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[tfurrh]

I blame it on May....I'd cave just to get out of that group too. July looks pretty cool; THE REVOLUTIONARIES

[ScooterScum]

God Damnit Gooch this shit is getting really old!!!!!! 'blowup' 'blowup' You would be aproaching 365 days if you would have stayed quit!!!!! This site is about quitting, and it's a simple plan, post your word that day that you will not dip, keep your word, then repeat each day after that!!! It's not post roll for a while (in your case over 100 days) then cave, come back appologize, post day 1 then cave again!!!! I am fucking pissed!!!!! Seems like almost every post in introductions today is from cavers who are posting up a day 1, instead of new quitters looking to save their lives. What really makes me mad is you cavers won't even explain why you caved, what caused you to cave, what you did wrong to cause the cave, or what you are going to do different this time to make damn sure you don't cave and how you are going to keep your word to your brothers. 'bang head' Believe me, I want you and other cavers to succeed in your quit, and I will support you in that effort. But by God I am sick and tired of guys like you who shit all over this site and the good people who are trying to help you!!! :angry: :angry: You could have been a great role model and supporter for new quitters by now, instead we have to keep wasting time helping you out with your multiple quits. I'm sorry, but you have a ton of credibility to repair before most will give you the time of day!!!! I am sure their are many people who have spent their valuable time helping and supporting you for the last year, only to see you shit on them everytime. Welcome to July 2009 and here's hoping that you are serious about saving your life this time, and not just shitting on another quit group!!!! And yes I am going to post this over in July, I think they deserve to know what you are all about before they waste time on you. You are going to have to prove yourself to this entire site, this time, and if there is such a thing as last chances, you are on it!!!!!

[Smokeyg]

...you will regret a cave immediately after it happens.   

Bullshit, I will never regret a cave.

It's a shame you just shat all over the May group. Sounds like they were there for you the entire time. Hopefully July will hold your hand as well and you won't spit on their feet too. Quitting nicotine is more than a physical process. You need to redefine your priorities. How valuable is your word? Can you be trusted? Do you even deserve this?

[bnlelliott]

Gooch...

As with last time...anything I can do to help let me know.

Brian

[bearattack]

Dam..... I support you.... Glad to here hav ing a dip made u feel like a dickhead.... That what I suspect a cave would feel like....
Personally I just don't want to give up my days.... Don't give up your days again, or we will have to hurt you...
Don't worry we won't tell your wife..... Like in the movie goodfellas " we provide protection for those that can't tell the cops (or your wiv es)

Fukukodiak
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[Gooch]

First off, thanks to Kodiak Dan and NMC. You guys are a huge part of why I'm writing this today. A lot of you guys know me as I'm no stranger to this site. For those of you who don't, read on as you may learn from my mistake.
Two weekends ago I was sitting on day 48 with anticipation of hitting the mini milestone of 50 the following Monday. I let my guard down, plain and simple. I Let myself, my family and all of you down. For that I apoligize. Know this, I bought a can of Skoal straight on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday(April 5-7th). I didn't post roll on those days, not that it makes it right... I'm just saying. On Tuesday(April 7th), I was wrapping up the day at work when Kodiak Dan called out of the blue. God bless you Dan because your call and words of inquiry and support made a huge difference. Started processing what had happened an the downward spiral I was heading down. I went home, flushed what remained in my tin and have been quit ever since(Day 6).
I made a poor choice that day and the next two that followed. I let myself, my family and you guys down. For that I do apoligize. I will never attempt to make an excuse for such behavior because there is no valid reason to start using again and never will be. Listen to me when I say there was no gratification from that first chew, only feelings of guilt and regret. Learn from my fuck up fellas, you will regret a cave immediately after it happens.
I write this so you all know exactly what happened to me. I worry that some of you will look at me as the "boy who cried wolf." This is now my 3rd go round on this site. If you take nothing else away from this, remember this- Keep your guard up at all times. Don't ever think you're bigger than your addiction. I made that mistake and here I am yet again. I will be posting in July, Day 6 immediately after wrapping up this message.
Thank's again Dan and NMC, you guys are the best.

Gooch

[husky243]

Gooch, great decision to quit and thanks for posting that you were HOF. I am only on day 12 but your post reinforces the need to go a day at a time! I'm off the next few days and will be on here alot, shoot me a pm if ya need to bs...we all know the first few days suck, but are worth it!

[Kdip]

I am sure more people go back to dip after HOF than we will ever know. I quit for a year or more on my own one time and one day decided I wanted to dip again and did so for at least 5 years before hitting bottom again. It would be harder this time around since i would get my ass whooped by a lot of folks on this site. Welcome back Gooch

[bnlelliott]

Gooch...where you at bro...I need you to post roll

Brian

[Gooch]

Thanks for the feedback scooter. My plan is to take each day as it comes. Eventually, when I'm thinking a little clearer I will indeed process through my thinking leading up to my cave. If doing so can help me or someone else from making a similar mistake, so be it.

[ScooterScum]

Some of you may remember me, others not.  Made the HOF last July.  I'm back today posting day 1.  A bit humbling but something I need to do.  I'm not offering any excuses.  Simply put, I screwed up.  Quit posting roll and the wheels eventually came flying off.  This is my new quit.  By posting roll this morning I promise to stay off the chew today.  I know the next few days are going to be super shitty but I did it to myself and now will suffer the consequences willingly.

Well Shit!!!!!!!

Just goes to show that making the HOF doesn't mean you are cured of this addiction. It is something that will have to be dealt with on a daily basis for the rest of ourt lives. At least you were smart enough to Kick the can again and start a new quit! Maybe if you shared the story of what happened to cause your cave, it will help someone else that is in the same situation. Good luck and stay quit!!!!!!

[Gooch]

Some of you may remember me, others not. Made the HOF last July. I'm back today posting day 1. A bit humbling but something I need to do. I'm not offering any excuses. Simply put, I screwed up. Quit posting roll and the wheels eventually came flying off. This is my new quit. By posting roll this morning I promise to stay off the chew today. I know the next few days are going to be super shitty but I did it to myself and now will suffer the consequences willingly.

[Gooch]

Thanks Mule, hadn't thought of the sponge bath yet. You might be on to something there. They haven't let me eat anything since admitted, as potent as that chili might be it still sounds damn good.

[mule]

Not really an introduction as some of you know. Just wanted to share something quick. Was hospitalized yesterday with a bowel obstruction. No worries however, got things "moving" again this morning. Damn that Demerol is amazing, where was it when I was going through withdrawl. What I wanted to share with you guys is the first thought that went through my head when I realized I was going to be hospitalized was "oh shit, how am I gonna post role?" Having had time to reflect on that thought, I think it shows my level of committment to this quit and more than anything I guess I'm pretty proud of that. How did I post this morning you might ask? Conned a student nurse into letting me borrow one of the hospital's laptops. On a sidenote, she's really hot. Not sure what else I can "con" her into.(Just Kidding, I'm a married man.)
Gooch

oooo oooo oooo sponge bath....

Congrats gooch. That is the thinkin that has kept me quit and is workin on you. Hope your "obstruction" gets straightened out.

When you have an opportunity, go to the 02 etc Old Timers group.....Mahum has sum chili that could probably have kept you out of the hospital. _

[loot]

....and the light goes on....

looks like we got us a quitter up in here