Day 49....
I have had a thought this morning and well I wanted to put it down so I can come back and read it when things start taking a turn for the worse.....
I have stayed quit for 49 days and crossed these hurdles without caving....
-went to work everyday at a job I really dont like
-watched and coached my youngest sons wrestling matches
-watched my oldest sons basketball games and tournaments where the games were stacked against them and not to mention the parents officials were awful
-went on 2 long trips
-drank some beer got buzzed and almost to the point of drunkenness
-had meetings with my boss who is impossible on the best days
-had meetings in my newly appointed public arena job
-had arguments and discussions with my in-laws
-had arguments with my wife
-had disagreements with my oldest daughter
-had ridiculous road rage incidents that did not include me in the rage
These are just a few of ther hurddles I feel very proud of crossing, some of these are very minor and truthfully almost all of them are.
The best thing for me and my quit is to stay near this site and read, rage, or post!
I find lots of good calming energy from being at on or near this site mainly cause if I am thinking it or if I am pissed about it there is always someone who also has had the same issue or dealt with the same issue and for me that takes my rage from a 10 down to a 2 and makes me a much more level person!
I doubt if these words will help anyone except for me but if they do just realize guys you are here for a reason, the reasons dont always show themselves right away but stay strong and stay active and good things will follow.
Some words that help me thru the day:
Nothing easy is ever worth having!
Stay the course and continue to move forward!
Be diligent and commited never have your word in doubt!