10 months ago I failed at my quit.
(1) What happened? I wasn't truly ready to quit for myself. I wanted it for my family. I wanted to be a good role model for my kids. I wanted the thought of being nic free. I had a very stressful last couple of weeks of my wife's pregnancy and had a new promotion with more responsibility and stress. That day at work I had to fire the first person in my life. It was for a reasonable cause to fire someone but it was my first and I had the responsibility to take away Steven's income. It hit me extremely hard but I was coping ok. I get home and my wife didn't give 2 shits about it or my day. I had a beer and a fight with my loving wife. The next morning after sleeping on the couch I had the exit interview with Steven and I broke down and bought a can of heart attack. (Griz LC)
I failed on day 23. I signed the contract to quit and felt like a little bitch for doing it. I was a little piece of shit that flies wouldn't even touch. I actually thought that it would help the stress go away! I was an idiot and a hypocrite that day and for the next 10 months of my life.
(2) Why did it happen? Old habits die hard but that is not why it happened. I wasn't strong enough mentally and I didn't reach out for help when I should have. I remember saying to myself "Just get through today without one and it will get better." Then I woke up and forgot to say "I quit today" From that point I went back to being a dumb ass ninja. I am strong enough, i have learned a lot more about what dip can do to my body. Not just cancer but the arteries and heart problems as well. I don't want to die with a dip. I want to live with a lip! I should have called my dad, wife, kids, best friend, anyone but I didn't. I can't get help if I don't ask for it.
(3) What are you doing differently this time? Here is my number
xxx-xxx-xxxx. My name is Jesse. I was addicted to dip since I was 15 and have a bunch of people that I love that I have lied to because of this addiction. It has torn me apart for many years and I will post RC everyday. Instead of trying to do it on my own, I will use anybody or anything that will help. I am a fighter for my quit, I am the champion but even a champ needs a coach.
I edited out jgrem's phone number from his post. While sharing numbers is, in my opinion, a tremendous quit tool, it should be done via PMs and not in a public forum when anyone in the world can see it. - Evil_Won