybody know of anything in the operational management / project management field in the Carolina's?

Yikes. I'm going to go ahead and say that you most certainly did not win in the Father-in-Law department. In this day and age, I still don't understand how it can escape people exactly how much banks really do like their money - and the lengths they will go to get it back. With interest.

Wish I could help you on the job front, but if it's any consolation, I will say that you are turning into quite a badass quitter in your own right. Proud to quit with you today. Keep on keepin' on.

[bradf]

Day 49
So on day 37 I wrote about "Trigger" from work. A bit more back story for you, "Trigger" would also be my father-in-law and the guy who had my position prior to going to rehab in 2010. Needless to say, he is not a fan of reporting to his son-in-law who also initiated the intervention that sent him to rehab.

Well, a few years ago Trigger decided in his infinite business wisdom that he was going to try his hand in the residential real estate development business. Well 2007/2008 was a great time (sarcasm) to put seven figures of borrowed money into real estate. Fast forward to today, I was served a subpoena to appear at a deposition and answer fun questions about how he defrauded the bank by falsifying financial statements in order to obtain the loan.

A few things that are really on my brain after a stressful day : 1) You can't run from the truth 2) It is past the time for me to look for another job 3) FU nic, you lose again today and I WIN free from your chains of oppression.

Anybody know of anything in the operational management / project management field in the Carolina's?

[bradf]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.

That's exactly the right attitude to keep, Brad. Talking to your doc for some peace of mind and to get some help with the anxiety shows that you're not taking any options off the table to keep your quit. The only option that isn't on the table is using nic, and that's what's most important.

Have fun on the solo Dad weekend. It's pretty nice being able to simply enjoy our families and a normal life without having to slink around and gameplan opportunities to pack some cat turds, isn't it?

Quit on, brother!

Keep grinding Brad. Eventually you will get back to normal...and that normal is way better than you've ever been as an adult because it's dip free. You got this.

PS I wish my wife went to the mountains on a girls weekend instead of to Saks Fifth Avenue. Definitely a keeper

Ranger, don't want to rain on your vision of my wife, but it is not like she is camping and roughing it. More of a moms wine consumption, show off what you have recently bought at saks kind of weekend. Still a keeper though.

[Dagranger]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.

That's exactly the right attitude to keep, Brad. Talking to your doc for some peace of mind and to get some help with the anxiety shows that you're not taking any options off the table to keep your quit. The only option that isn't on the table is using nic, and that's what's most important.

Have fun on the solo Dad weekend. It's pretty nice being able to simply enjoy our families and a normal life without having to slink around and gameplan opportunities to pack some cat turds, isn't it?

Quit on, brother!

Keep grinding Brad. Eventually you will get back to normal...and that normal is way better than you've ever been as an adult because it's dip free. You got this.

PS I wish my wife went to the mountains on a girls weekend instead of to Saks Fifth Avenue. Definitely a keeper

[Tuco]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.

That's exactly the right attitude to keep, Brad. Talking to your doc for some peace of mind and to get some help with the anxiety shows that you're not taking any options off the table to keep your quit. The only option that isn't on the table is using nic, and that's what's most important.

Have fun on the solo Dad weekend. It's pretty nice being able to simply enjoy our families and a normal life without having to slink around and gameplan opportunities to pack some cat turds, isn't it?

Quit on, brother!