Day 45 today and this morning I was doing some work and I all of a sudden got hit with some very intense cravings. Sucked ass, really. The cool thing was I was not worried that I was going to cave because I posted roll and I feel like I have the tools necessary to let this pass, those tools being quit brothers/sisters. So I texted about 8 people or so, knowing that only a handful would be able to respond because of work, family, meetings, whatever, that's fine, that's why I texted 8 people because I knew I might hit 25%.
That's why it helps so much to have phone numbers. Seriously, just getting those texts back helped calm my nerves knowing that others were out there fighting the same battle with me, others were out there that had gone through this, and others were out there who beat the cravings.
Drome suggested that I read some HOF speeches. Great suggestion and it worked. I read a handful of them, because like all of you, I've got shit to get done at work, but just taking that 10 minutes to read those few really calmed me down.
I am down right 1000% committed to the quit, I have all of you to help, and she is still fucking with me. Unfortunately, there is just no way to avoid the lies and deceit. That's why we have to have the tools KTC teaches us when this shit happens.
Quit on!