hullo

[Its_Got2Happen]

says 38 on my days quit calculator... Worst non quit real life stress since I quit... I am a chef who does NOT work in an AC kitchen, schools out so my 6-7 hour m-f freedom is gone, and my wife is not bringing her "A" game this past week ( being kind here...). Top it all off with this chest cold sinus infection thing I got going on for the last week, and I am, for the first time in my quit, pissed off or depressed about things other than not crammin' cancer weed in my craw! Holy shit is this the stress non addicts deal with? Not sure I like my situation right now, but I know that caving would not help. I my be about to break through to a better place or my life my be in for radical change, but whatever may come I will face it nic free! FU nic and ust 'Finger'

Matt, I know exactly where you are right now. When I go back to my intro thread I was having thoughts and feelings just like you are saying right now. You will get through this man. Just keep putting up + ones. It gets so much better, I promise. I have been watching your journey from a distance and I can tell you are winning. If you need more digits please send me a PM and we can swap.


Ryan

[traumagnet]

Not sure who's quote this is but remember
Problem+nicotine = 2 problems. Non addicted peeps feel just like we do. We have convinced ourselves that nicotine fixed problems when the reality is that when a person that is addicted to nicotine is stressed the body breaks down nicotine and withdrawal happens. So a person dips more to maintain the nicotine level. Talk to Skoal monster he will give u the physiology of it. Keep strong pm me if u need anything keep your safety plan near this weekend. From what I hear there is a funk around the day u are on

[B-loMatt]

says 38 on my days quit calculator... Worst non quit real life stress since I quit... I am a chef who does NOT work in an AC kitchen, schools out so my 6-7 hour m-f freedom is gone, and my wife is not bringing her "A" game this past week ( being kind here...). Top it all off with this chest cold sinus infection thing I got going on for the last week, and I am, for the first time in my quit, pissed off or depressed about things other than not crammin' cancer weed in my craw! Holy shit is this the stress non addicts deal with? Not sure I like my situation right now, but I know that caving would not help. I my be about to break through to a better place or my life my be in for radical change, but whatever may come I will face it nic free! FU nic and ust 'Finger'

[srans]

37- Had a bad night last night- strongest "screw it!" moments of my quit so far, but the tools I now have stopped the nonsense. Holy crap it is a rollercoaster...

Good job b lo matt. You say what a rollercoaster. I say go rollercoaster go. Up and down with freedom. Side to side dignity. Around the corner with integrity. I say we keep on riding and never look back. Nothing back there but slavery to the poison. This is one bad mama jamba ride. Quit with you and whoever ain't scared to jump on this ride with us.

[B-loMatt]

37- Had a bad night last night- strongest "screw it!" moments of my quit so far, but the tools I now have stopped the nonsense. Holy crap it is a rollercoaster...

[Its_Got2Happen]

End 35: I QLF all day and it has been worth it. I had what I call micro craves today, maybe 4-5 of them. The crave comes, and within a second of realizing that I am having a crave I get pissed at nic and the crave is gone. Quitting this addiction leads to lots of rage so channeling that rage to it's proper target is the key! Love that srans and others have made the dark side so clear to me. KTC has been my lifeline for my quit and will continue to be. Quit today with all the bad-asses!

Youre killing it man. Keep up the great work.

[B-loMatt]

End 35: I QLF all day and it has been worth it. I had what I call micro craves today, maybe 4-5 of them. The crave comes, and within a second of realizing that I am having a crave I get pissed at nic and the crave is gone. Quitting this addiction leads to lots of rage so channeling that rage to it's proper target is the key! Love that srans and others have made the dark side so clear to me. KTC has been my lifeline for my quit and will continue to be. Quit today with all the bad-asses!

[B-loMatt]

Start 35: I love waking up and worrying about how much time I have to post roll and drink the Kool-Aid on KTC b4 I have to go to work. This is so much better than worrying if I had enough lip turd left to have a fat mouth full of poison first thing, or if I needed to rush off to work so I could re-up my supply at the c-store on the way! Month two and I feel I have hit a smooth patch where I am hardly thinking about dip at all; it is great. I am staying on my guard for complacency and bumps in the road, but I have definitely have pushed through srans' door.

