I’ve let this sit for 80 days. A lot has happened in 80 days, yet one thing has stayed the same. I’m still quit.
I’ve forgotten, most of the first few weeks, other than the suck of quitting. If anything else happened in that first 21 days it was masked by the shit pile that were my detox symptoms.
Mostly I wanted to add something in here to mark making it through the Funk. Holy crap did that suck, and honestly I’m still not sure what to think about it.....
Somewhere in the mid 60s my mind decided it had 2 options, be an angry prick, or be full on depressed. So that’s a good time. During this week or so, I had decided that was just me now, and it wasn’t a “funk”. Weird, and I’m glad it was just the funk. Because I was a real pain in the ass.
To make it through that funk, I stuck to my routines; be involved in KTC and with my quit friends every day, keep running and hitting the gym, very limited if any alcohol, and a promise to stay nic free EDD when I woke up.
Guess what? I woke up on morning around 72, and I felt totally different. No shit, literally overnight. I have felt better, more normal, more motivated, more positive than I have since I can remember.
The funk sucked, but it was the biggest achievement to overcome since my initial quit. So F off nicotine! I’ve got this.