I am quitting and I need help!!

[Law1358]

My thoughts at 500 Days of Quit.

All my life, I have been an active, Healthy Athlete. I started Dipping when I was 18 and somewhere between then and 500 Days ago at age 32 is when I stopped caring about my body. It was also 500 Days ago when my 1 year old son almost drank my spit bottle, and it broke me down. 500 Days Ago, I was an overweight 270 Lbs, not as active as I once was, dipped 2 cans a day, and driving down the fast lane of being a Fat slob who was gonna die early from mouth cancer or Obesity. I decided that I had to quit Dipping. It had to happen now. A couple days later, I would make the most important google search of my life and I ended up finding KTC. There were some times of pure hell during those first 200 days of Quit. Mainly in the first 100, but some in the 100-200 days quit range. ..I decided to get out of my comfort zone and buy-in to the KTC Method and began getting digits along with my daily roll post. These People and all of KTC are the reason I am sitting here 500 days quit of Nicotine. There were times I would have caved if I did not reach out to my fellow Quitters. Again, I had to humble myself and get out of my comfort zone and get to know a bunch of internet strangers that were going through the same struggle as me. There were time I would have caved if I didn't post my roll. My word means that much to me. I will not break my word to anyone. The one day at a time(ODAAT) is the single handed most important mind set to have with your Quit. You can not think about the future with your Quit. You have to attack it head on right there in the moment and attack it with your brothers and sisters going through the same thing on KTC.

There have been some cravings in the last 300 days, but they are much fewer and farther between than those first 200 days. I go long periods of time now without thinking about wanting a dip, and I am so Grateful for that free feeling of now being quit from that disgusting weed. I have built several great relationships with many different types of Quitters and Quitters from all over the website. I added an additional 14 pounds and about 3 months ago weighed 284 lbs. I was doing great with my quit, but still doing nothing to improve my overall Health. Just like quitting Dip in the past, Ive dieted several times, worked out several times only to never really follow through with it or be serious with it. 3 months ago , several people that I have gotten to know on KTC decided to start a weight loss challenge. I decided to hop on board. I started out with some early success and it just grew from there. I started eating healthy, working out, and training jiu-jitsu seriously...About 3 weeks in to this challenge, I really decided to test myself on a treadmill and I wanted to run non-stop at 7 mph for 3.1 miles (wanted to be a sub 30 minute 5K)...during that run it was so hard, and so tough, and I ended up finding my inspiration to get through it by thinking of my KTC friends. Not just my KTC friends in the Challenge, but friends that kept me from caving to dip, friends that i have mentored on KTC, and yes the friends that I was in the challenege with. AT that moment, I realized that KTC was saving my life in more ways than one. These same people that I have been fighting a nicotine addiction with are now the same people that I am fighting my Obesity problem with. I have several close friends, great family, and great co-workers, but yet this group of internet strangers is providing me with the motivation and confidence to save my life. It is just Unreal.

For you new Quitters or Quitters thinking about leaving KTC, If you've read this far then this last paragraph is for you. In 500 days of Quit on KTC, I have seen alot. I have seen many new quitters come and go, Ive seen many quitters cave and never return, and Ive seen several people just try to do it their own way. The number one reason I have seen people not be successful when coming to KTC has been pride and ego.. Pride and Ego has killed more quits than anything ive seen on this website.. These are real people behind these screen names, I have digits for close to 100 of them. Of all these people I have befriended on KTC, several of them have different political beliefs, hobbies, interests, and just straight up are different than me.. But we all have one thing in common and the ones who are successful forget about those differences and get into the trenches with fellow quitters and battle alongside one another for a better life. This stuff is Serious.... If you are serious about your quit, then humble yourself, get out of your comfort zone, and get to know your fellow quitters and post roll everyday. It will save your life.. Just take it from a guy who was living life as a fat slob that dipped 2 cans a day that 500 days later has lost close to 40 Pounds, been nicotine free for 500 days, and half way to his Blue-Belt In Gracie Jiu-Jitsu.. I am now healthier, happier, and enjoying life more than I could have ever imagined....Thank You to all of KTC for saving my Life..There are too many of you to name, but you know who you are.

