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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #29 on: March 25, 2012, 05:10:00 PM »
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #28 on: March 22, 2012, 07:19:00 PM »
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #27 on: March 22, 2012, 02:57:00 PM »
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I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.

Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.

Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.

Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.

Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.

Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."

Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.

Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.

Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.

Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.

Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.

Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.

Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Outstanding, dude. Enjoyed reading this. You are winning the war, and serving as an inspiration to all of us. Proud to be quit with you today.

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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #26 on: March 22, 2012, 01:04:00 PM »
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I have decided to make this my journal.  Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back. 

Day 1 - Thinking about quitting.  I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can"  Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions.  "do you have one in right now?"  I just put in a couple pouches.  He asked me to spit it out, to respect him.  He even said please.  At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know?  He also asked me if I was a man of my word.  Yes, I spit it out.  I committed to quit just for that day.  Threw everything out. 

Gave my wife some information from the site.  Told here that I quit today.  I told her that I was quitting for me this time.  She was awesome and very supportive.  She believed me and was, "all in" to support me.  I LOVE THAT WOMAN. 

Day 2 - Very, Very depressed.  After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict.  Addicts are other people you feel bad for.  I can't be that pathetic.  Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind.  How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word.  I needed to be quit, not cheat.  Fighting sadness today. 

Day 3 - Very foggy.  Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up.  This is hard; need a boost.  Go into chat, do a ton of reading.  Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me.  Stories, Struggles, addicts.  Go into chat, the group gets me laughing.  Realizing that even though this is hard.  It is worth it.  Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery. 

Day 4 - Great advice from group.  Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave.  I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no.  - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat.  First thought to open it and flush it.  I had a strong feeling not to open the can.  I could have been empty, but I didn't open it.  I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud)  "not today.  I quit." 

Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly.  Who am I to give advice?  I'm only on day 5.  I tell him to go to Kill the can.  I think this is the real deal.  Insomnia, went to  bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am.  Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day.  Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew.  Got support from chatting on KTC. 

Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep.  I FEEL GREAT!!!  Easy day to quit.  Things seem to be going so well for me.  Still going to the site and reading.  It is great therapy.  I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison. 

Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today.  I am even thinking I deserve to cave.  Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away.  (at the gas station)  If I do that, I start day one over.  I could just say that I am quit.  But then my quit isn't legit.  No matter what I do, I want my integrity back.  If I cave, I own it.  If I stay quit, I own that too.  I decide that no matter where this journey takes me.  I will and must be honest.  Not for anyone else's sake.  For Me and My sake.  The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving.  Take ownership and you will be healthier.  I said I quit today.  If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word. 

Day 8 - Very calm today.  Had another friend call me.  He lives in TX.  I told him that I quit the evil creature.  He said not me!  I love my grizzly mint.  I'm not quitting.  I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit.  He was so defensive that I changed the subject.  I realized that tobacco is so dangerous.  It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc.  It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway.  Yet I still have triggers.  I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip.  I have so many triggers.  Back on Kill the Can for support. 

Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood.  I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected.  I am getting emails and txts.  This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous.  Willing to stand a post but still a newbie.  Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able.  I am QUIT.  I have been quit for 9 days.  My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST.  It was about a  30 second dip.  Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in.  I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive.  I am an addict but not caving to my addiction.  I am keeping my addiction at bay.  Every day I quit and everyday I battle.  But I'm getting good at it.  I am a good soldier. 

Goals:  I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy.  I want that coin.  I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.   

Tobacco is the evil creature.  It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients.  If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you!  Kill The Can.  It starts with you Mthomas3824.
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #25 on: March 22, 2012, 01:04:00 PM »
Quote from: Mthomas3824
I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.

Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.

Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.

Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.

Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.

Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."

Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.

Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.

Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.

Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.

Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.

Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.

Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Another outstanding use of this site!

Keep everyone on the site posted even if they dont read it, even if nobody reads it, these are your thoughts and releasing them on here is a much better way to keep from raging on those you dont want to rage on!

It will definetly help you in your quit to remind yourself what your doing this for and will keep your perspective clear!

Very inspiring I am happy to be quit with you today and everyday, never forget one day at a time brother!
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #24 on: March 22, 2012, 12:59:00 PM »
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I have decided to make this my journal.  Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back. 

