Introduction of Frazzled's wife - Karen

[gladitsnotheroine]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Just to clarify, the "Bitch List" is for people who haven't posted roll by noonish or so. It has nothing to do with a person's gender. Now......keep on quittin.

What up, Mrs. Frazz?! I owe you an apology for the misunderstanding. The bitch list has nothing to do with your gender or personality. You seem quite nice.

Here's the clarification I just posted in April:The "Sorry Little Bitch List" started over the weekend. It's a list of the sorry little bitches that haven't posted roll yet. And whoever makes the list gets to own it for the day as well, at least that's how I play.

Honestly it goes up when there has been a sufficient morning for everyone to post roll and when it's down to few enough people that it's not a royal pain in the ass to make the list. Oh, and whenever I decide to. Or whoever else decides to do it. (Thanks for the help yesterday, Coach).

When you post roll, feel free to pull your name off of it. At that point you are no longer a sorry little bitch, but a regular, run-of-the-mill bitch just like everyone else in here.

Welcome Karen. I happen to agree with Crockett's tactic of being a bit crude on the boards ala the "sorry little bitch" list. It gets people's attention and it apparently worked with you. It obviously wasn't a personal attack. Nonetheless, I look forward to you being more involved in the April group and all of KTC.

FW-The revelation that you're an addict is a bit tough when you first realize it. But its also the blessing. Because its important to know it to have a successful quit. THe addict mind will play with your head, plant things here and there. With time you quickly classify them as Addict-talk and move on. Especially the talk of "you can have just one". That might start when you get down the road and start to feel like you really are on top of it. You might be, but don't give in.

Remember your support here and stick to your plan at all times.

Carry on Warrior!

Bump this in regards to the Lulou situation. As you can see, this has happened before. What is the difference? Mrz. Frazz aka Karen moved on and still posts with April 12, which, by the way, is by no means a PC group.

Dude, let this shit go.

[Coach Steve]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Just to clarify, the "Bitch List" is for people who haven't posted roll by noonish or so. It has nothing to do with a person's gender. Now......keep on quittin.

What up, Mrs. Frazz?! I owe you an apology for the misunderstanding. The bitch list has nothing to do with your gender or personality. You seem quite nice.

Here's the clarification I just posted in April:The "Sorry Little Bitch List" started over the weekend. It's a list of the sorry little bitches that haven't posted roll yet. And whoever makes the list gets to own it for the day as well, at least that's how I play.

Honestly it goes up when there has been a sufficient morning for everyone to post roll and when it's down to few enough people that it's not a royal pain in the ass to make the list. Oh, and whenever I decide to. Or whoever else decides to do it. (Thanks for the help yesterday, Coach).

When you post roll, feel free to pull your name off of it. At that point you are no longer a sorry little bitch, but a regular, run-of-the-mill bitch just like everyone else in here.

Welcome Karen. I happen to agree with Crockett's tactic of being a bit crude on the boards ala the "sorry little bitch" list. It gets people's attention and it apparently worked with you. It obviously wasn't a personal attack. Nonetheless, I look forward to you being more involved in the April group and all of KTC.

FW-The revelation that you're an addict is a bit tough when you first realize it. But its also the blessing. Because its important to know it to have a successful quit. THe addict mind will play with your head, plant things here and there. With time you quickly classify them as Addict-talk and move on. Especially the talk of "you can have just one". That might start when you get down the road and start to feel like you really are on top of it. You might be, but don't give in.

Remember your support here and stick to your plan at all times.

Carry on Warrior!

Bump this in regards to the Lulou situation. As you can see, this has happened before. What is the difference? Mrz. Frazz aka Karen moved on and still posts with April 12, which, by the way, is by no means a PC group.

[tarpon17]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Just to clarify, the "Bitch List" is for people who haven't posted roll by noonish or so. It has nothing to do with a person's gender. Now......keep on quittin.

What up, Mrs. Frazz?! I owe you an apology for the misunderstanding. The bitch list has nothing to do with your gender or personality. You seem quite nice.

Here's the clarification I just posted in April:The "Sorry Little Bitch List" started over the weekend. It's a list of the sorry little bitches that haven't posted roll yet. And whoever makes the list gets to own it for the day as well, at least that's how I play.

Honestly it goes up when there has been a sufficient morning for everyone to post roll and when it's down to few enough people that it's not a royal pain in the ass to make the list. Oh, and whenever I decide to. Or whoever else decides to do it. (Thanks for the help yesterday, Coach).

When you post roll, feel free to pull your name off of it. At that point you are no longer a sorry little bitch, but a regular, run-of-the-mill bitch just like everyone else in here.

Welcome Karen. I happen to agree with Crockett's tactic of being a bit crude on the boards ala the "sorry little bitch" list. It gets people's attention and it apparently worked with you. It obviously wasn't a personal attack. Nonetheless, I look forward to you being more involved in the April group and all of KTC.