These are my thoughts after 500 days of Quit.

[Thumblewort]

Happy 1/2 dangle day LAW!
Outstanding!

Thanks for leading the way EDD Brother!!!!

Brother, sister, it doesn't matter, we are all quit.

[Batdad]

Happy 1/2 dangle day LAW!
Outstanding!

Thanks for leading the way EDD Brother!!!!

[ChickDip]

Happy 1/2 dangle day LAW!
Outstanding!

[ChickDip]

Congrats on 400 today Law!!
Outstanding...well earned!

[Law1358]

So, on this very day last year is when my then 1 yr old toddler son almost drank my spit bottle, I seen one of those stories of someone's jaw being removed, and I got the vivid mental image of my son asking his mother "what is Wrong with Daddy"???

1 Year ago today, this broke me down. I cried in my chair, and looked at a fresh new can I had just bought. I took a one big ole dip out of that can, flushed the rest of it, and told my wife this is the last dip I'll ever have.

At that time, I did not truly believe I could stay quit. I thought it would be just like every other attempt and probably be back to dipping in a couple weeks. Something was different, and I knew I had to be more dedicated to succeed, so I googled withdrawal symptoms on my day 2 and found KTC.

I can honestly say since that day 2, I finally felt that it wasn't an impossible task. Here I am a year later, free of nicotines and kicking its ass one day at a time and enjoying my now 2 year old son and expectant daughter on the way. I'm glad to know that they will not see me doing that disgusting habit.

1 year later, I have made several new friends across the country. They are more like family now. That is truly an odd concept. A bunch of internet strangers coming together and developing a bond as strong as family in the name of quitting a terrible addiction.

KTC saves lives!! Not the website itself, but the people here do!!! Proud to quit with you all!!! Thank you to everyone who has helped me get this far

[ChickDip]

Congrats on 1 year Law!

Congrats on 365 Law!
Keep up the fight!

[CoachW]

Congrats on 1 year Law!

[Law1358]

Ive been seeing a lot of people with a lot of days quit behind their name either fall off of KTC or worse have caved. I have tried to keep a journal if you will of my quit here in my Introduction, and today it is clear that I haven't updated my Intro since day 200 and today I am on day 308. I think the lack of updating my intro goes hand in hand with the thoughts that I have had lately. I would be lying if I said I have never thought of what would happen if I left KTC. Here lately, My Quit has been so strong that I would wonder if I truly need this place anymore. Then, I immediately start thinking of the great friendships that I have made on KTC, The people with large quit days who have caved, and the people who have left only to see them come back with that dreaded day 1. It has made me think really hard about my quit here lately, and I wanted to put these thoughts into words and hope they help new and old quitters alike.
1. Like my ole buddy Syndrome has said several times when asked why he still posts everyday. "how much is your quit worth?" This holds true in a lot of things. I started thinking about the links ive been going through to get more healthy and in shape. Ive had to start waking up at 4:30-5:00 am to workout because I don't have time throughout the day. It was really damn hard at first, but now has become part of my routine and worth it to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Same with my role post. My Quit is important. It is of High Priority which is why I will never miss my morning promise and why I believe that my quit is strong.

2. I could leave KTC right now and KNOW that I can stay quit.. but for how long??? I have built relationships that are strong like the friendships I have at home on a daily basis. That morning post constantly reminds me that I'm an addict and I'm one bad decision away from throwing my quit away. How long would it take being away from KTC before these strong relationships didnt matter anymore, before my brain starts to rewire itself again that I'm cured and just waiting for a weak moment to get the nicotine fix it has been looking for. I know for a fact it would happen to me. Somewhere down the road, your brain will more than likely trick you into having just that 1, but you have left and forgot about the 1 place that gave you the tools to fight off that craving.

