December '16 will be opening up soon. Means we Dec'15 Disciples are approaching one year. WOW one year free from slavery. So many great things have happened in a year of quit. Some sad ones too.
All of these things would have been excuses to have a dip. Ups and downs, happy or sad, we addicts use all of it as excuses for another dip. I met some really great people at the nasty ninth PA meet up at
Boelker62Â’s place 2 weeks ago. Guys who struggle ODAAT just like me. Guys asked me how long I chewed and how I found KTC. Gave them my story and figured I would share it here as well. I am not a writer so bear with me.
With a year behind us, I knew discussions would develop in our group about posting roll. These usually come up at all the markers, HOF, 200, 300, 1yr, half comma, 6th floor, 7th floor….. I get it we are confident ( not cocky), of the 23 of us that are left from the original 60 or so almost half are posting 100%. It’s great stuff and a testament to our resolve to be quit. You see in 2008 I quit as a promise to my mom. She was dying of cancer, never drank, never smoked. Brain cancer that metastasized to lungs and then everywhere. She made me promise I would stop chewing. I did. I was stopped for 5 years. Then one night late spring, I was headed home and stopped for gas,walked into the store and bought a tin. That was 2013. Told myself all the lies. Just a dip on the way home then I’ll toss the can. Next day… just a dip on the way into work. Lies after lies. Two years later I was still dipping. It tour me up inside that I broke that promise to my mom. My wife thought I was still quit……you all know the drill. I did not know what KTC was, but I knew sitting on my back deck one night last September that I needed help QUITTING this time and not stopping. That’s when I typed “help quitting chew” in the google search bar, and up popped KTC. In reality I was looking for someone or some thing to tell me to use replacement therapy or a pill or something.Anything to not make me go through the hell I went through in ’08. No such luck. Cold turkey and man up is what I got. I am thankful ever since. Now at close to one year quit I sit hear typing this, the KTC system works. Could we quit on our own, probably. I couldn’t. Let’s post a promise to each other and keep it for the day. Let’s stay accountable to each other, because without it 5yrs can go down the drain. Thanks to all of you for helping me get back to that promise from 8yrs ago.
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