My Quit

[WTQ10]

The past few days have been a little bit of a funk. Not a funk of a physical nature, in fact very few cravings at all.

This funk was worse though, it was the beginning of the mind games that the nic bitch will continue to try and play on me. The past few days had me questioning whether or not I was an addict. I mean I'm 19 year old, 19 year olds can't be addicts, right? I've only been dipping for a few years, you can't be addicted for only dipping for a few years, right? Nevertheless I gave my word, and it is a word I have stuck to.

Well it became very clear to me today that I am an addict though. I came down with strep throat for the 4th time in the past 6 months. I could think back to the other times having strep, each time I sacrificed the pain in my mouth to give way to my addiction. And I can honestly say today, the urge to do so was no different. Here I am sitting in a room, throwing up, running a fever and on all sorts of medicine and all I could think about was ya know, I'm not really an addict, am I? I mean one won't hurt right.

Well one will hurt. One will ruin my dreams, my aspirations, and all the things I want/will accomplish in my life. I realize now that I am an addict. Not because I wanted a dip when while I had strep throat, but I am an addict because I used to be willing to put nicotine in front of the rest of my life. I was willing to make it priority number one. But no more.

You'll never hear me say I'm never going back, because I don't have control of the future. I only have control of the present. In the present I am saying no to tobacco. I am saying no to placing tobacco as the number 1 thing in my life.

Today I am free, tomorrow we will see. Just know if I give you my word, I'm sticking to it.

Damn I wish I could've been this smart when I was 19. Your life will be so much better without dip. Never again. Never one more. Not today.

Exactly what I was thinking, NDY. Proud to be quit with you guys today!

Sweet Jesus......you are 19 and have enough sense to quit dipping?????? Virtually unheard of. I will quit with you EVERYDAY. It's that important. If I can help a young guy with his life ahead of him quit I will gladly do so. When I was 19 there was no way I even considered quitting...much less made an actual effort to do so. I waited until I was 41 to quit. That was 26 years worth. Shit by the time you are 30 (Which is still young by the way - even though you may not think it) you will have been quit for 11 years. Check your PM bro. Im with you.

I can't take full responsibility for my quit. I had a lot of support from my family and friends. Dipping had gotten to the point where I was withdrawing from the people that I loved and cared about. It was damaging relationships and it took me a couple years to realize that.

There is a long line of tobacco dependence in my family. A lot of these family members have turned into statistics as their addictions took them to early graves. I didn't want to be a statistic.

I never wanted tobacco to take over my life, but it did. When I realized that it had (16 days ago) I knew I had to take it back. I pray I make it to 30 dip free (11 years quit) but thanks to not only your support but many other generous individuals here at KTC I know I have to quit for today and today only.

I want to thank everyone here for there support, and I hope to be around here long enough that I can successfully quit, and aide others in their quit as well.

Stay strong, and quit like fuck everyone.

[Morgan1]

The past few days have been a little bit of a funk. Not a funk of a physical nature, in fact very few cravings at all.

This funk was worse though, it was the beginning of the mind games that the nic bitch will continue to try and play on me. The past few days had me questioning whether or not I was an addict. I mean I'm 19 year old, 19 year olds can't be addicts, right? I've only been dipping for a few years, you can't be addicted for only dipping for a few years, right? Nevertheless I gave my word, and it is a word I have stuck to.

Well it became very clear to me today that I am an addict though. I came down with strep throat for the 4th time in the past 6 months. I could think back to the other times having strep, each time I sacrificed the pain in my mouth to give way to my addiction. And I can honestly say today, the urge to do so was no different. Here I am sitting in a room, throwing up, running a fever and on all sorts of medicine and all I could think about was ya know, I'm not really an addict, am I? I mean one won't hurt right.

Well one will hurt. One will ruin my dreams, my aspirations, and all the things I want/will accomplish in my life. I realize now that I am an addict. Not because I wanted a dip when while I had strep throat, but I am an addict because I used to be willing to put nicotine in front of the rest of my life. I was willing to make it priority number one. But no more.

You'll never hear me say I'm never going back, because I don't have control of the future. I only have control of the present. In the present I am saying no to tobacco. I am saying no to placing tobacco as the number 1 thing in my life.

Today I am free, tomorrow we will see. Just know if I give you my word, I'm sticking to it.

Damn I wish I could've been this smart when I was 19. Your life will be so much better without dip. Never again. Never one more. Not today.

Exactly what I was thinking, NDY. Proud to be quit with you guys today!

Sweet Jesus......you are 19 and have enough sense to quit dipping?????? Virtually unheard of. I will quit with you EVERYDAY. It's that important. If I can help a young guy with his life ahead of him quit I will gladly do so. When I was 19 there was no way I even considered quitting...much less made an actual effort to do so. I waited until I was 41 to quit. That was 26 years worth. Shit by the time you are 30 (Which is still young by the way - even though you may not think it) you will have been quit for 11 years. Check your PM bro. Im with you.

