A New Day

[Diesel2112]

99 days of quit on the wall, 99 days of quit. However, instead of taking one down and passing it around - I am adding em up like I used to stack cans of cope early in my addiction.

I can vividly remember being 19 or 20 with a huge pyramid of empty cans on my dresser. How screwed up is that???

I am working on my HOF, but I wanted to post an update to my intro for two reasons. One, so I can look back and remember how quitting sucked those first few weeks. Two, it's a reminder to those in the the early stages of their quit. This too will pass.

I started counting down 72 hours from hell. I went through the worst fog I have ever experienced. For weeks, I could not focus on anything. I went through insomnia when I usually sleep like a rock. Then the depression hit. The depression / funk hit me like a brick. I flipped flopped between depression and anxiety. I have never had problems with either. Add on the 15 pounds of extra weight and you would wonder why would anyone even attempt to quit?

The answer is "this too will pass". I know that at 99 days, I am just starting this journey. However, my personality has returned. I am back to sleeping like a teenager. And the best part is that I am no longer poisoning myself with Nicotine. One can and does live without her.

Way to go man. Never met you, couldn't pick you out of a crowd of 1,000 people or a pair of 2, but I'm proud as hell of you.

I could feel your pain and worry in the begging, but like a fucking BOSS you stuck with it and now listen to you...you're back to feeling "normal" living life nic free and sound like a master of quit.

I said earlier it takes a bad ass mother fucker to quit this shit cold turkey. You proved your a bad mama jamma. Well done. Proud to be quit with you.

Stick around. The trip to the 2nd floor is much quicker.

[SirDerek]

99 days of quit on the wall, 99 days of quit. However, instead of taking one down and passing it around - I am adding em up like I used to stack cans of cope early in my addiction.

I can vividly remember being 19 or 20 with a huge pyramid of empty cans on my dresser. How screwed up is that???

I am working on my HOF, but I wanted to post an update to my intro for two reasons. One, so I can look back and remember how quitting sucked those first few weeks. Two, it's a reminder to those in the the early stages of their quit. This too will pass.

I started counting down 72 hours from hell. I went through the worst fog I have ever experienced. For weeks, I could not focus on anything. I went through insomnia when I usually sleep like a rock. Then the depression hit. The depression / funk hit me like a brick. I flipped flopped between depression and anxiety. I have never had problems with either. Add on the 15 pounds of extra weight and you would wonder why would anyone even attempt to quit?

The answer is "this too will pass". I know that at 99 days, I am just starting this journey. However, my personality has returned. I am back to sleeping like a teenager. And the best part is that I am no longer poisoning myself with Nicotine. One can and does live without her.

'clap'

atta boy there builder. and just remember that another best part is what you have learned in these days to apply for the rest of your life. So keep putting up those +1's.

I quit with you today on the eve of your hall.

[jbuilder7916]

99 days of quit on the wall, 99 days of quit. However, instead of taking one down and passing it around - I am adding em up like I used to stack cans of cope early in my addiction.

I can vividly remember being 19 or 20 with a huge pyramid of empty cans on my dresser. How screwed up is that???

I am working on my HOF, but I wanted to post an update to my intro for two reasons. One, so I can look back and remember how quitting sucked those first few weeks. Two, it's a reminder to those in the the early stages of their quit. This too will pass.

I started counting down 72 hours from hell. I went through the worst fog I have ever experienced. For weeks, I could not focus on anything. I went through insomnia when I usually sleep like a rock. Then the depression hit. The depression / funk hit me like a brick. I flipped flopped between depression and anxiety. I have never had problems with either. Add on the 15 pounds of extra weight and you would wonder why would anyone even attempt to quit?

The answer is "this too will pass". I know that at 99 days, I am just starting this journey. However, my personality has returned. I am back to sleeping like a teenager. And the best part is that I am no longer poisoning myself with Nicotine. One can and does live without her.

[cdaniels]

Wow, day 50. In the past 18 years I have never quit longer than one week. Craves are still here, but less frequently. I am mostly out of the fog and for that I am thankful. I also want to say a huge thanks to so many with KTC. I know that I would never have made it with out reading the HOF speech's, and the wise words of encouragement from so many vets.

proud of you. keep up the quit. glad to be quit with you

[jbuilder7916]

Wow, day 50. In the past 18 years I have never quit longer than one week. Craves are still here, but less frequently. I am mostly out of the fog and for that I am thankful. I also want to say a huge thanks to so many with KTC. I know that I would never have made it with out reading the HOF speech's, and the wise words of encouragement from so many vets.