Day 1 - Thinking about quitting.  I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can"  Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions.  "do you have one in right now?"  I just put in a couple pouches.  He asked me to spit it out, to respect him.  He even said please.  At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know?  He also asked me if I was a man of my word.  Yes, I spit it out.  I committed to quit just for that day.  Threw everything out. 

Gave my wife some information from the site.  Told here that I quit today.  I told her that I was quitting for me this time.  She was awesome and very supportive.  She believed me and was, "all in" to support me.  I LOVE THAT WOMAN. 

Day 2 - Very, Very depressed.  After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict.  Addicts are other people you feel bad for.  I can't be that pathetic.  Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind.  How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word.  I needed to be quit, not cheat.  Fighting sadness today. 

Day 3 - Very foggy.  Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up.  This is hard; need a boost.  Go into chat, do a ton of reading.  Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me.  Stories, Struggles, addicts.  Go into chat, the group gets me laughing.  Realizing that even though this is hard.  It is worth it.  Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery. 

Day 4 - Great advice from group.  Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave.  I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no.  - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat.  First thought to open it and flush it.  I had a strong feeling not to open the can.  I could have been empty, but I didn't open it.  I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud)  "not today.  I quit." 

Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly.  Who am I to give advice?  I'm only on day 5.  I tell him to go to Kill the can.  I think this is the real deal.  Insomnia, went to  bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am.  Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day.  Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew.  Got support from chatting on KTC. 

Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep.  I FEEL GREAT!!!  Easy day to quit.  Things seem to be going so well for me.  Still going to the site and reading.  It is great therapy.  I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison. 

Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today.  I am even thinking I deserve to cave.  Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away.  (at the gas station)  If I do that, I start day one over.  I could just say that I am quit.  But then my quit isn't legit.  No matter what I do, I want my integrity back.  If I cave, I own it.  If I stay quit, I own that too.  I decide that no matter where this journey takes me.  I will and must be honest.  Not for anyone else's sake.  For Me and My sake.  The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving.  Take ownership and you will be healthier.  I said I quit today.  If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word. 

Day 8 - Very calm today.  Had another friend call me.  He lives in TX.  I told him that I quit the evil creature.  He said not me!  I love my grizzly mint.  I'm not quitting.  I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit.  He was so defensive that I changed the subject.  I realized that tobacco is so dangerous.  It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc.  It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway.  Yet I still have triggers.  I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip.  I have so many triggers.  Back on Kill the Can for support. 

Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood.  I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected.  I am getting emails and txts.  This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous.  Willing to stand a post but still a newbie.  Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able.  I am QUIT.  I have been quit for 9 days.  My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST.  It was about a  30 second dip.  Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in.  I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive.  I am an addict but not caving to my addiction.  I am keeping my addiction at bay.  Every day I quit and everyday I battle.  But I'm getting good at it.  I am a good soldier. 

Goals:  I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy.  I want that coin.  I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.   

Tobacco is the evil creature.  It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients.  If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you!  Kill The Can.  It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Brother, you rock.

Just keep doing whatever keeps you quit.

And know that, for what it's worth, I'm quit with you today.
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #23 on: March 22, 2012, 12:31:00 PM »
I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.

Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.

Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.

Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.

Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.

Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."

Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.

Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.

Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.

Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.

Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.

Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.

Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
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« Reply #22 on: March 20, 2012, 09:39:00 PM »
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Man - I love this place. Talks of fighting, war, bitches...let's get it on. Got my piss hot and I'm motivated to quit with ya!!! Good Shit

And, if you don't like that then you can SUCKIT!!!
Like ya style bro. I'll quit with ya today.
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« Reply #21 on: March 20, 2012, 06:53:00 PM »
Man - I love this place. Talks of fighting, war, bitches...let's get it on. Got my piss hot and I'm motivated to quit with ya!!! Good Shit

And, if you don't like that then you can SUCKIT!!!

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« Reply #20 on: March 20, 2012, 02:55:00 PM »
That is some great stuff everyone needs to read!

I am inspired and feel even more confident in my quit today thanks to you!

One day at a time brothers, one day at a time!