3.With this being said, My Quit is most definetly worth the 30 seconds or so it takes to post my promise each morning. The friendships made, the accountability had, and the burnout of the site at times all play a vital role in why my quit is strong and why I don't plan on leaving anytime soon.

4.I highly suggest to anyone that thinks they need a break from KTC, to just post and ghost until you feel refreshed again. I do not recommend this to new groups because building relationships is crucial to your quit. I don't know a whole lot about the new months from JULY-November. I had to take to some time to not be so active on KTC, and focus on life. I still posted everyday, and I'm now I want to help new quitters and as they will continue to help me in my quit.

Bravo Brother ....

'irish' B.ig B.rother J.ack 8782 as of this morning 'irish'

Solid post ...lots of gems in there, and the biggest one that jumped out at me is the realization that the quit becomes bigger than you. It starts off, all about you and you alone. But then you meet people, and begin to care about them, their well-being, and many of them turn into bonafide friendships. What was once an internet support group is now truly part of you.

The other gem, is point #2. And I had to read this twice, because you boldly state that you "KNOW" you can stay quit. The gem is the following question, for how long. And all that you state afterwards is absolutely right. We're all addicts, and we've all failed when we went at this alone. Never compromise the quit and nurture it every day with that roll call.

Thanks..I was trying to figure out how to put my thoughts into words..I'm sure several people have felt like they "KNOW" they can stay Quit when leaving. I still quit one day at a time, but knowing what our addict minds will try to do in the future without using our daily tools is what makes that daily promises so Powerful

[Steakbomb18]

Ive been seeing a lot of people with a lot of days quit behind their name either fall off of KTC or worse have caved. I have tried to keep a journal if you will of my quit here in my Introduction, and today it is clear that I haven't updated my Intro since day 200 and today I am on day 308. I think the lack of updating my intro goes hand in hand with the thoughts that I have had lately. I would be lying if I said I have never thought of what would happen if I left KTC. Here lately, My Quit has been so strong that I would wonder if I truly need this place anymore. Then, I immediately start thinking of the great friendships that I have made on KTC, The people with large quit days who have caved, and the people who have left only to see them come back with that dreaded day 1. It has made me think really hard about my quit here lately, and I wanted to put these thoughts into words and hope they help new and old quitters alike.
1. Like my ole buddy Syndrome has said several times when asked why he still posts everyday. "how much is your quit worth?" This holds true in a lot of things. I started thinking about the links ive been going through to get more healthy and in shape. Ive had to start waking up at 4:30-5:00 am to workout because I don't have time throughout the day. It was really damn hard at first, but now has become part of my routine and worth it to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Same with my role post. My Quit is important. It is of High Priority which is why I will never miss my morning promise and why I believe that my quit is strong.

2. I could leave KTC right now and KNOW that I can stay quit.. but for how long??? I have built relationships that are strong like the friendships I have at home on a daily basis. That morning post constantly reminds me that I'm an addict and I'm one bad decision away from throwing my quit away. How long would it take being away from KTC before these strong relationships didnt matter anymore, before my brain starts to rewire itself again that I'm cured and just waiting for a weak moment to get the nicotine fix it has been looking for. I know for a fact it would happen to me. Somewhere down the road, your brain will more than likely trick you into having just that 1, but you have left and forgot about the 1 place that gave you the tools to fight off that craving.

3.With this being said, My Quit is most definetly worth the 30 seconds or so it takes to post my promise each morning. The friendships made, the accountability had, and the burnout of the site at times all play a vital role in why my quit is strong and why I don't plan on leaving anytime soon.

4.I highly suggest to anyone that thinks they need a break from KTC, to just post and ghost until you feel refreshed again. I do not recommend this to new groups because building relationships is crucial to your quit. I don't know a whole lot about the new months from JULY-November. I had to take to some time to not be so active on KTC, and focus on life. I still posted everyday, and I'm now I want to help new quitters and as they will continue to help me in my quit.