FW-The revelation that you're an addict is a bit tough when you first realize it. But its also the blessing. Because its important to know it to have a successful quit. THe addict mind will play with your head, plant things here and there. With time you quickly classify them as Addict-talk and move on. Especially the talk of "you can have just one". That might start when you get down the road and start to feel like you really are on top of it. You might be, but don't give in.

Remember your support here and stick to your plan at all times.

Carry on Warrior!

[Coach Steve]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Just to clarify, the "Bitch List" is for people who haven't posted roll by noonish or so. It has nothing to do with a person's gender. Now......keep on quittin.

What up, Mrs. Frazz?! I owe you an apology for the misunderstanding. The bitch list has nothing to do with your gender or personality. You seem quite nice.

Here's the clarification I just posted in April:The "Sorry Little Bitch List" started over the weekend. It's a list of the sorry little bitches that haven't posted roll yet. And whoever makes the list gets to own it for the day as well, at least that's how I play.

Honestly it goes up when there has been a sufficient morning for everyone to post roll and when it's down to few enough people that it's not a royal pain in the ass to make the list. Oh, and whenever I decide to. Or whoever else decides to do it. (Thanks for the help yesterday, Coach).

When you post roll, feel free to pull your name off of it. At that point you are no longer a sorry little bitch, but a regular, run-of-the-mill bitch just like everyone else in here.

Welcome Karen. I happen to agree with Crockett's tactic of being a bit crude on the boards ala the "sorry little bitch" list. It gets people's attention and it apparently worked with you. It obviously wasn't a personal attack. Nonetheless, I look forward to you being more involved in the April group and all of KTC.

[Deleted User (sccrockett)]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Just to clarify, the "Bitch List" is for people who haven't posted roll by noonish or so. It has nothing to do with a person's gender. Now......keep on quittin.

What up, Mrs. Frazz?! I owe you an apology for the misunderstanding. The bitch list has nothing to do with your gender or personality. You seem quite nice.

Here's the clarification I just posted in April:The "Sorry Little Bitch List" started over the weekend. It's a list of the sorry little bitches that haven't posted roll yet. And whoever makes the list gets to own it for the day as well, at least that's how I play.

Honestly it goes up when there has been a sufficient morning for everyone to post roll and when it's down to few enough people that it's not a royal pain in the ass to make the list. Oh, and whenever I decide to. Or whoever else decides to do it. (Thanks for the help yesterday, Coach).

When you post roll, feel free to pull your name off of it. At that point you are no longer a sorry little bitch, but a regular, run-of-the-mill bitch just like everyone else in here.

[theo3wood]

THIS. IS. FREAKIN. AWESOME!!!

KAREN, YOU ROCK.

I quit four years ago, with the invaluable help of KTC. My wife is still a smoker. I'd love to have her post what you just did.

Pick up the ball and run with it, girl!!!

You got this

'worship' 'worship' 'worship'

[Scowick65]

Admitting to yourself that you are an addict is a big step. Huge. It is a game changer. It is difficult to face but once you admit it it empoweres yourself to make all the decisions regarding nicotine henceforth. You are now if full and complete charge. You now have a decision to make in simple 1 day increments. The decision will get easier and easier. Welcome to liberation.

:)

[Remshot]

Good to see you in here Karen!
'clap' 'clap'

[pavetheway]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Just to clarify, the "Bitch List" is for people who haven't posted roll by noonish or so. It has nothing to do with a person's gender. Now......keep on quittin.

[miles]

Congratulations on taking back your life.

This is a fight and you have to be 100% committed.

Keep on posting roll and winning one day at a time!

[Frazzled]

This is awesome, and I'm so glad you decided to post an Intro. Keep diving into the site - post stuff in your quit group besides just your daily promise. Get involved...put these crass and crude motherfuckers (myself included) in their place. They can take it, and so can you.

When you feel like having a cigarette, go in there and scream. If you see someone cave, give 'em hell and demand answers - a cave story is just as important for you to keep you from caving yourself as it is for the caver.

See the button on the upper right that says "LIVE CHAT"? Go in there and meet some of your quit group mates. I was going to say to watch out for tarp, but he's not down with the ladies, so you're safe.

I'm so proud of you for getting to half a hall...and for quitting again today...and let's quit again tomorrow, ok?

[Nolaq]

Welcome to the rest of your life Karen.

Your post here is exactly what you NEED. Mike is right (he learned from some solid quitters), you are about to get more support than you will know what to do with.

Congrats on the half HOF. Now let's let the Healing begin.

Shout if you need anything, and I look forward to your next post.

-NOLAQ

[Nolaq]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife.  This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict.  That hurts. Bad.  I was also a closet smoker for years.  I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13.  I quit for 5 years one time.  My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker"  began to take over my life and body.  Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style.  I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods. 

