1. What happened?
- I had been very irritable during my quit. My girlfriend and I had not been getting along. We were due to go on a vacation with her family for the week and in the past her family and I have not seen eye to eye during vacations (a nice way of putting it). Instead of talking to them about what I was going through and staying quit, I took the easy way out.
2. Why did it happen?
- It happened because I did not prepare for any situation I was going to face. I was ignorant and did not follow the advice on here and have a game plan for the bumps in the road. I figured I would just worry about it when stuff came up.
3. What are you going to do differently this time so that you don't stick another fat cat turd of death and dependency in your mouth again?
- Involve my family and friends in my quit.
- Have a game plan for the bumps in the road.
-Involve my family and close friends in my quit.
-Currently attending therapy sessions for other reasons, last session I brought up my want to quit this addiction.
-Use my KTC support system before I make a decision to cave
You need to add, that you will keep your word this go around to the list of things to do differently. How no matter how tough it gets, no matter how bad you crave, no matter how hard it is to be in close proximity of it, and no matter how bad your anxiety gets your not going to be a liar and you are going to keep your word to your brothers because this is your brotherhood and you've got their back and no matter what you will not let them down by INTENTIONALLY CHOSING to cave.
Ronnie, once I post roll....... My quit is protected, because I believe in this brotherhood and I will not go back on my word to my brothers and sisters. And since I refuse to miss roll, pain and craving may be in my future but a damn cave is not!!!! Post roll and keep your word, your word is all you have as a man, in fact you are defined by your word. Let me know if you want me to hold your ass accountable, think about it before you say yes! It's not as simple as saying yes, I will be all over your quit!