[Willy_MN]

The past few days have been a little bit of a funk. Not a funk of a physical nature, in fact very few cravings at all.

This funk was worse though, it was the beginning of the mind games that the nic bitch will continue to try and play on me. The past few days had me questioning whether or not I was an addict. I mean I'm 19 year old, 19 year olds can't be addicts, right? I've only been dipping for a few years, you can't be addicted for only dipping for a few years, right? Nevertheless I gave my word, and it is a word I have stuck to.

Well it became very clear to me today that I am an addict though. I came down with strep throat for the 4th time in the past 6 months. I could think back to the other times having strep, each time I sacrificed the pain in my mouth to give way to my addiction. And I can honestly say today, the urge to do so was no different. Here I am sitting in a room, throwing up, running a fever and on all sorts of medicine and all I could think about was ya know, I'm not really an addict, am I? I mean one won't hurt right.

Well one will hurt. One will ruin my dreams, my aspirations, and all the things I want/will accomplish in my life. I realize now that I am an addict. Not because I wanted a dip when while I had strep throat, but I am an addict because I used to be willing to put nicotine in front of the rest of my life. I was willing to make it priority number one. But no more.

You'll never hear me say I'm never going back, because I don't have control of the future. I only have control of the present. In the present I am saying no to tobacco. I am saying no to placing tobacco as the number 1 thing in my life.

Today I am free, tomorrow we will see. Just know if I give you my word, I'm sticking to it.

Damn I wish I could've been this smart when I was 19. Your life will be so much better without dip. Never again. Never one more. Not today.

Exactly what I was thinking, NDY. Proud to be quit with you guys today!

[Notdeadyet]

The past few days have been a little bit of a funk. Not a funk of a physical nature, in fact very few cravings at all.

This funk was worse though, it was the beginning of the mind games that the nic bitch will continue to try and play on me. The past few days had me questioning whether or not I was an addict. I mean I'm 19 year old, 19 year olds can't be addicts, right? I've only been dipping for a few years, you can't be addicted for only dipping for a few years, right? Nevertheless I gave my word, and it is a word I have stuck to.

Well it became very clear to me today that I am an addict though. I came down with strep throat for the 4th time in the past 6 months. I could think back to the other times having strep, each time I sacrificed the pain in my mouth to give way to my addiction. And I can honestly say today, the urge to do so was no different. Here I am sitting in a room, throwing up, running a fever and on all sorts of medicine and all I could think about was ya know, I'm not really an addict, am I? I mean one won't hurt right.

Well one will hurt. One will ruin my dreams, my aspirations, and all the things I want/will accomplish in my life. I realize now that I am an addict. Not because I wanted a dip when while I had strep throat, but I am an addict because I used to be willing to put nicotine in front of the rest of my life. I was willing to make it priority number one. But no more.

You'll never hear me say I'm never going back, because I don't have control of the future. I only have control of the present. In the present I am saying no to tobacco. I am saying no to placing tobacco as the number 1 thing in my life.

Today I am free, tomorrow we will see. Just know if I give you my word, I'm sticking to it.

Damn I wish I could've been this smart when I was 19. Your life will be so much better without dip. Never again. Never one more. Not today.

[WTQ10]

The past few days have been a little bit of a funk. Not a funk of a physical nature, in fact very few cravings at all.

This funk was worse though, it was the beginning of the mind games that the nic bitch will continue to try and play on me. The past few days had me questioning whether or not I was an addict. I mean I'm 19 year old, 19 year olds can't be addicts, right? I've only been dipping for a few years, you can't be addicted for only dipping for a few years, right? Nevertheless I gave my word, and it is a word I have stuck to.

Well it became very clear to me today that I am an addict though. I came down with strep throat for the 4th time in the past 6 months. I could think back to the other times having strep, each time I sacrificed the pain in my mouth to give way to my addiction. And I can honestly say today, the urge to do so was no different. Here I am sitting in a room, throwing up, running a fever and on all sorts of medicine and all I could think about was ya know, I'm not really an addict, am I? I mean one won't hurt right.

Well one will hurt. One will ruin my dreams, my aspirations, and all the things I want/will accomplish in my life. I realize now that I am an addict. Not because I wanted a dip when while I had strep throat, but I am an addict because I used to be willing to put nicotine in front of the rest of my life. I was willing to make it priority number one. But no more.

You'll never hear me say I'm never going back, because I don't have control of the future. I only have control of the present. In the present I am saying no to tobacco. I am saying no to placing tobacco as the number 1 thing in my life.

Today I am free, tomorrow we will see. Just know if I give you my word, I'm sticking to it.

[Arfy]

I'm about a week behind you, but still in the November group. We'll kill this nasty shitty habit together!

Your Braves avatar caught my attention. I grew up a Braves fan - back when Dale Murphy, Claudell Washington, Bob Horner, and Phil Niekro were in the lineup. Used to go to games at Fulton County Stadium each summer, and I was a member of the Peter Pan Peanut Butter Atlanta Braves Fan Club! I grew up in Indiana, but for whatever reason my family were Braves fans (guess cuz they were America's Team, who knows.)

