So Day 10 is not all sunshine and rainbows, but it's a hell of a lot better than any day so far. I'm enjoying the mental clarity that comes with my quit. Thanks Exnuke, Horseman, srans, jzzyzaq and others for the great support. Makes the grind a little easier each day. Quit on everybody!
Some days are easier than others. That's a fact of life.
The important thing to remember is that going back to the can solves nothing. In fact, it adds more problems.
Your body still thinks it needs the drug because it wants it. I like to compare this feeling to making a drive with a GPS for years. The nicotine has programmed your brain into thinking you can't navigate life without it. The roads are too confusing, and you'll probably just end up lost.
When you quit, you toss the GPS and start mapping your own actions. You start paying attention to the world in front of you instead of mindlessly feeding your addiction and hoping that it will solve your pain. YOU decide how to start your journey and what roads to take. Sometimes you're not as efficient because you're learning, but you will be. You'll be able to map it all out soon enough. Fuck that computer. All it teaches you to be is mindless.
I'm 922 days quit today, and I couldn't think straight at all yesterday. It had nothing to do with nicotine. It's just another fact of life. That's the other funny thing about this drug. There will be good times and bad, and they aren't predicated on whether you use or whether you don't. But your brain will tell you it does because that's the way the drug works: It releases feel good chemicals in your brain so your body doesn't have to. When you quit, your body has to do this on its own and its like starting a lawnmower after a cold winter.
These first few days are not fun. I remember. The first week is physically painful, and then a burst of adrenaline takes over. You'll be back and forth like a pendulum for a little while: There's a funk in the late teens that makes you think you're cured, and there's a funk in the 40s that feels like its the first week again. In between that is a lot more good (so don't just focus on the bad). Get through it, and eventually you'll become more and more centered to the free side of YOU.
You're fucking rocking this man, and your quit is inspiring to us all. We got your back if you need it, and if you are strong enough, get someone else's back. This site is only as strong as its weakest link, and I will spend all fucking day with you today if you need it.
Wanna know why?
Because that roll call you signed this morning was both your battle cry and cry for help in this war. We couldn't make you come here and do it. That is all you. But, that battle cry lets all of us warriors know you're it's time to engage in war. Your lone cry is soon joined by others until soon it is causing avalanches on nearby mountains because of its sheer volume. Together, we stand. Divided, we fall.
Let's.fucking.do.this.