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs.  I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here.  However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me.  I still stunk and I HATED it.  So I only smoked at home.  I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck.  My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath.  My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking.  For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking.  I had this routine down and he noticed.  Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit.  He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?"  So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him.  We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes.  That felt good.  I was ready.  I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but  I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes.  I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict.  I kept treading through some really bad days.  Thank God I have my husband.  He's been a great support system for me. 

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit.  He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him.  I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit. 

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else.  Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence.  Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself.  This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily.  Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words.  But it goes both ways.  I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this. 

Thank you for all your congratulations.  Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY.  Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head.  That's for another writing.  I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks. 

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

Hi Karen,

I edited for you. Smokes is absolooTly right about your number.

Protect yourself, keep that stuff in PM.

-NOLAQ

[Smokeyg]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife. This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict. That hurts. Bad. I was also a closet smoker for years. I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13. I quit for 5 years one time. My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker" began to take over my life and body. Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style. I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods.

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs. I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here. However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me. I still stunk and I HATED it. So I only smoked at home. I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck. My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath. My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking. For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking. I had this routine down and he noticed. Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit. He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?" So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him. We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes. That felt good. I was ready. I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes. I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict. I kept treading through some really bad days. Thank God I have my husband. He's been a great support system for me.

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit. He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him. I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit.

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else. Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence. Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself. This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily. Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words. But it goes both ways. I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this.

Thank you for all your congratulations. Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY. Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head. That's for another writing. I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks.

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

Karen, congratulations on your commitment to quit. The fact that you were placed on a "bitch list" should serve as a warning that putting your phone number out there for all the world to see is probably not the best idea. These introduction sections are visible to everyone - not just KTC members. And people do join this site for malicious reasons from time to time. If you click "edit" on your original post, you can erase that information.

One day at a time.

[KGirl]

Good morning all,

My name is Karen, call-name, Frazzled's wife. This is my first contribution to this Introduction site so I hope I'm posting in the right place.

First all, I'm an addict. That hurts. Bad. I was also a closet smoker for years. I quit on and off my whole life since the age of 13. I quit for 5 years one time. My dissolution that I'm only a "social smoker" began to take over my life and body. Smoking went against everything I believe in living a healthy life style. I love running, walking, roller-blading, cross country skiing, swimming and other physical activities along with eating good foods.

However, this past summer, smoking really started to effect my work outs. I was winded just walking up the stairs and big hills. But hey, I'm only a social smoker - no problem here. However, I knew in the back of my head, I had to quit. I was washing my face and brushing my teeth four or five times a day to try to mask the smell emanating from me. I still stunk and I HATED it. So I only smoked at home. I stopped smoking in the truck, and would not smoke until I was done with my day where I come home, grab a cig and sit outside on the deck. My poor husband - dealing with my stench and bad breath. My pillow and our bedding smelled like smoke even though I had just washed my face and brushed my teeth right before bed, the stench was coming up from my poor lungs, (I call my lungs my filters).

For weeks I kept telling hubby I want to quit smoking. For weeks hubby kept telling me he's worried about the increase in cigs I was smoking. I had this routine down and he noticed. Finally one day, I said to Mike I think I'm ready to quit. He quickly walked over to me and said, "That is great, why not start now?" So he walked over to the two packs in the cupboard and said to follow him. We stood over the toilet crushing and flushing my cigarettes. That felt good. I was ready. I kept thinking of how much better I will feel not smoking - but I hadn't thought of it as nicotine, but, just cigarettes. I hadn't thought about me being a brain-wired-addict. I kept treading through some really bad days. Thank God I have my husband. He's been a great support system for me.

Hubby was now suggesting that I post on KLC and write my thoughts and backwards thinking about my quit. He said I'd get really good people offering more support and wisdom of words then what I was getting just from him. I didn't make the time nor did I have any interest and I will tell you why in a bit.

I continued to just post for the day and nothing else. Mike started to tell me that people wanted to hear from me and to stop my silence. Well today I found myself on the "Bitch List." That shook me a bit because I'm not a bitch nor do I think of myself better than anyone else working their quit using this site.

Just for your understanding, when things start heating up, my first response is isolate. I clam up and deal with these crazy thoughts by myself. This is my MO with most upsetting things and I'm working on this daily. Like the people I trusted smoking around - I trust the people on this site for help and understanding and spliced words. But it goes both ways. I give - you give and I will try very hard to honor this.

Thank you for all your congratulations. Thank you for writing and giving me support because your words really mattered to me TODAY. Especially with all my thoughts about our upcoming vacation and what's looming over my head. That's for another writing. I will share it with you soon because we're leaving in less than two weeks.

Pura Vita (good day)

Karen

xxx-xxx-xxxx