Anyway, stay quit!!

It seems my fellow quitters have more in common than we realize. I also grew up a Braves fan. Watching everygame on TBS. I lived in Montana, what are you gonna do? Rafael Ramirez, Glenn Hubbard, Rick Camp, and Dale Murphy. I loved them all.

Anyway, I'm right there with ya indycolts727. Day 5 completed for me. Another day of fighting my way from the fog and keeping my promise. Stay Strong! It's gotta get better!

[Wt57]

Little bit of an update on my story. Days 8-10 were pure hell for me. It felt just like 3 long continuous days of craving my vice, my poison. The only thing that kept me from folding was the promise that I made each day to each and everyone of my brothers.

What kind of man gives his word, and fails to follow through. Certainly I didn't want to be that man. I put on my big boy pants and fought through it. It's now day 13 and I feel better than ever.

I want to thank all of you for the support you have all provided. Without you I am still a slave to that poison. I will continue to post roll, and not only give my word each day, but keep it.

By the way, shout out to all my November 2012 quit brothers. Stay strong guys (and gals).

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WELL DONE
Love those big boy pants too!

[indycolts727]

I'm about a week behind you, but still in the November group. We'll kill this nasty shitty habit together!

Your Braves avatar caught my attention. I grew up a Braves fan - back when Dale Murphy, Claudell Washington, Bob Horner, and Phil Niekro were in the lineup. Used to go to games at Fulton County Stadium each summer, and I was a member of the Peter Pan Peanut Butter Atlanta Braves Fan Club! I grew up in Indiana, but for whatever reason my family were Braves fans (guess cuz they were America's Team, who knows.)

Anyway, stay quit!!

[WTQ10]

Little bit of an update on my story. Days 8-10 were pure hell for me. It felt just like 3 long continuous days of craving my vice, my poison. The only thing that kept me from folding was the promise that I made each day to each and everyone of my brothers.

What kind of man gives his word, and fails to follow through. Certainly I didn't want to be that man. I put on my big boy pants and fought through it. It's now day 13 and I feel better than ever.

I want to thank all of you for the support you have all provided. Without you I am still a slave to that poison. I will continue to post roll, and not only give my word each day, but keep it.

By the way, shout out to all my November 2012 quit brothers. Stay strong guys (and gals).

[WTQ10]

You made the right choice man!! Quit till you can't quit no more...lay down, bleed a while..get up...quit some more http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cK5cTFHc ... re=related

Quit with you.

This might be one of the most motivational videos I have ever seen. Everyone should see this.

Quit till you can't quit no more....then lay down, bleed a little...Get back up and quit some more.

[Bigdave]

You made the right choice man!! Quit till you can't quit no more...lay down, bleed a while..get up...quit some more http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cK5cTFHc ... re=related

Quit with you.

[Swede]

Welcome WTQ10! You have made the right choice in joining this site and it's support! Bean knows what he is talking about, read, post roll, and then repeat!

[Radman]

Oh, good grief....

The last couple years before I quit, Stokers LCW was my poison of choice. That stuff was cheap death. I could get if for a $.99 per can or somewhere around $7.50 for than tub (10 cans worth). Damn glad I'm done with it.

[Bean]

Welcome, WTQ10!!! Click on the Welcome Center link above and start reading. Read everything you can. Post roll everyday and stay quit, brother!

[WTQ10]

About two weeks ago my addiction had reached its peak. Knowing that I wouldn't be in Illinois for a while (Cheaper dip prices than Iowa) I decided that I needed to stock up. I purchased one tub of Stoker's LC Wintergreen and one Tub of Longhorn Snuff Classic. 22 cans in total. After making these purchases I knew deep down inside that I was more than a slave to the tobacco, more than a slave to the nicotine. The reality of the situation is I had no will, no strength to fight it. For the next couple of days I continued to allow myself to be a slave. I allowed my thoughts and actions to be controlled by dip. Then, on Tuesday August 7th, I had a life changing moment.

I had indulged in my greatest vice, and when I took it out something didn't seem quite right. I assumed that I merely left a couple strands in my mouth and went to the mirror to check it out. What I saw in the mirror is something that I never expected. I had two large brown spots on my gums, which put fear into my heart and my body. All I could think about was what about my family, what about my future wife, or my future kids. I realized that what I was doing was not only killing me, but was selfish and was destructive towards other people close to me. That was the day I took my oath to quit and never to return as a slave to any form of tobacco.

I am happy to report that my little scare turned out to be of no serious health consequences, but nevertheless I refuse to break my vow not only to improve my life but the life of others around me as well. I know this will be a long and difficult battle, but it will be one that is worth it every single morning that I wake up.

This is my story, this is my journey and I feel privileged and honored to be here to share it, and receive support for this community.