Grizz, you're a freaking man and I'm just trying to keep up with you and your resolve. I'm only at day 7. I have a lot more stripes to earn but I love to fight for a good cause. Kill The Can!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #19 on: March 20, 2012, 02:47:00 PM »
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Day 5.  So my mistress cornered me today.  In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day.  So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning. 

I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out.  In the hat was a can of the creature.  Skoal mint pouches!!!  I was going to flush it.  If I did that, there would be a step to open the can.  Something told me NOT to open the can.  I tossed it.  Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew.  Put it in there can.  I said out loud.  It's over.  NOT today! 

There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts.  If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too.  After all I'M an addict too.  There is simple but superhuman strength here.  Post roll and keep your word.  Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)

I also have help lines.  So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back.  Today is not easy, but I'm very happy.  Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories.  Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!

It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!

I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!

Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.

I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"

With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:

1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!

2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!

3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.

Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!

I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!

I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!

To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!

(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)

Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
OUTSTANDING!!!

That is some great stuff everyone needs to read!

I am inspired and feel even more confident in my quit today thanks to you!

One day at a time brothers, one day at a time!
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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #18 on: March 20, 2012, 02:32:00 PM »
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Day 5.  So my mistress cornered me today.  In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day.  So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning. 

I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out.  In the hat was a can of the creature.  Skoal mint pouches!!!  I was going to flush it.  If I did that, there would be a step to open the can.  Something told me NOT to open the can.  I tossed it.  Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew.  Put it in there can.  I said out loud.  It's over.  NOT today! 

There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts.  If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too.  After all I'M an addict too.  There is simple but superhuman strength here.  Post roll and keep your word.  Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)

I also have help lines.  So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back.  Today is not easy, but I'm very happy.  Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories.  Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!

It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!

I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!

Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.

I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"

With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:

1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!

2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!

3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.

Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!

I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!

I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!

To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!

(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)

Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
OUTSTANDING!!!

That is some great stuff everyone needs to read!

I am inspired and feel even more confident in my quit today thanks to you!

One day at a time brothers, one day at a time!
"Remember you are either getting better or getting worse, nobody stays the same!" Woody Hayes

"Winning! That's all we do around here brotha! Failure is not an option, remove it as an option and the possibilities are endless...." Bruce317 5-18-2012

"...We'll be heroes or ghosts...But we won't be turned around." Wastepanel 6-15-2012

"A QUITTER NEVER HAS TO GO THROUGH THE SUCK AGAIN!" tgafish 6-1-2012

QUIT LIKE FUCK MY BITCHES!!!

PATIENCE LIKE FUCK MY BITCHES!!!

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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #17 on: March 20, 2012, 02:23:00 PM »
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Day 5.  So my mistress cornered me today.  In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day.  So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning. 

I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out.  In the hat was a can of the creature.  Skoal mint pouches!!!  I was going to flush it.  If I did that, there would be a step to open the can.  Something told me NOT to open the can.  I tossed it.  Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew.  Put it in there can.  I said out loud.  It's over.  NOT today! 

There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts.  If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too.  After all I'M an addict too.  There is simple but superhuman strength here.  Post roll and keep your word.  Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)

I also have help lines.  So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back.  Today is not easy, but I'm very happy.  Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories.  Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!

It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!

I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!

Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.

I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"

With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:

1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!

2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!

3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.

Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!

I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!

I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!

To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!

(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)

Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
Quit And Be Free

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Re: Mthomastherapy
« Reply #16 on: March 19, 2012, 09:53:00 AM »
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.

I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!

There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)

I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!

It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!

I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!

Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
"Remember you are either getting better or getting worse, nobody stays the same!" Woody Hayes

"Winning! That's all we do around here brotha! Failure is not an option, remove it as an option and the possibilities are endless...." Bruce317 5-18-2012

"...We'll be heroes or ghosts...But we won't be turned around." Wastepanel 6-15-2012

"A QUITTER NEVER HAS TO GO THROUGH THE SUCK AGAIN!" tgafish 6-1-2012

QUIT LIKE FUCK MY BITCHES!!!

PATIENCE LIKE FUCK MY BITCHES!!!

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« Reply #15 on: March 19, 2012, 01:21:00 AM »
Stay the course and keep winning. It gets so much better and easier. I promise.

Freedom is a wonderful thing.