[Wt57]

Thanksgiving.  Quit day #24.  On a positive note I could tell there was a measurable difference in the quality of how good food tastes.  I actually tried and liked some things that I have never wanted before.

On a down side, I finally realized that I do have a mild case of depression.  I have always been a happy go lucky person.  I thought my fog was due to the lack of sleep in the early part of my quit.  However, even though my sleep has returned there is something still amiss.  I plan on seeing my doctor early next week. 

I found a couple of things on the web site www.whyquit.com that I found helpful.  First -- "Nicotine is a colorless, odorless, organic-based alkaloid in the same family as cocaine, morphine, quinine and strychnine. It is a super toxin, fetal teratogen and natural insecticide that was sold in the U.S. as Black Leaf 40. The lethal dose needed to kill a 160 pound human is 2-3 drops or about 60mg. Drop for drop it is more deadly than strychnine (75mg), diamond back rattlesnake venom (100mg), arsenic (200mg) or cyanide (500mg)."    AND I ASK MYSELF WHY WOULD I EVER WANT THAT IN MY SYSTEM AGAIN!!!

Second, The Law of Addiction


"Administration of a drug to an addict will cause re-establishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance."

The super toxin / natural insecticide was out of my system 21 days ago.  However, I am just one dip away from the re-establishment of the chemical dependence on a product more deadly than rattlesnake venom.  I must tell my self this today, again tomorrow and again the next day.  I shall not worry about next week, next month, or next year.  I shall not worry about what my HOF speech will say.  I am only one dip away from the re-establishment of a chemical dependence upon the addictive substance more deadly than cyanide. 

I will be honest, when reading this one would be stupid to want another chew.  However, as I suck my ranch seeds, I am fighting a big crave.  But, I promised my Feb 2013 class that I would not use today.  So today I will not break that promise.

172 days and I can tell you this shit ain't always easy. But...it is definately worth it. I cant even describe how great it feels to be free of this shit.

As the days go by and the little battles are won, it does get easier. I PROMISE.

Nicotine is a motherfucker, just read what you wrote. However NOTHING is more powerful than the motivated human body/brain, especially when its coupled with the support of like minded people.

It takes one bad mother fucker to quit nicotine cold turkey. Not sure about you, but I get off on being lumped in with bad ass mother tucker's. You can do it bro and we are here to help.

Mild depression is not uncommon either so don't sweat that too much. Just keep battling. You're doing the right thing. You know and so do we. You got this shit!!!

Your working on a great quit today jbuilder. Quitting is what we've all wanted but didn't have tools to be successful! Now you have the opportunity win with the tools you are in the process of aquiring. As your daily successes build so does confidence!

[redtrain14]

Quitting is like a roller coaster....lots of highs and LOTS of lows.

Stay the course, and very soon the hills and valleys will flatten right out.

[Diesel2112]

Thanksgiving. Quit day #24. On a positive note I could tell there was a measurable difference in the quality of how good food tastes. I actually tried and liked some things that I have never wanted before.

On a down side, I finally realized that I do have a mild case of depression. I have always been a happy go lucky person. I thought my fog was due to the lack of sleep in the early part of my quit. However, even though my sleep has returned there is something still amiss. I plan on seeing my doctor early next week.

I found a couple of things on the web site www.whyquit.com that I found helpful. First -- "Nicotine is a colorless, odorless, organic-based alkaloid in the same family as cocaine, morphine, quinine and strychnine. It is a super toxin, fetal teratogen and natural insecticide that was sold in the U.S. as Black Leaf 40. The lethal dose needed to kill a 160 pound human is 2-3 drops or about 60mg. Drop for drop it is more deadly than strychnine (75mg), diamond back rattlesnake venom (100mg), arsenic (200mg) or cyanide (500mg)." AND I ASK MYSELF WHY WOULD I EVER WANT THAT IN MY SYSTEM AGAIN!!!

Second, The Law of Addiction


"Administration of a drug to an addict will cause re-establishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance."

