Mthomastherapy

[loot]

How in the Hell do you go from THIS:

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 259

Today is a great day.  First and foremost, I quit today.  Second, I got on the scale.  My weight is back to my Day 1 post.  What a great feeling. 

Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it! 

You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life?  Blah Blah Blah! 

IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!

I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison.  Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs.  I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better.  You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco. 

I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free.  I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.

It is better to be quit.  Trust me.    'fat'

To THIS:

Day 260

I don't intend to create any drama.  My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave. 

This is my official resignation letter from KTC.  The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction.  Pretty simple really:

- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat. 

That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit.  It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice.  Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer!  They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs.  (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.)  Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!    

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.  The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me. 

The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on.  Most people don't like change.  I love change and new experiences.  It is just my time to change. 

The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again! 

However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again.  That is as much a fact as we all are human.  However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life. 

Who are you and what do you believe?  The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here.  You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can. 

So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you.  My phone is open for support 24/7. 

I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck.  I embraced the suck and posted roll 100%  That is how I stayed quit.  

For those that think or say that this is a planned cave.  I don't care.  This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it. 

Stay quit.

In ONE day? :huh:

1 word

tnuC

[Nolaq]

How in the Hell do you go from THIS:

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 259

Today is a great day.  First and foremost, I quit today.  Second, I got on the scale.  My weight is back to my Day 1 post.  What a great feeling. 

Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it! 

You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life?  Blah Blah Blah! 

IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!

I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison.  Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs.  I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better.  You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco. 

I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free.  I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.

It is better to be quit.  Trust me.    'fat'

To THIS:

Day 260

I don't intend to create any drama.  My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave. 

This is my official resignation letter from KTC.  The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction.  Pretty simple really:

- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat. 

That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit.  It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice.  Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer!  They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs.  (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.)  Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!   

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.  The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me. 

The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on.  Most people don't like change.  I love change and new experiences.  It is just my time to change. 

The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again! 

However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again.  That is as much a fact as we all are human.  However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life. 

Who are you and what do you believe?  The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here.  You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can. 

So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you.  My phone is open for support 24/7. 

I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck.  I embraced the suck and posted roll 100%  That is how I stayed quit. 

For those that think or say that this is a planned cave.  I don't care.  This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it. 

Stay quit.

In ONE day? :huh:

[30yraddict]

WTF is this horse shit? Get your fucking head on straight for fucks sake. There are a shit load of guys that look up to you here and you'd consider leaving? WTF is that? Turning your back on the people and place that helped you quit and kicking dirt in the faces of those that look up to you? That seems cowardice to me when you know full well we'll always be addicts.
I've read your post four times and still don't understand WTF you're trying to say. Do me a favor and grab your scrotum. If God didn't want you to be able to do that he would have made your arms much shorter. Now squeeze them until tears flow freely down your cheeks. Perfect, now go help some other schlep from nicotine's grasp like the Titan of quit that you are and like the guys that helped you.

nothing to add. Well said!

[mich 34]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.

Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas: You don't see my point?

Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.

Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?

Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

bump

[copingwithoutcopen]

WTF is this horse shit? Get your fucking head on straight for fucks sake. There are a shit load of guys that look up to you here and you'd consider leaving? WTF is that? Turning your back on the people and place that helped you quit and kicking dirt in the faces of those that look up to you? That seems cowardice to me when you know full well we'll always be addicts.
I've read your post four times and still don't understand WTF you're trying to say. Do me a favor and grab your scrotum. If God didn't want you to be able to do that he would have made your arms much shorter. Now squeeze them until tears flow freely down your cheeks. Perfect, now go help some other schlep from nicotine's grasp like the Titan of quit that you are and like the guys that helped you.

[Diesel2112]

Day 260

I don't intend to create any drama.  My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave. 

This is my official resignation letter from KTC.  The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction.  Pretty simple really:

- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat. 