Bravo Brother ....

'irish' B.ig B.rother J.ack 8782 as of this morning 'irish'

Solid post ...lots of gems in there, and the biggest one that jumped out at me is the realization that the quit becomes bigger than you. It starts off, all about you and you alone. But then you meet people, and begin to care about them, their well-being, and many of them turn into bonafide friendships. What was once an internet support group is now truly part of you.

The other gem, is point #2. And I had to read this twice, because you boldly state that you "KNOW" you can stay quit. The gem is the following question, for how long. And all that you state afterwards is absolutely right. We're all addicts, and we've all failed when we went at this alone. Never compromise the quit and nurture it every day with that roll call.

[Big Brother Jack]

Ive been seeing a lot of people with a lot of days quit behind their name either fall off of KTC or worse have caved. I have tried to keep a journal if you will of my quit here in my Introduction, and today it is clear that I haven't updated my Intro since day 200 and today I am on day 308. I think the lack of updating my intro goes hand in hand with the thoughts that I have had lately. I would be lying if I said I have never thought of what would happen if I left KTC. Here lately, My Quit has been so strong that I would wonder if I truly need this place anymore. Then, I immediately start thinking of the great friendships that I have made on KTC, The people with large quit days who have caved, and the people who have left only to see them come back with that dreaded day 1. It has made me think really hard about my quit here lately, and I wanted to put these thoughts into words and hope they help new and old quitters alike.
1. Like my ole buddy Syndrome has said several times when asked why he still posts everyday. "how much is your quit worth?" This holds true in a lot of things. I started thinking about the links ive been going through to get more healthy and in shape. Ive had to start waking up at 4:30-5:00 am to workout because I don't have time throughout the day. It was really damn hard at first, but now has become part of my routine and worth it to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Same with my role post. My Quit is important. It is of High Priority which is why I will never miss my morning promise and why I believe that my quit is strong.

2. I could leave KTC right now and KNOW that I can stay quit.. but for how long??? I have built relationships that are strong like the friendships I have at home on a daily basis. That morning post constantly reminds me that I'm an addict and I'm one bad decision away from throwing my quit away. How long would it take being away from KTC before these strong relationships didnt matter anymore, before my brain starts to rewire itself again that I'm cured and just waiting for a weak moment to get the nicotine fix it has been looking for. I know for a fact it would happen to me. Somewhere down the road, your brain will more than likely trick you into having just that 1, but you have left and forgot about the 1 place that gave you the tools to fight off that craving.

3.With this being said, My Quit is most definetly worth the 30 seconds or so it takes to post my promise each morning. The friendships made, the accountability had, and the burnout of the site at times all play a vital role in why my quit is strong and why I don't plan on leaving anytime soon.

4.I highly suggest to anyone that thinks they need a break from KTC, to just post and ghost until you feel refreshed again. I do not recommend this to new groups because building relationships is crucial to your quit. I don't know a whole lot about the new months from JULY-November. I had to take to some time to not be so active on KTC, and focus on life. I still posted everyday, and I'm now I want to help new quitters and as they will continue to help me in my quit.

Bravo Brother ....

'irish' B.ig B.rother J.ack 8782 as of this morning 'irish'

[Law1358]

Ive been seeing a lot of people with a lot of days quit behind their name either fall off of KTC or worse have caved. I have tried to keep a journal if you will of my quit here in my Introduction, and today it is clear that I haven't updated my Intro since day 200 and today I am on day 308. I think the lack of updating my intro goes hand in hand with the thoughts that I have had lately. I would be lying if I said I have never thought of what would happen if I left KTC. Here lately, My Quit has been so strong that I would wonder if I truly need this place anymore. Then, I immediately start thinking of the great friendships that I have made on KTC, The people with large quit days who have caved, and the people who have left only to see them come back with that dreaded day 1. It has made me think really hard about my quit here lately, and I wanted to put these thoughts into words and hope they help new and old quitters alike.
1. Like my ole buddy Syndrome has said several times when asked why he still posts everyday. "how much is your quit worth?" This holds true in a lot of things. I started thinking about the links ive been going through to get more healthy and in shape. Ive had to start waking up at 4:30-5:00 am to workout because I don't have time throughout the day. It was really damn hard at first, but now has become part of my routine and worth it to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Same with my role post. My Quit is important. It is of High Priority which is why I will never miss my morning promise and why I believe that my quit is strong.

