Day 66.
I in no way want to indicate that this fight is over. I understand that all it takes is a moment of weakness and lack of integrity to go right back to where I was.
However, I wanted to just say this to people who are on the fence about quitting or at the beginning of their quit. It gets better. It gets so much better.
There are many days where I don't even think about nicotine at all. If I do have the thought, seldom does it last.
I want to be a man of integrity though. I've realized there are many things I've been addicted to or currently am addicted to that have to change. I lie more than I'd like to. Hell, I lied about dip and kept it hidden from my wife for years.
I love my bourbon and have an intense collection, but if I'm honest, I drink too often and too much. Then there's the whole porn thing. Yeah, that stuff has gotta go and it has to go for good.
I suppose I've realized how much of a man child I am through this process. Eff that noise, it's time to be a man.