[Sage]

END 33: Great shift at work, not busy but got lots of compliments from customers and servers about how much good food our kitchen is putting out! I only had 1 good wad of chewing gum all day as placebo. I am spittin' sunflower seeds now as an end of a quit day treat, but I am trying to cut down on the oral fixation BS. Biggest breakthough of the day: Zero craves! I had a crave free day??! No shite I barely thought about nic today; only when thinking about KTC did I have thoughts about my addiction! I know 2mro I might be crave city, but having a day free of struggle was awesome. never would have though the good days could start to come so soon! Thanks to all my bad assed quit heroes who have helped me get this far! I could not do this without KTC.

Getting past the 30's are so wonderful. So nice to get past the constant need for a dip. Will still get days with craves, but never again as bad. As long as you stay quit. From what I have read from your intro..not a problem for you since you have such an amazing attitude. GO Matt!

[B-loMatt]

END 33: Great shift at work, not busy but got lots of compliments from customers and servers about how much good food our kitchen is putting out! I only had 1 good wad of chewing gum all day as placebo. I am spittin' sunflower seeds now as an end of a quit day treat, but I am trying to cut down on the oral fixation BS. Biggest breakthough of the day: Zero craves! I had a crave free day??! No shite I barely thought about nic today; only when thinking about KTC did I have thoughts about my addiction! I know 2mro I might be crave city, but having a day free of struggle was awesome. never would have though the good days could start to come so soon! Thanks to all my bad assed quit heroes who have helped me get this far! I could not do this without KTC.

[srans]

33: worked late last night, and my girls were missing me so they got me up early to go to the local village festival and see Nickel City Reptiles. So I basically roll out of bed, eat breakfast, get dressed, and out the door all in a rush. Had a great time as there was a farmers market and vendors all over, met up with family and watched the animals etc., everything was groovy... Then I realized I hadn't thought about dip all morning and into the afternoon :D Only bad part was that in my rush this morning I forgot to post roll first thing. Hot damn I love being free. It does get easier. I know it will get hard again as well, but it was nice to have 5 hours without a thought or a whisper of the nic bitch.

Proud of you bro. I love to here stuff like this. Don't look now,,, your winning. I'm quit with you and enjoying every minute.

[B-loMatt]

33: worked late last night, and my girls were missing me so they got me up early to go to the local village festival and see Nickel City Reptiles. So I basically roll out of bed, eat breakfast, get dressed, and out the door all in a rush. Had a great time as there was a farmers market and vendors all over, met up with family and watched the animals etc., everything was groovy... Then I realized I hadn't thought about dip all morning and into the afternoon :D Only bad part was that in my rush this morning I forgot to post roll first thing. Hot damn I love being free. It does get easier. I know it will get hard again as well, but it was nice to have 5 hours without a thought or a whisper of the nic bitch.

[B-loMatt]

End 32- long night at work with only 1 fake dip as a placebo. Laughed at the nic bitch when I realized after every micro crave that I do not, never will, and never did need that poison in my mouth to have a 100% complete life experience. I can still see the dangers to my quit, but I have little fear of them getting to me so long as I keep doing what I am doing (thanks JRiz). PS feeling better for not slapping fat lip turds into my face while being ill! Rock on Quit I am loving freedom!

[jake frawley]

32- feel like crap today. Don't know if it's a sinus infection or a real bad cold, but I can't breath out of my nose, and my mouth is dry as hell with a sore throat... I would still be throwin' in fatties if I was still a slave. Thank God I am quit.

Dude! Everyone Including me in my area (2 hrs) from you has the same thing! My sinuses are jacked. Came on quick too!

[JRizzle]

Glad to have you in the Sep group. Just think about what you previously said: regardless of the suck, you have successfully quit the last 32 days. So today choose to do what you've chosen to do the last 32 days. Continue to choose to quit. You've done it successfully in the past and it's worked, it's been great. Choose to do it today. You know the way to win.