KTC got me through things the first time with truly quilting. A year a ago I started to be on the forum. Learning how not not be a fucking slave to this witch. 300 days. I hit that mark. I was going to be quit for life. Being the young dumb ass that I am and not being man enough to keep away from this shit. I was a paramedic and while driving home one morning, I stopped off to get gas. And there it was. My enemy was calling my name. The one thing that destroyed my life, tearing my wife away from me, showing my kids what a monster looks like. I caved. I feel back to old ways. Chew, heavy drinking, lying, and the worst not being a fucking man. Now because of my weakness, I'm not with the woman I love, she with someone else, I barely get to see my kids and I'm a 29 year old living with his parents. All of my issues started when I took the first dip back in 06. But now I have not had a dip in 2 days. I forgot what freedom and trust felt like. I'm screaming out to the suck, asking for it and wanting to feel the freedom again. Help me keep this promise that I have made to myself.