Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters
utah summers
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.