The super toxin / natural insecticide was out of my system 21 days ago. However, I am just one dip away from the re-establishment of the chemical dependence on a product more deadly than rattlesnake venom. I must tell my self this today, again tomorrow and again the next day. I shall not worry about next week, next month, or next year. I shall not worry about what my HOF speech will say. I am only one dip away from the re-establishment of a chemical dependence upon the addictive substance more deadly than cyanide.

I will be honest, when reading this one would be stupid to want another chew. However, as I suck my ranch seeds, I am fighting a big crave. But, I promised my Feb 2013 class that I would not use today. So today I will not break that promise.

172 days and I can tell you this shit ain't always easy. But...it is definately worth it. I cant even describe how great it feels to be free of this shit.

As the days go by and the little battles are won, it does get easier. I PROMISE.

Nicotine is a motherfucker, just read what you wrote. However NOTHING is more powerful than the motivated human body/brain, especially when its coupled with the support of like minded people.

It takes one bad mother fucker to quit nicotine cold turkey. Not sure about you, but I get off on being lumped in with bad ass mother tucker's. You can do it bro and we are here to help.

Mild depression is not uncommon either so don't sweat that too much. Just keep battling. You're doing the right thing. You know and so do we. You got this shit!!!

[jbuilder7916]

Thanksgiving. Quit day #24. On a positive note I could tell there was a measurable difference in the quality of how good food tastes. I actually tried and liked some things that I have never wanted before.

On a down side, I finally realized that I do have a mild case of depression. I have always been a happy go lucky person. I thought my fog was due to the lack of sleep in the early part of my quit. However, even though my sleep has returned there is something still amiss. I plan on seeing my doctor early next week.

I found a couple of things on the web site www.whyquit.com that I found helpful. First -- "Nicotine is a colorless, odorless, organic-based alkaloid in the same family as cocaine, morphine, quinine and strychnine. It is a super toxin, fetal teratogen and natural insecticide that was sold in the U.S. as Black Leaf 40. The lethal dose needed to kill a 160 pound human is 2-3 drops or about 60mg. Drop for drop it is more deadly than strychnine (75mg), diamond back rattlesnake venom (100mg), arsenic (200mg) or cyanide (500mg)." AND I ASK MYSELF WHY WOULD I EVER WANT THAT IN MY SYSTEM AGAIN!!!

Second, The Law of Addiction


"Administration of a drug to an addict will cause re-establishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance."

The super toxin / natural insecticide was out of my system 21 days ago. However, I am just one dip away from the re-establishment of the chemical dependence on a product more deadly than rattlesnake venom. I must tell my self this today, again tomorrow and again the next day. I shall not worry about next week, next month, or next year. I shall not worry about what my HOF speech will say. I am only one dip away from the re-establishment of a chemical dependence upon the addictive substance more deadly than cyanide.

I will be honest, when reading this one would be stupid to want another chew. However, as I suck my ranch seeds, I am fighting a big crave. But, I promised my Feb 2013 class that I would not use today. So today I will not break that promise.

[jbuilder7916]

Day 16. A habit that started day by day in 1994 can be beaten a day at a time.

I have actually found that I like decaf green tea over the Smokey Mountain classic. I think the Cayenne Pepper was giving me heartburn. Craves are erratic now. Some times it's hours of smooth sailing and then "BAM". Other times the craves are a constant thing.

My regular sleep routine has returned - Hallelujah!!! I tried Melatonin for a few days there, but it didn't seem to help. My body just needed to adjust. This will be a reminder that I never want to do this again.

[SirDerek]

Shawnov - You are the second person who mentioned coffee grounds. I might pick up some de-caf, since a pinch of Folgers in my cheek for most of the day would prob keep me up all night. 'Crazy'

I am on day 10. Speaking of sleep, last night was the first night I slept more than 4 hours. I woke up twice but settled back down within a few minutes. The past week, I would fall asleep only to wake up and hour or so later, stay up for two hours and repeat the process all night.

Found that a local store carries Smokey Mountain chew. I have found the "classic" is the closest to my old foe Copenhagen. Chewing the fake stuff is kind of a mixed blessing. I guess because I went eight days or so on seeds  jerkey. I was fighting the craves and adjusting my routine. Now with each crave  based on my old schedule, I pop in a fake chew. I realize that at some point, I will need to also kick the oral fixation habit.