2. I could leave KTC right now and KNOW that I can stay quit.. but for how long??? I have built relationships that are strong like the friendships I have at home on a daily basis. That morning post constantly reminds me that I'm an addict and I'm one bad decision away from throwing my quit away. How long would it take being away from KTC before these strong relationships didnt matter anymore, before my brain starts to rewire itself again that I'm cured and just waiting for a weak moment to get the nicotine fix it has been looking for. I know for a fact it would happen to me. Somewhere down the road, your brain will more than likely trick you into having just that 1, but you have left and forgot about the 1 place that gave you the tools to fight off that craving.

3.With this being said, My Quit is most definetly worth the 30 seconds or so it takes to post my promise each morning. The friendships made, the accountability had, and the burnout of the site at times all play a vital role in why my quit is strong and why I don't plan on leaving anytime soon.

4.I highly suggest to anyone that thinks they need a break from KTC, to just post and ghost until you feel refreshed again. I do not recommend this to new groups because building relationships is crucial to your quit. I don't know a whole lot about the new months from JULY-November. I had to take to some time to not be so active on KTC, and focus on life. I still posted everyday, and I'm now I want to help new quitters and as they will continue to help me in my quit.

[Law1358]

February 2017 Cult of Quit

Guaranteed Drama-Free Quitting
2 June 2017

'hoftrain'
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'hoftrain''party2'**Brasswhole and Law1358** 'party2' [/color][/size]

Congratulations Brass and Lane! Here are your HoF speeches (Brass Law), HoF roll, and Lane's answers:

• What was the most memorable moment in your quit?
  I think the most memorable moment of my quit was a day where my wife had truly pissed me off and I believe it was day 37 or so of my quit. My mind panicked and it immediately went to thinking I need a dip. I was literly on my way to the c-store and texted 5 quitters in my phone. I had pretty much made my mind up that I was caving. Walterwhite and harvestgirl were able to text me back before I got to the store, and I just remember the urge I had to cave just immediately went away, WW and HG just talked to me for a bit and it was like I came back from another state of mind and I went on to have a great day that day. My wife was even shocked when I returned to her in a happy state.
• What was the best piece of advice you got on this site, or what is the advice youd like to give yourself 199 days ago?
  The One Day at a Time mentality is the best advice ive gotten, There is no doubt that I caved in previous quits because it was too much pressure thinking about the future without dip. That and getting digits. I was very reluctant to get digits, and because I did it saved my quit and has allowed me to build some great friendships with some great people across the country
• What has changed most after your HoF?
  It has definetly gotten easier to defeat cravings.. I went through a terrible funk around days 120-130, but since then Ive had been able to defeat craves easily and they are not near as intense. I have developed several new friendships since HOF, and now I just want to pay it forward while remaining quit ODAAT myself
• If you could only have one more post, what would you say?
  I would make sure all the people that have my number would give me a pickup daily through text since some ass hole decided I only have one more post to the site...lol

[/size][/size][+] SSOA, Template, and Other Sacred Scriptures

Sacred Scriptures of the Cult

Spread Sheet Of Accountability Looking to flip roll? Copy and paste from this template. Why we are so insistent on posting roll every day without fail. Toy Soldiers by Martika - A Perfect Summary Of Life Under The Nic Bitch

