Welcome Jcourch and I am proud of you that you have shown the courage to post.
This site is great and it can be what you need it to be. I found it weeks ago, and then I started rationalizing a planed quit next month. The more I read the more I realized my addicted brain was making false rationalizations to keep shoveling poison into my pie hole. I was out fishing and I kept thinking about KTC which I had been lurking on for days.
On my way home from the lake I spit out a dip, tossed a half a can walked in the door and told my wife and the kids I'm done...now, today, for good, and I showed my wife the website. It was KTC that drove that decision.
Plan quits are planeed failures, I know from experience. This site will be different for everyone, but I find a strange sense of accountability to a bunch of people I don't even know. I dont, post a lot, but I look at the site all the time, I read the posts on my computer, I get thread updates on my Android ad the KTC emblem is etched in my forebrain....and I love it.
I look forward to posting roll and do it as soon as I wake up, before my coffee, whether its 6 am in Utah or 3 am in New York City. I love posting roll because I know I will not dip that day period. Even now going into day 12, I'm doing pretty good, not ready to jump off the bridge, far from it, in fact I'm doing pretty great. Yes I want to chew, but it's funny how I see the triggers. Plop down and pull out the laptop, my nic addiction says CHEW, but I say NO. I say have a toothpick, and what I say goes. Period, end of story because I posted roll.
Sounds kinda weird I know, but I feel very empowered by the site and the extreme nature of this bunch of quitters, long term, newbies, and everything in between I have seen on this site and the level of comittmant and camraderie everyone genuinely seems to share.
Post Roll brother and lets be quit together, the first few days suck but the other side makes you feel pretty damed good about yourself, and shows you just how strong you can be.