My sore throat is gone and I can feel myself walking out of the fog. Going to the bathroom is starting to be normal again (AMEN). However, the past couple of days I have been hit with some serious heartburn. Wondering if it's the Cayenne powder in the fake chew?

Finally, I just wanted to say thanks again for the community of KTC. Looking forward to posting my day 100, but focusing on staying quit here at day 10 and pledging roll call.

Hey JB -

just be careful and if you use the coffe grinds to make sure it is fully ground (I tried that once and the grind was not too fine and ripped up my lip as bad as the crap.)

I found that OTC Melatonin does help with the sleep. I use it when I go for more than a day with a bad night, and one night with it usually gets me back on track.

And don;t woryy with the fake stuff, as there is nothing that holds you to doing it, so if you do it to break the nic bitch, then it will fade away when you want to quit it (I use Hooch, and very little at that, where the last tin I had lasted  3 weeks).

I quit with you today my friend.

[jbuilder7916]

Shawnov - You are the second person who mentioned coffee grounds. I might pick up some de-caf, since a pinch of Folgers in my cheek for most of the day would prob keep me up all night. 'Crazy'

I am on day 10. Speaking of sleep, last night was the first night I slept more than 4 hours. I woke up twice but settled back down within a few minutes. The past week, I would fall asleep only to wake up and hour or so later, stay up for two hours and repeat the process all night.

Found that a local store carries Smokey Mountain chew. I have found the "classic" is the closest to my old foe Copenhagen. Chewing the fake stuff is kind of a mixed blessing. I guess because I went eight days or so on seeds  jerkey. I was fighting the craves and adjusting my routine. Now with each crave  based on my old schedule, I pop in a fake chew. I realize that at some point, I will need to also kick the oral fixation habit.

My sore throat is gone and I can feel myself walking out of the fog. Going to the bathroom is starting to be normal again (AMEN). However, the past couple of days I have been hit with some serious heartburn. Wondering if it's the Cayenne powder in the fake chew?

Finally, I just wanted to say thanks again for the community of KTC. Looking forward to posting my day 100, but focusing on staying quit here at day 10 and pledging roll call.

[shawnov]

hey congrats on the quit.. i am 12 days in, what has been working for me is chewing coffee grounds

[SirDerek]

Day 6 and I am still quit. So far, I have been using sunflower seeds, almonds, beef jerky and dried fruit. However, I am seriously thinking about getting some fake chew. My mouth is shot (I think from all the salt). I have felt horrible the past two days. Mostly it's still lack of sleep, mouth soreness and a terrible sore throat. All of the above you guys warned me about. I went ahead and went to the Dr, just in case. Doctor found a small touch of sinus infection, but I am now certain it's just my body adjusting.

I had a couple of bad craves today. Mostly due to situational things, since I haven't gone a full week yet. My body was saying, hey after lunch on Sunday you put your daughter down for a nap and then have some computer time aka w/ a fatty. Rationalizing with self -- " Hello John -- you shouldn't need to rush your baby girl off to bed, so you fill your body full of poison." I have three kids and I must stay quit as an example to them. I might look crazy arguing with myself, but at least I am still nicotine free.

Keep up the good strength there JB - I argue with myself all the time too.

Each day now becomes another victory to help strengthen your quit.

Keep on doing it for yourself and you will gain all the benefits that will surround it.

I quit with you today.

[jbuilder7916]

Day 6 and I am still quit. So far, I have been using sunflower seeds, almonds, beef jerky and dried fruit. However, I am seriously thinking about getting some fake chew. My mouth is shot (I think from all the salt). I have felt horrible the past two days. Mostly it's still lack of sleep, mouth soreness and a terrible sore throat. All of the above you guys warned me about. I went ahead and went to the Dr, just in case. Doctor found a small touch of sinus infection, but I am now certain it's just my body adjusting.

I had a couple of bad craves today. Mostly due to situational things, since I haven't gone a full week yet. My body was saying, hey after lunch on Sunday you put your daughter down for a nap and then have some computer time aka w/ a fatty. Rationalizing with self -- " Hello John -- you shouldn't need to rush your baby girl off to bed, so you fill your body full of poison." I have three kids and I must stay quit as an example to them. I might look crazy arguing with myself, but at least I am still nicotine free.