That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit.  It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice.  Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer!  They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs.  (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.)  Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!    

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.  The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me. 

The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on.  Most people don't like change.  I love change and new experiences.  It is just my time to change. 

The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again! 

However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again.  That is as much a fact as we all are human.  However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life. 

Who are you and what do you believe?  The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here.  You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can. 

So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you.  My phone is open for support 24/7. 

I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck.  I embraced the suck and posted roll 100%  That is how I stayed quit.  

For those that think or say that this is a planned cave.  I don't care.  This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it. 

Stay quit.

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.

I said I wasn't going to post here but this isn't the only roll out there.

That's all. I am not going back on the principles taught here. It is too dangerous.

I will post roll
I will keep my word and
I will repeat when tomorrow becomes today.

What other roll is out there? I feel pretty good too and like change, maybe I'll. Join you and leave too.

[Skoal Monster]

I got it just under day 300, here's a post from then of mine

Holiday prayers for Tom, Jenny ,and their kids. I used to think quitting was hard, the alternative is clearly harder. Knowing this story, I could never look into my little girls eyes and tell them that I choose cancer over them. I will never put that shit in my mouth again. I am a generally nasty guy. I believe the ends justify the means, I've been in plenty of fist fights thanks to my silver tounge, I've broken bones and have scars like evil knievel. I dont like kittens or bunnies or walks on the beach. I don't cry. When I read Hey Dad....and know he isnt there for her because of a stupid round can of cancer ? the same stupid fucking can that I used and you used. That I thought I could never give up. ? I cry like a fucking baby. I'm ashamed of this shitty addiction. I'm angry at myself for ever trying it. Im pissed off at anybody who fails to quit because I'm tormented about the fact they are killing themselves. I hate the try and maybe and luck . I fucking hate big Pharm with their idiotic patches and gum and lozenges. They claim it increases quit rates and is shown effective in a double blind study. DUH!! That study would work exactly how? If you give me a placebo I will know inside 2 hrs. I will be in a raging nic fit. So guess what I do? I know I didn't get the drug so fuck off study Im outtie to the 7-11. If I did get the drug well no sweat I guess. So the group recieving the drugs while safe from withdrawl remains addicted. the other group relapses due to withdrawl. So now the widdle druggy wuggy patchy watchy is proven successful. Horse pucky. What a sham. That and nic gum and those fucking anal suppository lozenges have a high rate of abuse. So we keep BUYING MORE!!! So ridiculous I can hardly stand it. Assuming you use them correctly and wean down as directed you wind up in a state of withdrawl anyhow!!!! So what exactly is the point. The result is the same.

Fucking mood swings STILL, temper all fucked up. Anxiety coming and going like a new york subway train. I still take some adderall to deal with the ADD but I am now suspicious that it is prolonging or preventing my nicotine addled melon from healing. All the receptors that were so happy to release or inhibit serotonin reuptake because of nicotine are now managed by Adderall. Cross addiction you may ask? perhaps. I did stop popping ativan like tic tacs and the Adderall helps kinda keep shit together and clear while it lasts. Or maybe thats just another addict rationalization. Some days and weeks are easy , some are rocky. I read that it can take 2 years to get past the physical and cognitive damage this shit did. Maybe this is like the post Hof funk and as you hit a year things get odd. Two caving dreams this week, one was a cig and the other was Kodiak. I would actually drive to a new store or chew plug before I would stick the bear in my mouth so this was really bizarre. . For you newbies I am bitching a tad, but it is without a doubt easier than at day 1 or even than day 100, hell it is even easier than yesterday. BUT I STILL QUIT ONE DAY AT A TIME. BLue claw taught me that. roughly 330 days in a row he taught me. Blue I think I'm startin to get it. !!

