Quit Journal

[EXBEARHAG]

Hey @chitownsnus .  Thanks for recording your experiences.  I can relate to much that is in your intro.  Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades.  Makes me wonder which came first?  Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine?  Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals? 

The good news is that it is getting marginally better.  Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less.  Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent.  It's going to take a long time to recover.  Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men.  Hold that line!

PTBQWYT my friend.

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Today was a real bad day for me for some reason. Fog has hit hard like week one and anxiety was very extreme almost so much as to not be at all functional. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Shit dude i feel you, you can read my intro. 94 days today and im feeling much much better, it will also get better for you.  Try to keep busy and do new shit. I also took a lot of vitamins,  slept a lot and tryed to work out like a maniac.  This will pass!

Hang in there Chi.  The day is almost over and you get to forget about it for a couple hours.  Reset.  Tomorrow will be a better day.  Stacking slightly better days eventually adds up to a difference.  Hold the line brother.

[Indrek]

Hey @chitownsnus .  Thanks for recording your experiences.  I can relate to much that is in your intro.  Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades.  Makes me wonder which came first?  Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine?  Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals? 

The good news is that it is getting marginally better.  Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less.  Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent.  It's going to take a long time to recover.  Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men.  Hold that line!

PTBQWYT my friend.

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Today was a real bad day for me for some reason. Fog has hit hard like week one and anxiety was very extreme almost so much as to not be at all functional. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Shit dude i feel you, you can read my intro. 94 days today and im feeling much much better, it will also get better for you.  Try to keep busy and do new shit. I also took a lot of vitamins,  slept a lot and tryed to work out like a maniac.  This will pass!

[chitownsnus]

Hey @chitownsnus .  Thanks for recording your experiences.  I can relate to much that is in your intro.  Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades.  Makes me wonder which came first?  Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine?  Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals? 

The good news is that it is getting marginally better.  Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less.  Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent.  It's going to take a long time to recover.  Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men.  Hold that line!

PTBQWYT my friend.

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Today was a real bad day for me for some reason. Fog has hit hard like week one and anxiety was very extreme almost so much as to not be at all functional. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

[EXBEARHAG]

Hey @chitownsnus .  Thanks for recording your experiences.  I can relate to much that is in your intro.  Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades.  Makes me wonder which came first?  Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine?  Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals? 

The good news is that it is getting marginally better.  Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less.  Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent.  It's going to take a long time to recover.  Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men.  Hold that line!

PTBQWYT my friend.

[Keith0617]

Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.

Some thoughts:

Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.

Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!

Take comfort in knowing I also feel the same way. Find things that make you feel good. Food helps fill that void, and the weight WILL come off. Exercise will help with the mental stuff, but yeah won’t be able to compete with the calories coming in. There’s just so much  . At least for me anyway. Glad you are here and quit with us.

Thanks for all of the support. It brings a tear to my eye knowing that there are more than just me suffering through this terrible recovery from an even more terrible addiction. Proud to be quit with everyone here

It doesn’t last that long. Basic function does return. What you are describing is normal. Brain is just doing some rewriting as it is learning to work without nicotine impacting it. You guys are doing great. 

[chitownsnus]

Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.

Some thoughts:

Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.

Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!

Take comfort in knowing I also feel the same way. Find things that make you feel good. Food helps fill that void, and the weight WILL come off. Exercise will help with the mental stuff, but yeah won’t be able to compete with the calories coming in. There’s just so much  . At least for me anyway. Glad you are here and quit with us.

Thanks for all of the support. It brings a tear to my eye knowing that there are more than just me suffering through this terrible recovery from an even more terrible addiction. Proud to be quit with everyone here

[Jenahen]

Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.

Some thoughts:

Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.

Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!

Take comfort in knowing I also feel the same way. Find things that make you feel good. Food helps fill that void, and the weight WILL come off. Exercise will help with the mental stuff, but yeah won’t be able to compete with the calories coming in. There’s just so much  . At least for me anyway. Glad you are here and quit with us.

[olcpo]

Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.

Some thoughts:

Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.

Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!

[chitownsnus]

Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.

Some thoughts:

Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.

[walterwhite]

Day 25

Some random thoughts:

- I have realized that I am not focusing one day at a time, but rather long term. Going to be quitting ODAAT instead going forward to reduce stress
- some days it feels like the walls are closing in
- anxiety is pretty bad lately
- feeling stong as far as being quit, lots of support from march and my family

There is no reason to focus on tomorrow when all we have is today.  ODAAT is so important.  It's the reason that I'm still quit.  Keep it up!

[chitownsnus]

Day 25

Some random thoughts:

- I have realized that I am not focusing one day at a time, but rather long term. Going to be quitting ODAAT instead going forward to reduce stress
- some days it feels like the walls are closing in
- anxiety is pretty bad lately
- feeling stong as far as being quit, lots of support from march and my family

[olcpo]

Day 21: Hard to believe it's been 3 weeks since kicking the nic bitch to the curb, but here I am. Christmas was good. Nice to not have to worry about getting in a dip before any activity anymore. After reading some stories from here and lots of posts it has become clear that I am going to be an addict forever, however I am not going to let that define me as a person.

Side note: Hoping to get in my first, late December motorcycle ride today. Can't believe it's goign to be 60 degrees in Chicago on December 26th.

You Go! Ride a mile for me, Please. My bike is all put to bed, battery out, oil changed up on blocks and we are iced in. A good mile to get to pavement. Have a good run. Yup we are addicts. I think its kind of like being right or left handed, or having a bad knee. It's part of us, but as you say, It doesn't define us. Just can't forget it or get complacent with it or it will bite you hard. Enjoy the 60. Olcpo

[chitownsnus]

Day 21: Hard to believe it's been 3 weeks since kicking the nic bitch to the curb, but here I am. Christmas was good. Nice to not have to worry about getting in a dip before any activity anymore. After reading some stories from here and lots of posts it has become clear that I am going to be an addict forever, however I am not going to let that define me as a person.

Side note: Hoping to get in my first, late December motorcycle ride today. Can't believe it's goign to be 60 degrees in Chicago on December 26th.

[Chaotique]

Thanks for talking through what you are going through.  I can relate to the Day 1-3 fog...as it's day two for me.  I have some extended moments of being just fine, but then... the fog.  Anyway... joined you yesterday in March 2020 PreHOF.  Thank you for your daily checkin and activity in the forum.  Chaotique

[chitownsnus]

Day 12 - Lots of cravings today for some reason, can't seem to pinpoint anything in particular. Just need to stay strong and ask for help.

One thing I should have noticed my first time around was the amount of people coming through not for the first time. I think I would have appreciated my quit more knowing what a struggle it really is. Anyhow, random thought of the day.