Cultists In Good Standing:
Name	Days Quit  Promise
Drome	3124. grats there brass and law.
Pab1964	888 with the cult
MrLentz	263 Proud to quit with the QTs (sorry for the abbreviated roll link - porn filter on work computer wont let me see page 402)
Prohunter	252-WTG law and brass!
Gas	253 - Congrats Law and Brass
HG	250. Congrats on 2nd Floor Brassy  Law! Proud of you guys  quit with you. (bump fix)
Bokie	218 - I quit with Feb today. Congrats Brass and Lane!!
Viking	215 happy 200 to Law and Brass!
Maverick705	214. Congrats guys!
Zippahdeedodah	- 214 - Congrats Law and Brass! Grateful to be alive, grateful for my family and grateful for my quit.
scottludwig	213 w brass and law two baq's w the cult
tljent79	213
Wildbirds	213 (via text)
Jeff W	212 Congrats Brass and Law!
Offshore Man	212 congrats Brass and Law always proud to quit with you both.
DJF5858	210 - Great job Brass and Law. Proud to be quit with you both
Bill Dance	209- CONGRATS BRASS AND LAW!
KillingCans	Day 206 with the Cult - congrats Law and Brass!!
Zombie Jak	Day 205
Frobozz	- 203 - I promise not to use nicotine today with Brasswhole and Law! Bully for Brasswhole and Law! Mrlentz, thanks for flipping roll - my cell phone data plan ran out, so I can't flip roll from the train for the rest of this week.
StepUpToTheMatt	203 - Gratz to my 2nd and 3rd favorite quitters!
Garett	day 202
ChadPA	Day 201... congrats (bump fix)
Brasswhole	Day 200 (pickup by text) Congrats, Don Brasswholio. I raise a glass to you on this, your 200th day of not doing something you should have never started doing in the first place. Congrats!
Law1358	day 200 with the cult..thank you everyone in the cult for getting me here..it doesn't happen without y'all.. congrats to QT brasswhole!! Here's to the next day
Fowldawg	day 199 with the rest of yall. Congrats Law on the big 200!
Chambro	Day 197, WTG Brass  Law.
Dwight	197
ndrugby	195 - Congrats Brass and Law.
Jughead	185 [/center]

[/tr][/table]Support From Other Bad-Ass Quitters

Tiswritten - 230
WW 516
net gain- 42- with JeffW and Feb
Brett 116 with Jeff w
rhargett3 - 139 with the cult.
LMcB 114 quit with OffShoreMan, and Feb17
Miker0351-296 quit with the CoQ. Grats Law and Brass
J-Heff 394. with JeffW and Brasswhole all damn day
Jack - 163 Are you guys still accepting free agents? March is a total shit show lately. 'boob'
FLLIP 316 with Viking and Scott and the Cult. Congratulations to Brass and Law!!
Batdad 151 with Jeff W, Viking, Law, Bokie and CoQ - congrats on the second floor Law and Brass!
Samrs - Day 144 with Bokie, Law, Fro and the Cult.
PMILS 354 quit today with Viking, WildBirds, Law, Brass, Bokie and the CULT. Congrats to quit bruttas LAW and Brass!
Palpatine - Day 514 of freedom
MN = 404 with Viking, Scott, Offshore Man and the Cult
MikeNT day 39 with Jeff W
Rewire 518
Tonifer 251 Congrats Law and Brass

[ChickDip]

Congrats on 200 days quit Law!

[Richard K]

Holy Crap!!! I'm glad i was smart enough to but a can of fake today. I've been doing very solid in my quit here lately, but today was our first day of spring training!! Today was the first day I've ever coached a football practice without a dip in..the triggers hit me harder than that time Amanda Nunes knocked out Rhonda Rousey...just shows that even 168 days in, the struggle is still real!! The fake got me through it, and now that practice is over I feel back to normal. Just felt I needed to share this.

Every obstacle or victory you have is a success and a huge milestone. Keep up the badassery brother and each victory will feel great!!! You got this.