Thanks for the opportunity to vent
Ust are a bunch of goat molesting souless profit vampires. They have to keep making addicts faster than they kill them. They're good at both so we need to keep fighting.

sM

[loot]

Was around day 225 here. The feeling of wanting go take your ball and go home comes and goes. Each time being separated by more time than the last. Its normal. Its healthy. It passes. Dont let yourself get in the way of yourself. Take what you need and leave the rest. Or take your ball and go home. We both know the right answer. You dont make the change you did in the span of 24 hours with normal brain function. Take some time to think about it.

[RAZD611]

Day 260

I don't intend to create any drama.  My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave. 

This is my official resignation letter from KTC.  The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction.  Pretty simple really:

- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat. 

That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit.  It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice.  Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer!  They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs.  (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.)  Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!    

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.  The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me. 

The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on.  Most people don't like change.  I love change and new experiences.  It is just my time to change. 

The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again! 

However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again.  That is as much a fact as we all are human.  However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life. 

Who are you and what do you believe?  The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here.  You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can. 

So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you.  My phone is open for support 24/7. 

I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck.  I embraced the suck and posted roll 100%  That is how I stayed quit.  

For those that think or say that this is a planned cave.  I don't care.  This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it. 

Stay quit.

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.

I said I wasn't going to post here but this isn't the only roll out there.

That's all. I am not going back on the principles taught here. It is too dangerous.

I will post roll
I will keep my word and
I will repeat when tomorrow becomes today.

Day 2-6-0 huh. You are going through that period around day 250 + or -. I went through it. wans't very pleasant.

I think you should spend some time rethinking your decision.

[Mthomas3824]

Day 260

I don't intend to create any drama.  My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave. 

This is my official resignation letter from KTC.  The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction.  Pretty simple really:

- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat. 

That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit.  It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice.  Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer!  They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs.  (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.)  Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!   

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.  The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me. 

The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on.  Most people don't like change.  I love change and new experiences.  It is just my time to change. 

The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again! 

However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again.  That is as much a fact as we all are human.  However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life. 

Who are you and what do you believe?  The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here.  You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can. 

So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you.  My phone is open for support 24/7. 

I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck.  I embraced the suck and posted roll 100%  That is how I stayed quit. 

For those that think or say that this is a planned cave.  I don't care.  This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it. 

Stay quit.

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.

I said I wasn't going to post here but this isn't the only roll out there.

That's all. I am not going back on the principles taught here. It is too dangerous.

I will post roll
I will keep my word and
I will repeat when tomorrow becomes today.

[Diesel2112]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.

Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas: You don't see my point?

Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.

Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?

Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hmmmm

[Mthomas3824]

Day 260

I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.

This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:

- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.

That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!

I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.

The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.

The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!

However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.

Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.

So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.

I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit.

For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.

Stay quit.

[Grizzly25]

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 259

Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.

Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!

You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!

IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!

I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.

I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.

It is better to be quit. Trust me. 'fat'

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

Awesome victory, keep piling those voctories up brother!

[Mthomas3824]

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 259

Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.

Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!

You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!

IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!

I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.

I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.

It is better to be quit. Trust me. 'fat'

[kana]

Day 251

It has been a while.  I am still quit and loving it!  For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you. 

March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat.  I obliged.  My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back.  I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food.  (I tripled my nicotine use.)  

Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off.  From March until September....I gained 30 LBS! 

Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort.  Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT! 

I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit.  Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March.  I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine.  Today that same man is free from its addictive chains.  Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve.  I set my course because I am free.  I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.    

If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit.  There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have.  Control your addiction to nicotine first.  Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish. 

Quitting is hard, damn hard.  When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it. 

Quit first and foremost!

just a thank you as am in the process of going through what you have exactly explained. I too had gained 25-30 lbs in my 100 days from day 1 to the HOF, and I made a vow that when I hit that 100 I would work on getting the weight back off. Well I had a late start and getting to 5 lbs off, but know there is much more....

Bravo, Brother....QLAFM

ya I need to face that one too. I haven't been exercising. maybe that's why I've been a bitch lately.. Thanks for the kickstart..